~Love Is In The Air~

终于结束了..

2010-12-12T00:01:00.002-09:00

一年多的等待.
终于在前天做了一个了断.
结果,算是已经有了一个心理准备吧.
已经打了最坏的打算.
有什么好怕的?
哈哈~!
所以请大家别再讲我们两个咯~
谢谢.

给你的:
我真的有打算就算做不到情人.
做个最要好的朋友也不错的.
可惜的是,我不能忍受,也不能忘记和你在一起的那段日子.
虽然,快乐不会比悲伤的来得多.
可是,足够让我刻骨铭心.
所以我选择当一个"最熟悉的陌生人"
忘记以前的一切。
你生气了。我伤心了。
狠心的我，你真的会选择与我做回朋友吗？
哈哈。你只是不想失去一个朋友吗？
其实，不要紧的。我并不是什么重要的人。
就算我不在你的生活里，也给不了什么大的影响。
一直到昨天，我病了。
等待着你的信息。当时还在蒙在鼓里。
好，我们做回朋友。
可是，直到今天早上。
上线了。看到了照片。
才知道，原来你还是有东西瞒着我。
你并没有责任告诉我所有东西。
我知道，我也没有资格知道你的生活一切一切。
但是，你知道我最痛恨别人骗我。为什么你还这样对我。
我不会怪你。
因为，我已经决定了。
就做“熟悉的陌生人”吧。
或许我们都会开心一点。

好了。
坚强的我，至少没有为了这件事
流任何一滴眼泪。
hu~~
好了。过去了，就让它过去。
我没有后悔等待你的那段时间。
我觉得值得的。
我爱你这三个字。
就让另一个你需要的人，对你说吧。
加油，你和我。

病了~

2010-11-28T01:21:00.002-09:00

今天，睡到十点才醒来。
我的天啊！怎么了？
不用去学校吗？
哈哈！
赶紧刷，洗脸，换上衣服就走了。
跳美人计。哈哈！！好玩又好笑。

跳完了，去时代广场走走。
去了投篮，看人跳舞。
然后就去pavillion。
约了amanda看戏，但最后没有看，因为tai wei kit 不要看。
走走。走走。怎知道，突然我就蹲了下来。
我走不动了。脚好疼。
哈哈！我完全笑不出来。
我的脚，到底发生了什么事？？
糟糕咯！！哈哈！
我病了。真的病了。
几时才能复原呢？
快一点好吗？

如果爱你，而选择离开你。
是因为，我爱你真的爱得太深了。
如果离开你，而选择忘记你。
是因为，你在我心中真的太重要。
如果忘记你，叫做逃避。
我觉得，或许逃避是唯一的方法。

一直记得。
我不放弃，不代表你还会爱我。

-engleong-

表错情的我。

2010-11-27T07:44:00.002-09:00

有时候，我真的希望你伤害我。
至少，我知道你有多爱或恨我。
好过现在，到底是怎样？
我们是怎样了。
我完全不知道，你到底还爱不爱我。
互相猜疑，互相躲避，互相隐瞒，但从不坦言。
从来，我就没有要放弃你
或许会有这个念头。
到最后，一定会把这念头打消。
因为我觉得，我们还有机会。
但为什么，我总觉得你把机会都收了起来。
不让我有一点希望。
也许，这就是你对我唯一能做的事。
也是一件可以让我不要想那么多的方法。
但你错了，完全都错了。
由始至终，我从不停止想我们之间的事。
刚才，我表错情了。
我真的以为你写的那些，都是写给我的。
但原来，不是的。你不是写给我的。
你不再需要我了。
身边，围绕在你左右的。不只我一个。
还有千千万万个，和我有一样念头的人。
哈哈。可笑。
我是谁？我只是一个籍籍无名的小子。
与你比起来，简直就是小巫与大巫。
或许你说的对，我们本来就是两个世界的人。
根本不应该在一起。
是我的错。是我的错。
我一直烦着你。
是我自己放不开。
我答应过我自己。
自从去年预考时发生过那件事后，我不会再伤害你。
但如果你真的不再爱我了，请狠心地对我说。
你不再爱我了。
我不想再为这件事流泪。
我知道，我需要你。
但如果你需要的人，不再是我，我会离开。

希望，
我真的希望，你可以想清楚，再告诉我。
你的决定。
不需要勉强。反正，爱情本来就不可以勉强的。
我会以微笑，面对每一个决定。你的决定！
谢谢。

-engleong-

想念，像风一样

2010-11-26T08:07:00.002-09:00

思念是一种，很玄的东西~

不经意地想起了这首歌。
对！思念的确很玄。
让人想念一个人的力量，不需要很大。
一点就够了。

想起了你，想起了你爱的歌，更想起了你的脸。
叹气声，一一占据了我的心。
耳朵不断响起，你的声音，音律。
难道，就是不能让我入眠的原因。

身体越来越差了。。
是己人忧天，还是真的呢？
不知道。也不想理。
得过且过，过了一天就一天。

谁懂，谁理，谁管，谁想。
不懂，不理，不管，也不想。

哈哈！！
人就是那么可笑。
想念一个人。
却无法告诉她。
收在心里，谁懂？
她不会懂。

好了。是时候睡了。
拜拜。。

-engleong-

bio soil analysis--> fahrenheit----> pavillion

2010-11-24T07:44:00.005-09:00

it is really tiring and annoying when teacher told us that school holidays we r having extra class..
holidays are for us to rest bt nt study lo!!
y muz VI teacher make all the form 6 students stress le?
i dun understand~~

bt luckily we have our own way to remove n release all the STRESS away!! haha
i was freaking tired in the morning mayb caused by sleeping late for these few days.. i mean almost everyday! haha
soil analysis is fun~
bt we re-do it again and again since we dont know the method to carry out the experiment. until we find it out by ourselves.. so PROFESSIONAL! haha
den someone decided to take our ASS photo becuz we both have the same brand tag on our pants!
the SIFAT queen! haha. levi's brand tag~
take alot photo in skul bt i lazy to put it out!
dun want to talk about thing in skul!

skip~~
n then FAHRENHEIT 88!!!
take alot pics there~ let photos tell u wad i have done thr~
wee~~~
first of all! sushi zanmai~

cheers~~~

before the food comes~ picha time!!!!

nice food~

hehe~~ saliva coming out a~~

i like this photo so much!!!

after that~ we walk around n talk alot alot photos~~~~
post some of them here.. lazy la~ haha

den we went to pavillion n take photos again! haha

y m i look cute huh!! haha

i look so cute!!!

went to snowflakes n eat.. these are they!!!!weee!! nice~

haha! thats all la! tired..
nitez ppl~

-engleong-

想念，此刻此时此景

2010-11-08T02:23:00.002-09:00

已经很久没有上我的部落格了。
很想知道，我最近发生什么事吗？
哈哈。

最近的心情，会比平常悲了些
因为该在的人，已经不在了。
有一点寂寞的感觉吧。
说没有是假的。
或许，自己看开了许多吧。
不会好像以前一样，钻牛角尖。
以前，不甘寂寞的我，会躲在房里哭吧
现在，习惯就好的我，会勇于面对它了

好久好久没有与华文学会的人玩得那么疯。
好尽兴，好享受，好开心
这才是我想要的日子

回想以前的日子
有了你，令我感受到，普通朋友给不到的感觉。
但我会慢慢习惯。
习惯没有你的日子。
希望，我希望这只是暂时。
我真的好怀念，以前与你共度的时光。

holiday mode hasnt on yet

2010-11-02T04:22:00.002-08:00

today is the last day of skul for this week.. Deepavali is coming..
went to skul n sleep? haha. funny duh!!
i rather stay at home n sleep..
went to skul juz becuz i have CLU meeting la.
i m a very responsible president lai de..
hahaha.
perasan betul!!
i m who i m.. i m a joker in the world!
i like to make ppl smile, like to make ppl laugh.
when they laugh or smile.. i will definitely feel happy too..
haha. i weird?? isnt it?

meeting goes quite well.. bt the problem is..
i need to shout when i m conducting the meeting..
summore, i had finished my whole bottle of water n make my throat freaking dry n pain!!
omg!! first time..
haha. kinda good.. at least everyone laugh n had fun throughout the meeting.
no one cries like last time.
bt still.. ur noise have to reduce.. n pls gv cooperation to me when i m talking..
do ur stuff faster..
bt nt last minutes.. this is my opinion to u guys!
i cant say that i m a good president.
bt i can promise myself.. once i becum the president.. i will do my job well..
this is wad i hope u guys will follow too..

after that, went to eat with frens..
Chloe, lai fun. terry, zhen yau, eddison, sam, tai.. haha
went to MACHA mamak restaurant.
this is always the best moment for my every schooling days.
haha. after skul.. went to this restaurant.. eat n make noise.. forget all the stress, pressure, sadness...
wooot~~ relief!!!!
hahaha...
chat alot with tai n sam..
ooo!!
吊哦，噢，aiyok, aiyok, 不错哦！！ hahaha
we were all learning jay chou!!
n all laughing non stop! haha..
the tauke there already get use to our craziness..
haha..
eat til 5 sumthing.
then go home!! haha..
bt someone who has problem wants me to stay back.. n discuss about his prob..
ended up with went home at 6 sumthing.!! haha.
ok. things settle.. stay strong! be tough! haha..
this is wad i can say..
be urself.. ignore the bad, remmeber the best.. haha. =)
thats all..

-engleong-

private and public

2010-10-30T06:17:00.002-08:00

recently..
i keep setting my blog to private n public..
i juz dun want to let others to read my sad stuff..
n then affect ur mood.
i will open it back when everything is fine. including myself.
now i open it back..
so u guys can read wads happening on me.
well..
thats all..
nitez ppl

-engleong-

勇气

2010-10-29T06:26:00.003-08:00

轻轻的你，犹如轻轻的风，带来了我沉重的心情，悲伤的思念。
受了伤的心，该如何复原。

是。
我是。
我是一个没有勇气的人。
一个没有勇气面对现实的人。

事实，告诉了你。
却不想面对。
哈哈
可笑。可耻。可悲。可怜。

我并不乞求，把所有事情告诉我。
但不要，对我那么狠心。可以吗？
难道，那么久的感情，可以因为那梦想，而通通抹掉吗？
我并不知道，如果你不再爱我了。告诉我。好吗？
哭了。再次，哭了！T.T

狠下心，说再见，不容易，后流泪，才发现，爱不在，不重要，都放开，梦想路，你加油，我支持，到永远。

random

2010-10-29T04:37:00.003-08:00

at my brother university now..
i totally gt ntg to do here as my brother having meeting right now..
wth man.. he left me in his hostel room..
luckily his university has wi-fi service..
otherwise, i definitely killed by the boredom here..
omg!! first time stay together with another guy who i dunno at all..
he is my brother roommate..
well.. he is nt my roommate.. i feel so paiseh when blogging infront of him..
i mean.. in front of someone who i dunno at all or we known them as strangers..
haha..

well.. gt ntg to do here.. so plan to blog a little bit about today..
since all of my frens include my classmates are all goin to ARP camp today..
my class onli left one person which is me!! so all the teachers planned nt to teach..
of cuz.. if teacher wanna teach me alone, i will say NO to them too..
wad for studying alone.. of cuz wait for my fren to continue the syllabus together..
i m nt that selfish lol~
perhaps i m lazy.. haha..
chatted with them at open hall from 9 til 11.. becuz some of the stupid ppl said they will depart at 9 bt ended up depart at 11 sumthing..
omg!! haha. bt nt bad oso la..
can chat for so long~ haha..
make a lot noise n fun..
y i always can joke in skul, bt nt at home..
i wonder if i can be a joker at home.
today things wont happen n my mood wont be ruined today!!

reached home at 5 sumthing..
sit at home i thought i can sit down quietly n rest for a moment..
suddenly, my mum started everything.. talk about me! gv up studies becuz of on9-ing, girs, frens, society!! n so on!!
i m so fed up! since when i gv up my studies..
form six is nt easy as wad u all think!! ok??
n i m nt smart!!
wad u expect me to do..
yea.. i know my marks is low for this time exam..
bt nt onli me ok?? everyone got low..

wad do u expect when the highest mark for maths T in our skul is 63 n i gt 57 which is the second highest..
wad do u expect when the highest marks for chemistry is 60+ oso when i gt 56 which is the third highest..
wad do u expect when the highest marks for bio is 72 wen i gt 71/72 which is the second or highest oso for this subject??

i cant manage to get all As for all the subjects.. i m nt smart!!
i am nt!
u said! when started f6 syllabus, u want me to change to maxwell, bt i say no! of cuz i say no when i have been study in VI for 5 years..
it isnt an easy thing for me to change the situation n study environment.. u know??
why dun u blame urself.. when i was form 1.. when i nvr get ready for my secondary skul..
i asked for shifting to maxwell.. why u say no!
this is so irritating..
t
then, my eldest brother came in n scolded me..
all the EXCUSES u say is juz for u to avoid prob..
u juz dun dare to accpet different study environment, u juz have no courage to try something new.. u dun dare to face the new faces in new skul!!
wad r u talking about?? do u think u relly understand me well.. i m nt that kind of person! k?
i wanted to stay in VI

1st! becuz i dun want to change skul environment.. is nt about i dun dare or wad.. is juz i dun want.. this is my choice n i will nt regret!
2nd! i have a smart fren study in VI too, y i wanna leave him.. if i stay in thr, n when i gt any prob about my studies, at least i gt someone to ask.. nt like u goin to teach me anything about my studies..
i have to work hard for myself..

ok, then i think its time for me to stop oepn up my mouth to fight back..
becuz i know if i dun stop, the war will still goes on n make things worst..
den, suddenly, eng hong is here.
then my eldest bro started to talk about his teacher's opinion on us..
ok.. she said i look so arrogant..
well.. ok.. i admit.. bt this is my look. how i going to change my look..
m i arrogant?? i will nvr show this face to my close frens. ok?
this is wad u see becuz u r nt close with me..
understand me more pls??
den his teacher talked about eng hong..
he doesnt agree with wad his teacher said.. den start fighting back..
the war continue again!!
its enuf for me.. i really cant stand for this..
everytime i saw brothers fighting or arguing..
i feel so damn sad..
i dunno.. bt it is really hurt..
i hide myself in my room.. of the light.. cover myself with a pillow..
try to sleep..
dun want to listen to wad they said..
i want my mood to be better..
i slept at last.. bt onli for one minutes..
den eng hong came in.. n ask me to go university with him..
n this is y i m here right now..

ok.. thats all for today.. when i was sleeping.. i thinking of this poem..
本是同根生，相煎何太急。

-engleong-

诗----叫珍惜

2010-10-27T00:12:00.002-08:00

我转着手中的铅笔
看着空白的纸张
想起‘你’

我摇着坐着的篮椅
看着乌黑的天空，
用云朵模拟‘你’

我打从心中在想你
听者虫鸣的声音
呼唤‘你’

我是不是很侥幸
因为有了‘你’
才了解，
何谓情

直到你决定离我远去
我才知道，我有否存在于你心底
直到你决定想要放弃
我才知道，你根本不属于我
直到你让我伤透了心
我才知道，原来我不是很坚强而已
直到我真的放不下心
我才知道，没把你抓紧，是我最后悔的决定。

珍惜，眼前的人，永远的情义。

new song again

2010-10-26T23:10:00.004-08:00

歌曲：就当爱
作词：陈泳甬

困在房里的我
一句话都不说
孤独躲在角落
无法控制的痛

冷风轻轻掠过
麻痹所有的痛
刺痛在我心中
抱你在我怀中 oh~

如果可以我愿意付出我一切
如果爱你我相信不再说抱歉
如果离开才明白爱已不存在
如果承受了伤害再也看不清未来

就当爱在你我之间距离徘徊
不想被放弃感觉失败
因为我放不开

就当爱让所有一切变成空白
时间一一过去都成了遗憾已不在
经历的回忆是否还存在

oh~~

因为爱你不愿意放弃了一切
因为相信才决定不再说抱歉
因为离开才明白你对我的爱
因为承受过伤害才不让你离开

就当爱在你我之间距离徘徊
不想被放弃感觉失败
因为我放不开

就当爱让所有一切变成空白
时间一一过去都成了遗憾已不在
经历的回忆是否还存在
我希望我们从来不曾放开。。

a day i will nvr forget

2010-10-26T08:31:00.002-08:00

in the morning..
i already i will not have appetite to eat..
so i sms-ed yee ling dun pack food for me..
haha.
then suddenly feel abit hungry during recess so buy something to eat..
i can nvr stop thinking about that.

Cool.
Emo.
Angry.
Disappointed.
are the above feeling having in u now?? i dunno y u treated me so cool these days.

Hurt.
Helpless.
Sigh.
Sad.
today is the first time i cry in skul becuz of this thing..
this is something that i dun want it to happen in my life..
i know the previous post that i published out definitely will affect us.
bt this is wad i dun want to happen too..
i wont want to tell u face to face
i dun want to see u emo..
i promised myself nt to make u emo. bt i keep broke my promise..
Cried.. for few minutes. den i control myself..
i cant cry. i dun want to let my friends to see their forever joker to cry..
i dun like to act happy in front of them when i m sad.

do u know that? everytime i tell u about my stress stuff n emo stuff i can feel so much better..
becuz when i m stress.. all i need is onli u.
bt i dunno that becuz of my stress and emoness.. will make u emo..
when u say u dun wan to think about it.. n even juz now..
when i talk about those thing.. u speechless..
i hold my feeling.. i wont show my sad face out.
i cant show my real feeling..
juz becuz i dun want others to worry about me.
i wan to be a tough ppl who can protect u as well.. like wad wern said.
bt nt a weak ppl who always cry behind n dunno wad to do.. easy to feel panic when something bad is happen..

i always try my best to change myself.
until today onli i know i m still standstill at the original position bt nvr move forward..

dear..
=( that i make u speechless juz now.
=( that i had made u emo for the past few days.
=( that i nvr think from ur side.
=( that becuz of my emoness, i made u moody too..

-engleong-

我不知道的事

2010-10-22T08:09:00.003-08:00

原来，我什么都不懂。

我不知道，
我的情绪，会影响到你。

我不知道，
我的幼稚，会影响到你。

我不知道，
我的关心，会绑住了你。

我不知道，
我的固执，会让你生气。

我不知道，
我的妒忌，会让你无奈。

我不知道，
我的想法，会让你叹气。

我不知道。
但我现在，什么都知道了。
我会改。只需要你给的机会。

珍惜，眼前的人，永远的情。。。
=）

-engleong-

希望有一天

2010-10-17T22:28:00.003-08:00

我愿意去相信你伪装的表情
直到你不愿意掩饰你自己
看不清你说你心里的风铃
一旦被风吹过以后便响起

再一次看着彼此眼泪不受控制
这一切画的句点又何必再眷恋
如果你已经决定跟随爱的感觉
一起走出我们曾拥有的世界

我希望真的有一天
让你紧靠在我的肩
与你共度的每一天
一一刻在我的心田
近近的贴着你的脸
画着你心中的想念
与你画出美丽句点
我想我们可以相见

我可以陪着你不让你哭泣
看着你你的泪滴伤透我的心
你给的给的一切是否该放弃
不再执著所以才能过得更清醒

我希望真的有一天
让你紧靠在我的肩
与你共度的每一天
一一刻在我的心田
近近的贴着你的脸
画着你心中的想念
与你画出美丽句点
我想我们可以相见

我希望真的有一天
与你不必再说抱歉
尽管有多么的狼狈
走处我们的世界。

-end-

stress gonna run away from me after a week...

2010-10-17T20:39:00.002-08:00

i skipped skul today juz to study at home..
funny ya! skip skul juz to study..
wad kind of theory n reason is this! haha
mayb i can study better in skul..
cuz my eldest brothe now making sound pollution...
he is singing K while i m studying..
oh gosh!!
i cant believe that i can tahan for so long.. still highlighting the PA points..
bt of cuz nt memorising it yet..
i really cant study now..
brain stuck!!!
i gonna fail my exam this time!!..
shuld i gv up or continue study?
of cuz if u know me well, i wont gv up so easily~~ >.<
played plants vs zombie when i feel really bored..
it finally wake me up from study this stupid PA..
i still left around 100 pages haven memorise ONLY!!
haha..
sound so arrogant, bt wad i mean is 'only' lol..

last saturday.. (16/10/10)
i always tried to blog about our dating.. becuz i hope i can note it down forever..
like wad william shakespear's aim for writing the SONNET 18..
early in the morning.. do housework as home as my mum ask me to do so..
finish everything in an hour i think.. i m superb pro in doin housework..
perhaps better than a girl i think? hahaha
well..
we already planned to go pavillion last week..
went out to find xintao together with kaizer.
went to maxwell first.. bt since they haven finish their chinese class..
so we waited for them outside their classroom.
departed at 12 sumthing..zun zen n pei wern went thr by foong chia's car..
meet there then~

reached pavillion, n wait for them at main entrance..
went wong kok after that to wait for clement n have some food cuz xintao n yen rhu nt eaten yet.
wthx la wern!! haha u know why i say thx?? oo.. too bad.. u wont understand.. haha
buy CHILD'S EYES ticket together with zun zen..

to zun zen <3: y r u always almost fall down when stand together with me a?? *at escalator*

haha.. funny lol~
went back to wong kok n clement reached..
we watch SAMMY's ADVENTURE.. dun worry clement.. is nt ghost movie..
i dunno that clement actually scare of ghost movie! haha
make us laugh out loud on spot..
hahaha..
dun scare.. many gor gor thr~~
ok.. the movie started at 2.05 bt we went in at 2.15 i think.. we were late a little bit..
the process of watching it is damn funny lol..
nt scary oso.. cuz ppl around me make me feel funny..
some of them wrapped themselves like ketupat on the chair.. *a girl who i dunno at all sit beside me..*
den someone who sit beside me screamed once becuz wern scream at her ear.. hahaha..
clement scream when thr is no one scream make all of us laugh lol!!!
hahaha...
wanna try another one next time?? clement??

went to dragon-i to have our lunch..
la mee~~ haha.. ok lol.. nt bad..
laugh alot oso.. especially zen n wern..
all guys are damn blur becuz we dunno wad they both laughing at..
sot sot de~~ hahaha
the onli pic of the day!!

tada~~~

like this so much~

well..
since wern have to go.. den we accompany her to wait for their parents..
then, its time for us to say goodbye to her becuz her parents reached.

went in again den gelato time! i cant eat becuz having stomachache suddenly.
gosh!!!!!
=( sad lol~
zen plan to go food court.. den we went down thr n sit n rest..
wei kit called n then he come n met me..
went to speedy.. n stadium.. inside is so damn cold..
bt someone feel cold.. so gv her my sweater lol..
haha.
i can walk together with u for so long lol..
a bit tired.. bt u r more tired than me~~ haha..
dunno wad to say anymore..
i dun want u to go home lol~
cuz i know i gonna miss u so badly after that.
haha..
bt u still have to go.. =)
watch u go up ur car.. den onli i go..
lalalalala~~ i miss someone while typing this! haha
gonna study now..
stress!!! haha. =)
go away.. SHoo SHoo!!

study!!! PA!! i m gonna beat ur S off!!
haha.. good luck to all my frens!!!
all the best for tomolo!!!
fight together!
yea!!!

-engleong-

失望，是你们给我感觉到的！！

2010-10-14T08:44:00.002-08:00

一代不如一代。
这是学哥给我们的意见，给我们的评价。
你们是真的让它实践吗？
我真的很担心，我会找不回以前的感觉。

CLU is getting worse n worst!!!
i dunno how to say..
bt. is my problem or ur problems..
it is better if it is my problem becuz i know that i definitely will change myself no matter wad..
bt how about u all..
can u all please shut ur mouth n do ur work properly..
do not need to care about wad others said n think...
juz do ur own work.. nicely, perfectly.. tats all..
is that hard for u guys..
or u all dun wan to do it..

president post isnt that easy.
to organize a society well is hard..
becuz i m nt eng hong.. i m nt the one who organize 9 skul gathering, SS camp!!!
i m fucking stress u know..
i cant get any support from anyone of u..
becuz u all nvr think at my point of view..
i used to be a joker in VICLU..
n the days was freaking fun n enjoy!
what happening?? why all these happy moments gone juz becuz of the new batch coming in..
EMO, BACK STAB, CRY, HURT... the most popular n suitable word for all of us in VICLU 10/11

i dun wan to say anything in this so much..
ppl always say..
家丑不外传。
我就是要传。

我不知道是我变了，还是你们变了。
希望，永远存在。
但不希望它会转变成失望。

good luck to all 10/11 NEW CLU committee..
if u all really want CLU good.. n becum the best society in VI..
pls........
change all ur bad things.!!!
post mortem isnt conducted juz for fun...
remember wad i had told u all..

-engleong-

music blog~

2010-10-08T21:54:00.002-08:00

well.. spent few days to think of my songs..
i mean.. each day one song..
haha.. kinda fun..
bt too bad that i m cannot play music instrument..
so i can only sing it out..
kinda shy to post it out although this is my own blog..
bt anyway, hope u guys like it..

i dunno y,
the melody in my mind sometimes is juz so familiar to some song that already created by others..
haha. mayb i m nt good enuf to compose my own song..
bt i will try my best to achieve the best..
hahaha..
thx to those frens who actually support me with ur heart..
thx alot.. n thx to those who actually gv me comment no matter good or bad..
these make me to improve myself in this..
gv me more comment..
i have to improve my chinese language too.. haha
well.. of cuz u all are nt the first one who listen to my song..!!! hahaha

frens always be the one who support u bt nt family members..
they always insult me no matter wad i do..
even i m juz singing other ppl songs, they will ask me to shut up n says i m noisy..
well? i juz do wadever i want without getting anyone's permission.
alot thing to blog today.. simply because i did nt blog for dunno how many days..
becuz of this MUSIC brain!!!
==..

back to my life~~
my life is interesting.. haha.
becuz i have someone who i need the most..
becuz i have someone who can hear me n share my happiness n sadness..
becuz i have someone who can cheer me up when i m down.
wad about my skul life?
i had juz done my MUET speaking test on last thursday~
unexpected results.. becuz i actually get the highest in my class..
woooot~~ doesnt mean i m good in english..
juz talk crap.~ haha.
n the teacher is kind..
i gt 30 over 45. is considered good gua~~
juz nvr look too high on this.. cuz my english is nt really good..
=P

wad about CLU~~
this year.. i cried twice becuz of CLU..
last time i used to be very fun n dun wanna go home when having meeting..
i even feel like quiting this society..
no fun, no cooperation..
onli argument between the AJK..
Backstabbers all around..
yucks!!!!
bt luckily n finally...
the feeling is back.. mayb we muz work together after getting scolded by the seniors..
then onli WE all will listen..
bt. let ppl scold very fun mie?? cant we juz do something without getting scolded by others..
i so KIND thats y i dun want to scold ppl la.. hahaha
perasan betul..
bt i think this is feeling is onli when together with the young one n some of the old one...
there are still some of them who dont really wanna join us in this..
we cant get all together in one like last time yet..
this still needs some time..
hope next year will be better..
n hope u all remmeber wad i said..
do not back stab! if u wanna talk about him/her.. talk in front of them..

recorded few videos in skul..funny video~~!!
hahaa..
some of them are in damalis phone..
n some of them are in wei inn phone..
waiting for them to upload..
cant stop laughing when watching that..

eh macha!!! sini orang mau jalan.. kau duduk kat sini buat apa~~!! hahahahahahaha

-engleong-

第三首歌- 远。离。爱 (远距离恋爱)

2010-10-06T07:37:00.006-08:00

作词-陈泳甬
作曲-理由，还是一样。。
歌名-远。离。爱 (远距离恋爱)

看着你，
静静聆听你的呼吸
呼吸声里满了空气

想着你
你我之间分隔两地
在多么遥远的距离

爱情再转身
就让我勇敢的奔
走进了永远关闭的那扇门

远距离的恋爱
有多少个空白
独自站在露台受着伤害
有无尽的对白

空地长满青苔
岁月都流白
以前的在想不开全都放开
因为爱你我再重来

听见你
心里面深深的烙印
让回忆随着风而去

问着你
埋藏在心底的秘密
一切都不让我看清

爱你有多深
不必再放声去问
让全世界知道我爱你有多深

远距离的恋爱
有多少个空白
独自站在露台受着伤害
有无尽的对白

空地长满青苔
岁月都流白
以前的在想不开全都放开
因为爱你我再重来 oh!

远距离的恋爱
有多少个空白
独自站在露台受着伤害
有无尽的对白

空地长满青苔
岁月都流白
以前的在想不开全都放开
因为爱你我再重来

就算远距离恋爱受过伤害
因放开爱情才存在

-end-

再你不需要的时候，自然会离开

2010-10-06T03:56:00.002-08:00

我的心好疼
不知道为什么
看到了，只是那短短的一句留言。
看见了时间，只是在那一瞬间
或许，我并不是你需要的那一个
可怜的人，
形容得好贴切哦。
哈哈！

不禁想起以前队自己许过的承诺

我会以微笑来队待每一件事！

第二首歌-不够勇敢

2010-10-01T16:29:00.004-08:00

作词:陈泳甬
作曲:都说了本人不会玩音乐嘛!
歌曲:不够勇敢

自己的看法-对不起，chorus 有点像我爱他。哈哈！！！本人的华文造诣也不是很好。

不够勇敢

爱情本来就不该是这样
因为, 每个人有不同的梦想.
直到想起了
自己生活模样
不想让生活过的放荡

如果结局让人觉得慌张
只因,没空间没有了方向
一直等待着
他想对我说的謊
才发现自己不够勇敢

我爱他跌入无穷无尽的山谷
只害怕爱他这个决定是错误
放不开的情让它一一留住
走出不该停留的公路
我才领悟.

我不想再停留在这时刻
不让,你把我的心再割舍
心痛的想着
唱这悲伤情歌
只好收拾好自己的行李

看着他一步一步离开我远去
却不能一步一步慢慢地靠近
贴近你的心
体谅你的心情
告诉我你不曾放在心底
叫我死心
OH~~~

我爱他跌入无穷无尽的山谷
之害怕爱他这个决定是错误
放不开的情让他一一留住
走出不该停留的公路

看着他一步一步离开我远去
却只能一步一步慢慢的靠近
在这瞬间里
与你的回忆
永远把它藏埋在心底
让自己死心

只怪我自己不够勇敢
想你却心伤。

please do not laugh at me if the lyrics is bad or i sing like a toad..
this is juz onli for fun~~~~~~~

我的第一首歌

2010-09-29T23:52:00.012-08:00

歌名：没爱错的他
作词：陈泳甬
作曲：还没有，由于本人不会玩乐器，所以只能用来哼的。

一首歌
写给你的一首歌
在脑海里不停的想着
只为了等待那一刻

哭泣了
因为你而哭泣了
紧握的手不停颤抖着
只因为我想你了

chorus:
不停的徘徊着
昂首望着天空却下雨了
想起了自由自在
无忧无虑的那一刻

停下了脚步呢
被风吹过以后就消失了
失去的回忆全都消失了
因为你我无法忘记呢

哭泣了
因为你而哭泣了
恍惚的眼神凝望着你
只因为你一直在这

chorus:
不停的徘徊着
昂首望着天空却下雨了
想起了自由自在
无忧无虑的那一刻

停下了脚步呢
被风吹过以后都消失了
失去的回忆全都消失了
因为你我无法忘记呢

就算爱错的他无法自拔
不管别人说他有多么傻
不管风雨多大流言多怕
我也不会让你离开了我的世界
因为爱你到永远

不停的徘徊着
昂首望着天空却下雨了
想起了自由自在
无忧无虑的那一刻

紧紧的拥抱着
无法放开所以就牵住了
失去的我都会一一记得
因为你我无法放弃了。

因为你我无法，忘记你~~

good luck to u guys!

2010-09-28T03:52:00.002-08:00

to all the SPM candidates..
its ur turn now.
haha.. good luck in ur trials!
juz a few weeks. very soon den will end de.
dun worry.
to those forrm 5 i know.
clement,kaizer,xintao,yen rhu- maxwellian
yinyi,pei wern,suzanne- SBU-ians
alot more.. lazy to list out..

of cuz..
for u!! good luckz!!
u know who u r. haha.
=) be confident. i know u can do it.!
support u.

STPM candidates.
VI de CLU-ians.. good luck!!!!

PMR. SAm n Tai..
well.. good luck to u too...

backstabbers!

2010-09-25T03:24:00.002-08:00

i hate back stabbers..
y? no y.. i dun think there is ppl who like back stabber.
this recently happened on myself.
i dunno y.. ppl juz like to back stab others..
like was i posted in facebook

如果你想要打败我,请你在光明正大的情况下,显出你的实力.不要在我背后重伤我.
我的私生活,轮不到你来管.谢谢你的''关心''

dun care about this kind of ppl..
juz calm down. n be happy tan eng leong...

yesterday went to wei kit house n stay overnight.
talked alot n played alot..
summore go eat supper together at 2 sumthing after i finished something.
=)
sleep be4 3 o clock..
haha.

skipped skul today becuz yesterday played til so crazy n sleep really late.
go alvin house played PS2 after sending theen meng home.
wei kit keep losing one. ==
haha.
go to skul afterward.. at 1 pm.
almost late to go pudu.

to YOU:
luckily still can meet u.
haha.
pass the thing to u..
tell u sumthing later. haha

go to meeting after that. =)
meeting ok la.
juz discuss about wad we can improve next year..
n the problems that we faced this year.
well.. backstabbers.. stop talking bad about ppl..
not onli me bt others too.. shut ur mouth n stop back stabbing.
ntg much. so juz skipped..

-engleong-

I beLIEve YOU

2010-09-19T07:28:00.002-08:00

我真的不想。
但是我无法不这样做。
在没有和你谈话的时候，真的很闷。
我宁可不交谈，也不想像刚才一样。
我会想很多。
终于，我下线了。等待着。
哈哈。

yesterday,
9 skul carnival..
haha. fun? mayb..
suprise? mayb
dunno how others feel..
juz do my best n then everything ok.
i really dunno wad to blog when i onli remember something that i cant blog it out.. haha
bye readers.
juz to tell my overall feeling
preparation- i m worrying about everything
practising- i m worrying about my performance
resting- i m worrying about whether ppl will come or nt,
when carnival start- scare
half way- getting more ppl coming in.. excited..
end- happy ending..
sending someone home- touched, happy, sweet..
reached home- tired..

-engleong-

changing templates

2010-09-15T09:09:00.004-08:00

haha.. funny lol.
the first time i so confuse about changing my templates..
change templated at 1 sumthing.
with someone..
she is teaching how to change the templates..
haha.. i m super blur with this. haha.
i discover myself.
den suddenly can wor~~~
haha.. wad a nice try..
=) to the one who teach me~ haha
first time change templates together.
i can be very happy juz becuz of a little thing that we do together.
=)
is it a good thing? haha
i think it is~

-engleong-

I.N.E.E.D.Y.O.U

2010-09-15T06:51:00.002-08:00

T.O.D.A.Y..
I.T.S. M.E.E.T.I.N.G. D.A.Y. A.G.A.I.N.
W.E.L.L
I.T. M.A.K.E.S. M.E. A.N.N.O.Y.E.D A.G.A.I.N.
I. D.U.N.N.O. Y.
W.H.E.N. H.E C.A.M.E.
M.Y. M.O.O.D. I.S T.O.T.A.L.L.Y D.O.W.N.
I. D.U.N. W.A.N.T. T.O. T.H.I.N.K. A.B.O.U.T. I.T.
S.A.W. Y.O.U.R. >.<. M.E.S.S.A.G.E
R.E.P.L.Y.
S.M.S. Y.O.U.
U. D.I.N. R.E.P.L.Y.
W.O.R.R.Y.
H.A.H.A.
N.O. A.P.P.E.T.I.T.E.
N.O.T.H.I.N.G. T.O. D.O.
S.T.I.L.L. W.O.R.R.Y.I.N.G.
N.O.N. S.T.O.P.

W.E.N.T. T.O. M.I.C.H.E.L.L.E.'S. H.O.U.S.E.
W.R.A.P.P.E.D. M.O.O.N.C.A.K.E.
T.H.I.N.G.S. H.A.V.E.N. S.E.T.T.L.E.D.
F.I.N.E...
S.E.T.T.L.E.D. M.Y.S.E.L.F.
N.E.E.D. Y.O.U. N.O.W.
H.A.H.A.

L.O.V.E. Y.O.U.
W.E.N.T. H.O.M.E.
B.Y.E.

-E.N.G.L.E.O.N.G-

swimming n potluck day!

2010-09-14T04:13:00.003-08:00

CLU meeting early in the morning.. i reached skul around 9.30 n saw jacky n wei inn walking from the VIOBA.
well, continue..
the first day we have our meeting during skul holidays
everyone follow wad we said.. no one wearing short pants. thats great.. we din get scolded by anyone.
the meeting goes on as usual..
n there are many problems happen.. not onli the nine skul event bt oso my own events.
even i think CLU new batch committee attitude is a big prob to VICLU.
dun think we r good. i mean this batch.. nt the previous batch.
i cant say that we r really bad.. bt, i cant see any good things from us.
this thing annoyed me for the whole day. ==
thx for SBU little girl gang's concern. i m fine.
the meeting ended around 2. the we depart to wern house for the party..

reached wern house within half an hour. my hand is pain when i go down the car. cant even move it. haha
*p.s-u know the reason.. haha.
then go wern house n then she said we r noisy.. =( sad la..
thats nt noisy.. is is hyper voice~~
den we ordered pizza to eat...
while waiting for pizza..

D zun zen n wern- playing comp
xintao,kaizer and clement- playing PS2 with wern's bro
meng tsu- walking around.

ok, pizza delivered den we go down to pool~~
n eat!!! thats it.. the pic below~~

den they start to play water..
i din bring any extra shirt so i choose nt to go down..
juz pull up my jeans n immersed my leg into the pool with zun zen..
haha. =D
wern is so funny cuz her bro is feeling very cold. n she hugging him to make him feel warmer. haha
like raping her own brother.. haha

picture time~
i onli took 2 pics during the whole party.. the first one is the moment we ate pizza..
n this is the second one.. haha
facebook caption- awwwww so sweet.. hahahaha.. this caption make me laugh out loud when i first saw that! haha... by wern!

the three sexy guys in the pool!!!
they did alot funny moves n make us laugh too!
wad a hyper moment!!
i hope we can have this together again!
wern- sek do la!! hahahaa

after swim.. everyone go up becuz of hungriness. haha. especially the three sexy guys n meng tsu~
continue our pizza meal.. while zen n wern were changin their dress..
they finish the pizza in minutes.. walao!
so hungry mie u all???
LOL...

the last pic of the pool party!
this two guys copy wernn zen move...
this make me speechless bt it is so FUNNY! haha
cover their body with shirt be4 meng tsu snapped this photo!

we continue our party until 8 o clock becuz wern said she is bored if we go home n she wants us to accompany her..
bt p.s- i feel like goin home n accompany sumone who went home earlier.
wern dun angry~ hahaha.
well.. continue playing PS2 with wern's bro n the three sexy guys!
den we play squash with wern,crystal, xin tao, soon n wern's bro..
haha.!

overall- thats a nice party.. n i wish i could attend again!
wern!!!!!! sek do la!!!!!

yesterday

2010-09-10T03:02:00.000-08:00

yesterday.. went to chee keong's house for sports party..

planned to play badminton n swim..

too bad that badminton court is used for dunno wad malay praying..

therefore we cant manageto play badminton n we swim straight..

thx mooi for bring his netbook thr.. or else i will be bored like hell cuz i dun realy like to swim..

some childhood memory.. thats made me like that.

we swim until around 12 like that.. then went to tennis court to play BADMINTON..

haha.. the court is really bad.. almost fall down..==

well.. i fell once beside the pool when chee keong trying to push me into the pool bt i refuse him to do..

when the time we against each other.. den i fall n hit my backbone.. ==

i felt damn pain n summore i fell into the pool.. oh no..

i stand the pain n walk to the side .. frens pull me up afterward..

now i m fine. haha

ok. went mcd to eat n on9.. den play SNOOKER.

i was so damn pro. can do skill...

haha....

went to puchong after secondary skul fren reunion to join eng hong..

i mean CLU reunion.

tired!!! bt i cant say nt to go becuz they will scold me if i dun go..

well.. go thr for steamboat..

play with lee yen's hair.. so damn funny! haha.. ka jun took pic!~~~

n celebrated cheryl bfday too.

thats all.. bb

-engleong-

除了你，我什么都看不到。

2010-09-06T02:29:00.003-08:00

oh gosh! i onli slept 2 hours and 30 minutes for today..
yesterday cant sleep n called someone..
thats y i slept late.. bt luckily she accompany me. haha
anyway. skip that cuz u cant know about the conversation.
woke up at 5am n help mum do work.
den back home at 6.30am then had my breakfast which is TAUFU FA+ hot soya.
went to lrt at 7 sumthing den reach skul within 15 mins.
lol.
teacher haven come yet! we waited for teacher about 2 hours! omg..
extra class started n end at 11 sumthing..
my brain is gonna burst cuz too much thing i have to remember n memorize juz in 2 hours time!
how to study like that! form 6 really tough!

well.. luckily my frens had planned to go watch movie after that.
to release stress!!! with an EX-victorian- ern qi!!!
went to pavilion n they said they wanna watch 'love in disguise'.
i think of someone when they said this.. GUESS who?? haha.
i missed the ending of the story.. haha..
y?? becuz i ran out from the cinema hall after i received a message.
i was so worried when i was reading that..
u really prank me. u win liao lol~ haha
*ps:dun say sorry a!
went to wong kok restaurant to have some drinks with frens..
TAN JIE whole day let me zat dao~~ haha
everyone keep laughing..
ern qi.. i think u miss these kind of memories alot ryte?? come back to VI la.. haha
i m the BEST joker in L6BM. i think~ no one can do this job better than me ryte??

love in disguise:
杜明汉：你看到什么吗？
宋晓青：除了你，我什么都看不到。

杜明汉：因为他牵着你的手。
宋晓青：牵着我的手？他只是在研究我的手。

joan 姐：杜明汉才是你的人生。
杜明汉：阿德才是我的真正人生。

宋晓青：你叫什么名字？
杜明汉：我是杜明汉啊。来，帮你签个名，画一个爱心，你叫什么名字？
宋晓青：你真的是杜明汉吗？阿德。T.T
杜明汉：（追）宋晓青！！

杜明汉：我知道你们很想要听杜明汉德歌，但今天，我只想要唱这首。
--------------你不知道的事---------------------

宋晓青：你看到什么吗？
杜明汉：除了你，我什么都看不到。

this is so touching when he sing the song to the girl. bt i din cry. haha.
*ps: can i hug u now??=)
this post is for everyone.. bt sum of the message is onli for u~

the 101 post~!

2010-09-04T06:43:00.002-08:00

i actually haven calm myself down today..
i m still worrying about the probs that we actually haven solve about that event.
the main prob is- the time!!
dun feel like telling it cuz it makes my mood worst!
well... i thought i can count my account(mooncake dedication) by today..
however, i failed to do so.. simply because the order list that given by the form-rep is really messy!!!
i really stressed up n piseed! omg.. i m so down!!!
i m so bored now.. i dunno wad to do cuz she went to her farewell party..
n i gt no one to chat with. i mean.. the one i need is always u..
its already10.50pm.
my mood nvr get better..
bt luckily it din go worst again.. haha.

wad a tiring day~
haha... waiting.=)
i miss yesterday n you~

single is single,double is double..
single+double = single bt not available. =)

-engleong-

8/28 one day camp and 8/29 best memories...

2010-08-30T01:44:00.003-08:00

28/8..
went to SBS for one day camp.. i roughly talk about this since my memories nt really clear about that day..
had a lot fun especially the water game!
enjoy it so much..
SS alot..
thx to all the VI campers too..
thats y we can SS one gang bt nt i SS alone.. haha
well.
my dearest meiSSSSS- caryn and wei xin!
u both did well.. proud of u~
haha. =)
went home n feel tired..! reached home around 9 sumthing i think..
n i was too tiring den slept at 10 sumthing after i take bath.
thats all about SBS one day camp..
thx to AMANDA LEONG, SUE FEN, SHARON, EUNICE(My faci), JINNIE and so on too.
PAISEH.. too many i cant list out one by one.~

29/8
nt really in good mood actually..
bt, SOMEONE has made me feel so much better..
thats u lol.. who else~
first experience- webcam with her. haha.
happy lol~ i really hyper alot when webcam with her..
summore when she showed her serious face~ i feel more funny..
*when she is doin maths. solving the ques. haha
i will always remember yesterday!!!!

29 of august! the best day~ the most memorable day!

Kuantan trip~

2010-08-23T05:19:00.008-08:00

went to kuantan this last saturday!
family trip.. went thr together with my aunt n uncle..
we went thr by car.. i think we took around 5 hours to reach thr..
we departed at 6am.. bt reach SG. lembing around 10 sumthing..
* sg lembing bt nt kuantan.. ==
damn it.. sit until my buttock pain.. =(

haha.. however.. finally we reach kuantan n go to the first destination..
the water park at kuantan..
this water park juz opened..

the first pic i took over thr..

in front of the gift shop of the water park.. things inside nt really nice.. no wonder so quiet..

afterward, we played thr...

kinda fun.. enjoyed it so much.. bt tiring! haha

the last photo we took over thr..

family photo~~~

went to muzium sungai lembing be4 the water park..

haha.. sorry readers.. forget about the schedule..

these are the photos we took at the muzium.

my mum n bros~! the girl my bro holding is actually my cousin..

the next photo..

the arrangement- i arrange one le!! nice le~~ so artistic~

the pic we took inside..

thr are two mirror facing each othr.. wad a nice scene for us to shoot~

bros!!

another pic took together with my elder bros...

i like the lighting effect~!

the next one.. this is our 5 bros photo!!!!

haha.. nice!~~~~

after that, went to the ostrict farm juz nearby the muzium~~~

the first solo pic i took thr~

the first solo photo with ostrict~!!!

second day of kuantan trip~!!

we went eat here n thr over n over again..

this day is the most suffering day..

although we din go anywhere..

bt u know wad??/

we really eat den sit den eat den sit over n over again!

this is damn tiring n make me damn freaking full!!!!

oh no!

haha...

after that, went to the woohoo movie de beach~~~

this is it!!!

5 models taking photo together..~~

nice ryte?? i noe i m the ugliest inside..

bt please dun insult me! haha

jump!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! the small kid is my cousin too~~

the second solo pic i took for the trip~

went to a shop which sells seafood near the beach~

n i found this!!!!! woohoo~~~

the poster with all their signature~~ took togehter with bro!!!

nice~~~ hehe

after that~ we went n eat again!

see.. our whole day schedule is onli buy, sit n eat!

haha~ nice bt really SAN FU~~~ haha

anyway!! long time nvr play until like this anymore..

i enjoyed so much~!!! n during the day!! i miss her so much!!! haha

thats all for the trip..

enjoy reading!~

-engleong-

the past~

2010-08-19T02:17:00.002-08:00

past? wad is past?
is it everything that happened be4 now known as past?
well.. mayb it is..
oh no.. according to my english teacher, she said definitely yes.
ok, i forced to answer all my question with past tense whenever i saw the words 'yesterday,long time ago, 5 minutes before, wad so ever...''
however, in my real life.. i juz dun care about that.
even the thing that passed LONG TIME AGO. i will still think that thing just happen..
n never forget about that..
no matter good stuff or bad..
mayb ppl will say i m good in memorising, bt thr are ppl who think in a negative way.
cuz i will remember wad u all did to me.. no matter good or bad..! haha

YESTERDAY..
my mood is exactly from 100% dropped immediately to 10-20%.
i feel very happy when i meet her. haha.
bt my face really showed damn boring..
i m a hyperactive ppl.. once i stop talking, i will be like that..
so dun worry, i wasnt emo yesterday~ haha..
n promised u be4.. nowadays, very hard to emo..
y dropped?? i m nt gonna talk about it.. eventhough it was still new in my mind..
i juz wan to let the sad past pass~~ go away from my mind~~
i need to stay happy~~ =) hope i can!!!

TODAY!!!
my mood was still ok..
ntg much about today..
juz getting back my exam paper..
so far everything still ok.. i got three of my papers ady..
first-chemistry-77%
second- maths T- 85%
third- Pengajian Am- 92%
high ryte??? haha.
i wonder if i let my classmate to see this..
they will say i satay(chuan!) again
waiting for my bio paper.. the most scary paper..
the first time i sit for bio until i scare i will fail it..
wish me lucks!
and most importantly!!!
she is gonna on9 today.. WEE~~~~~~~~

p.s- i scare i gt ntg to say. haha..
later make u feel boring..
i dun dare to tell u this. scare u scold me
dun think so much a. i m nt emo.
juz worrying. haha~

-engleong-

1 and a half year~

2010-08-13T20:26:00.002-08:00

its already 1 and a half year i fallen in love with a girl..

this time period does not consider long nor short..

i dunno why. i just cant give up her.

n i promised n swore, i will love her forever..

friends always tell me.. do not say it so early..

but i m juz hoping that i can do it for someone i love.

yesterday night, i was not emo. i cant emo.

bt u were. u told me the reason. i dunno how to cheer u up.

i think i make ur mood more down?? m i?

y i cant gv up on u?

mayb juz becuz of things we went through.

the problems that we used to solve together, face to face..

not avoiding each other.. when problems occurred

n i think this have strengthen my love for you.

this is y i cant gv u up? haha.

know wad is my bfday wish on that day??

* i wish the one who stand beside me on that day will always stay happy. n i could cheer her up whenever she feel stress or emo.

* our academic.

* we will have a good future..

hope my wishes will come true in one day~

ok. well.

waiting for ur blog.. haha

-engleong-

拒绝。。

2010-08-09T04:20:00.003-08:00

拒绝一个人，
真的是不好受。
尤其是要拒绝一个曾经视为最要好的朋友。
当然，现在也是。
只不过有些事往往就必须二选一。
而不幸的是，你是被拒绝的那一位。
我很对不起你，该在之前就好讲清楚。
直到现在，我不能再那么自私。
你可以找到更好的。
或许在见面，我们都会很尴尬。
但我们还是好友。永远的好友。

拒绝=挣扎
诚实=残忍
欺骗=自私

在爱情里，并没有对与错。
只有爱与不爱。
我很相信这一句话。
爱一个人并没有错，唯有选错了该爱的对象。

说再见，是为了以后在想见的时候。
可以用这一个词语。来作为结尾。
永远都能再相见。

朋友。对不起。

absent!

2010-08-09T02:12:00.002-08:00

suppose to go to skul today morning bt end up sleeping at home..
y?
i m nt lazy duh.. i stomachache in the morning..
i had it since yesterday bt i nvr care about it..
thats y today morning still pain..
bt at last had medicine den sleep again..
stomachache cure.. n now flu attacks me..
bad day la wei.. i wanna study! exam coming soon!
let me study please..
after i blog will be studying for the whole day?
mayb.. haha.
sometimes i really beh tahan den come here n on9!
haha. anyway~
juz a short post today..
bye~

-engleong-

days before exam..

2010-08-07T20:58:00.005-08:00

wad do u think about me these days..
ya.. i did change alot.
i thought it was a achivement in my life..
u know? i hardly change myself juz becuz of u.
y?
the power of love? ya..i think so..
mayb for others this is wad they call stupid becuz i fall in love with someone i dunno she love me or not.. n i dun even know.. will i get what i want..
however, i m sure wad i wan n i dun care about the results..
no matter good or bad.. as long as i enjoy now..
everything is fine.
this is wad i always think
bt things that very hard to carry on in my life.

n sumtimes..
thing juz go worse n worst when good thing juz onli happened..
yesterday....
i dun want to talk about it anymore..
i really scare when u din reply me at all..
u said u r nt angry with me. of cuz i feel relief after u say that..
bt wad ur did after that is actually making me confuse n doubt that wad u said is true or juz lying to me..
finally.. u miss call me at 10 n i called u.
happy when the moment we talk..
i totally forget about wad happen between my brother n i..
n i juz wanna chat with u happily..
this is wad i wan n wad i think when i m talking to u in phone..
the time i chat with u.. i was smiling for the whole conversation..

n finally.. 4 hours ago..
i sms-ed u. bt u din reply..
r u sleeping?
r u busy?
r u still angry?
do u love me?

i dun dare to ask anymore question to u.
everything seem to be obstacles to me..

bt.. these cant stop me from loving u.
many ppl will nt believe this..
including u.
u will be the last person i love in my life..
cuz i believe that
if u accept, i will love you forever.
if u refuse, i will nt wanna get hurt anymore..

-engleong-

bfday party

2010-08-02T06:53:00.003-08:00

now onli blog about it ...
as these few days i m nt really have the mood to blog..
well... back to the day of our bfday~
depart at 5 sumthing from house to lrt..
den straight to pandan jaya with sam n amanda.
waiting for kha hsuen to fetch us to Zun zen house~
haha.. thought khai hsuen know how to go.. bt actually he did nt know..
==
spend 2 hours to reach her house i think?
n at that moment i already gastric n tired..
half dead....
reach thr.. den start eating..
heating the chickens wings.
n eat...

din really eat much..
dunno y..
no appetite gua~
den chit chat a while with zun zen~ n force her to sit with me to accompany me..
wakaka..

after that. go in her house n chat with kaizer n xintao.
wern n khai hsuen too~
nt bad chatting with u guys..
talked alot with leo lai. n this make me abit emo.. cuz he ask me alot about those stuff...
==

then its time to cut cake..
made wishes... wanna know?? wakaka
dun wanna tell!~
well.. eat cake n then finish...

thats the summary for bfday celebration..
thx for everyone who wishes me..
thx for everyone who gv me presents,

=) i love ur presents.. i keep it n din use.. wakaka.. i scare i spoilt it..=)

-engleong-

我说过，我会以微笑来对待每一件事。

2010-08-01T02:49:00.002-08:00

忽然，想起了这一句话。
在回家的路途中。想起以前对他许过的承诺。
我知道，很多很多，都是还没实现。
甚至，有些是根本没有完成到的。
但有一件事，我想了很久。
也很肯定，我是不会放弃的。
就是改变自己。
我不曾想过要放弃。
因为我知道你不会想要看到我难过的样子。
我更不想你因为我的难过，而勾起你的伤悲。
所以，我说，我会以微笑来对待每一件事。

wad i wanna express is finally finish.
i read my previous post n i saw 'swear it again'
this post reminded me about wad i had promised..
mayb i juz need to calm down myself so that i can think clearly..
n no matter wad happen.. juz like wad i said above.
我会以微笑来对待每一件事。

=)
will blog about our bfdays party!~

-engleong-

an early post!

2010-07-31T16:23:00.003-08:00

woke up at 5.41..
dunno y juz woke up automatically den sms her..
to wish her good luck.. this reminds me of wad she did to me when i joined danau kota singing comp..
she wished me good luck in the morning although she was sick...
i felt damn sweet. haha.
dunno is it i think too much. i waited from 5.41am til 7.00am..
bt still. my phone din ring.
i thought she angry with me.
finally i cant stand for that n call her.. she told me she is nt angry.
thx god.! i really scare she get angry becuz of me..
i rather she scold me, punch me, hit me bt dun ignore me..

i thought i changed myself.. bt actually i m nt.. i juz need more time to make it a success.
will you wait for me?
can i have more time to achieve it?

i swore i will do it.. wont break the promise.
once i din give up, the promise doesnt consider as break.
i wont make empty promise to u.
cuz u r the one who is important for me.
gv me more time..
can i call u tonight? let me know if u can.

having meeting later..
i gotta miss her so much.
good luck n add oil..

-engleong-

sorry again~

2010-07-31T05:30:00.002-08:00

haha.. i dunno wad to blog.
main purpose for this blog. to release sadness

ya.. totally emo now..
feel like crying.
did a stupid thing.. keep calling when her dad next to her.
i really nt an understanding ppl.
sorry..

i really feel to cry.
bt controlling myself nt to.
i m juz too emotional..
sorry~

-engleong-

tomorrow gonna be our big day..

2010-07-29T06:20:00.004-08:00

birthday~

is that important?? sure it is..

bt can u sure that tomorrow u sure will feel happy becuz of this..???

i cant make sure of this..i m juz worrying about something.. scare there is something gonna happen tomorrow..which can make me sad..

i HOPE i juz think too much! anyway.. i know my dear will make me hyper.!!!

wakaka.

first of all.. gonna say happy birthday to myself..

Tomorrow is my birthday..

i will nt know wad's gonna happen to me tomorrow in skul..

bt i know i will nt really care.. wakaka..

n most importantly...

Happy birthday to zun zen~

=) we having same birthday date

=) i can celebrate with u

=) happy birthday

=) may all ur wishes come true

i juz cant wait for tomolo!

btw, i gt ntg to say for now..

-engleong-

i m home~

2010-07-28T04:31:00.002-08:00

finally i studied today!
i promised myself to study be4 july bt end up with playing computer everyday..
however, i m nt really concentrate becuz thr is something else in my mind which distracted me from studying..
i m nt in a good or bad mood at all.. juz neutral..
last time i used to be either very good or very bad mood in a day..
no matter what happen.. bt surely wont be in a neutral mood..
i juz dunno y today i feel that so.

sometimes i really think that frens are no longer appear in my lifes..
everyone who beside me.. i dunno can i consider them as my frens or juz passer by in my life..
my life is tough.. i juz have to go through everything hardly n with all my effort..
no matter in skul, family or outside...
life isnt that easy yet it is very complicated n tough..
i hope i can pass through every obstacles that i meet in my life..
wish me luck guys n girls...
i need it so much!

let's talk about today..
skip everything about P&P..
she called me suddenly to ask for meng tsu phone number..
i wish to talk to u longer..
bt anyhow, u r in skul n u say money is running out..
so.. forced to say bye to u..
after skul..
every lower 6 CLU committee are busy preparing chinese chess competition..
i m one of them.. n of cuz.. i did alot works as i m the head of the judges of this activity..
this is freaking tiring n tis could make me headache..
i stand for almost 3 hours in a day.. juz to walk around n look how's the progress of the competition..
luckily everything went nt too bad.. bt nt good enuf..
i m nt really satisfy with wad i have done..
anyway.. it is over n we did a great job..
left semi-final n final on this friday~
let's work hard for it CLU!

this is the 6th year i join CLU..
we r getting closer n closer..
i hope we can do better than the year i joined be4..

i still haven received ur reply.. i m worrying about u~

-engleong-

blogging in skul..

2010-07-27T20:49:00.000-08:00

this is the first time i blog using skul computer..
it is fun bt yet.. scary..
suddenly someone come from behind n ask.. wad r u doin..
den i m dead! wakaka
however.. juz plan to post a short post here..
to show that i m blogging in skul!

bye everyone who is reading my blog..

-engleong-

i m nt feeling well....

2010-07-27T06:59:00.000-08:00

my heart.. aching..

stop thinking!!

be happy~!

u can do it!

原来

2010-07-27T06:42:00.002-08:00

i choose this topic as i saw it randomly from dunno where..
juz to type some craps bt couldnt think of the topic of this post..
suddenly moody come strike my mind..
i dunno y la~! i juz dun wanna be emo god back..
wakaka.

wad happen today.. boring duh! dunno wad to do for the whole day..
maths... i always fall asleep la..
how! i cant concentrate.. =(
how to study at home... i cant.. =(
i very stress n many problems will occur if i din score well in my first exam!
i m worried..
wad to do!!!! no one can help anyway!

boring!

i m trying to relate this post to the title..
wakaka. bt i dunno how..
原来，我不是一个好男人。
原来，我一点也不了解。
原来，我还是那么的幼稚。
原来，我。。。

-engleong-

bad day!!!!

2010-07-26T06:05:00.004-08:00

wad a bad day for me!
today.. assembly was freaking boring as i m nt really energetic n feel blur at all time..
went to assembly bt skipped lines!
went thr to pass sanjivan YEE CHANG name tag..
funny duh~ guy wearing a girl's name tag..
==

anyway.. assembly passed fast n i was worrying about the next class..
its MUET!! speaking test duh!
i thought i can do it well..
bt the first BAD thing happened...
teacher actually cant really hear my points n she said i nvr link my points to the topic...
i feel disappointed n i gt low marks for that..
onli 28! oh no! bt luckily teacher gave us a chance tro resit for it! IF she gt time..
read properly! IF u know.. nt comfirm yet....

maths! the next bad thing happened...
u know wad.. maths is actually nt that hard if i can concentrate during Mr Tham class..
i fall asleep during his class.. bt i forced myself to open my eye instead of 'fishing'..
i din learn anything during his class..

haiz... sad things juz cant leave me alone..
they juz come attack attack n attack at all time..
went to staff room to look for Mr mazlan..
i went thr for so many days bt still.. He is so busy until i cant meet him once during in these 5 days!
hate it!

finally.. skul finish n i thought i can have a nice CLU meeting..
bt somehow.. theen meng brings me a VERY good news!
i juz cant accept the fact.. n i dunno how to handle it..
i agreed with wad he says.. bt however.. read the following paragraph later~ to be continued in this topic..

went to TS to find Khai hsuen n pei wern with Chloe..
thx Chloe for accompanying me.. otherwise i think i will bored til i die...
reached TS Mcdonald....
saw them..
n go sit together with them..
khai hsuen really kelian as he is totally palau by pei wern n one of her frens.
they was talking non stop until khai hsuen finish the two large packs of french fries..
salute PEI WERN! wakaka..
so much saliva de mie??
finally she gave me some ideas on the bfday presents..

ask khai hsuen n chloe to accompany me to buy the presents..
i spent 3 hours to find for it!
omg! i ju can think of anything to buy for her..
i suddenly feel look down on myself..
onli khai hsuen n chloe know why~
suddenly down at that moment..
n finally bought something which is nt very special...
bt i hope u will like it.. it is very cheap..
i dunno wad to buy.. as dear knows.. i dun like to shopping bt i walked 3 hours.. wakaka..
i juz nt satisfy with wad i bought.. bt i really cant think of anything to buy for u...
eng hong took my first choice's present for u.
n i cant have the another one which is look better than that~
i m sad!

next.. sorry n thx khai hsuen for sending me to pasar seni.. bt in a results of making u get scolded by ur mum.. n summore.. the staff is closed...
i was like == when i reached thr.! FUCK!
another bad thing!!!!!
today really freaking unlucky u know! wad the fuck happen to me today!!!!!!!!

went home.. thought to get some support from my family about wad theen meng told me juz now..
bt in a results of get scolded by them too..
2 brothers n my mum keep talking non stop n make me freaking annoy...
i was freaking tired ady.. n they nvr think of my feeling..
i dunno wad to do... wad u all expect me to do...
i juz wanna do something i like.. bt u all stopped me..

n then.. wads next! this is totally bring my mood to the down-est part...
wad is that!??
huh!!!!!!!!!! i hate it!
i planned to go her skul to meet her tomolo..
bt wad eng hong told me is!! :'' eh, tomolo also the same.. 4 o clock u need to reach titiwangsa... i need u to go UM with me.. den bring mama home..''
wad the fuck! cant u juz tell me be4 i planned all this thing.. n now u ask me find another day to go? i m totally down becuz of this u know!
haiz.. things juz dun go well with me today!

my mood is totally spoilt because of my stuides n my family..
luckily my dear is with me always.. nvr leave me alone..
bt the last thing i mentioned really brought me to the deepest part of hell! i m freaking sad n angry! i juz cant calm myself when i think about it...

bye... mood down...
i need ur console n comfort..
can u call me?

-engleong-

sorry~

2010-07-24T09:35:00.002-08:00

i shuldnt off my phone today..
i m so freaking stupid.. i m nt around u when u need me..
i m pissed becuz of myself..
i juz cant do wad i had promised u..
*i broke our emo promise
*i broke my sleep earlier promise
*i broke my rest more promise
lastly
*i broke my always around u promise.

i juz cant forgive myself..
how can i break so many promises..
i wont gv any excuse to my own self anymore.

i wish i could be like last time.. so weak.. can cry out loud easily..
why cant i juz cry now..
no one will know.. how i feel now..
even mayb u oso wont understand..
things are so complicated..

lastly,
dear! sorry~
i cant accompany u when u really need me..
n i really hurt..
when u said:'now i dun feel like find u ady'
i m totally down.. down n down..
T.T
finally.. in the end of this post..
i cried!
teardrops on keyboard...

i cant forgive myself! stupid ENGLEONG

-engleong-

its already 9 o clock

2010-07-14T05:06:00.003-08:00

its already 9 o clock..
bt i haven received any messages from u..
r u sleeping?
r u studying?
r u having dinner?

i do not know... =(

where r u? worrying so much!
i really scare u dun want to bother me anymore since that day..
n i dun want u to do that on me anymore..
u know u r important in my life!

however.. wad i post about is all passed..
bcuz... u sms-ed me when i wanna start posting this post..
dunno i shuld feel happy or sad now!
haha! very complicated feeling..
juz to release my sadness in blogging way!

thats all

-engleong-

maxwell singing comp~

2010-07-10T21:28:00.002-08:00

yesterday was maxwell singing competition
i was kinda exciting with it!
becuz i know many VICLU mates are supporting me, jacky n oso theen meng..
well.. let's rock the PARTY!!!

haha.. theen meng's number was number 9.. mine was number 16 n jacky is unlucky 52..
mayb consider lucky to him cuz the rest were singing sad song bt he is the onli one who sing hyper song....
theen meng.. u did well la! dun worry! ur first time n at least u got something..
we blame the mic!!!!

me- to my own advise... try harder next year.. do not gv up! u can do better!!!! blame the PA oso...

jacky- gratz la u! u did well.. we were so hyper yesterday!!!!!

the winning probability for VICLU is 100!!!! woooot~~
happy!!!!

finish... bb

-engleong-

after knowing this from someone

2010-07-09T02:09:00.002-08:00

do u all think my singing skill is good???
nt really actually..
there is many ppl so far better than me!
i nvr learn.. i nvr taught by someone, i nvr sing everyday at home!
i juz like to sing~!
haha.. sometimes i felt thing juz goes very funny yet complicated..
u know wad??
if i won the competition can really make someone lose with alot unsatisfaction..
i rather lose it.. this is y i always dun wanna join solo category..! becuz when there are so many famous 'singer' compete on the stage.. bt the trophies are nt belongs to either one of them..
bt someone who is nt popular at all.. or mayb u nvr heard his/her name...
u know wad?? i rather lose the competition than i lose a fren in my life!
this thing does affect my mood.. my mood swings after hearing this!
i dunno can i perform well tomolo for my singing comp!
n summore, it is solo category.

as i said, everyone can sing actually...
n for me.. god gv me a nice voice..
i appreciate it so much.. i juz can sing better than some ppl..
bt NOT all.
there are still many ppl can beat me in singing comp..
y m i trying so hard to get the first place for singing comp..??
seriously.. i nvr think of it.. i dun really give a damn to it!
it is okay if i cant a single place from competition..
i lost be4.. nt that i never lose..
i dun care!!!!

i hope there is really ntg between me n u~!
juz work hard together..
we love to sing.. don't you?
juz do our best for tomolo! no matter who is reading this n did take part in maxwell singing competition..
i will do my best..
i can do my best!!!
n tomolo.. will be~
i HAVE done my best!!!!

-engleong-

fuh~

2010-07-08T05:19:00.002-08:00

i dunno y m i so moody now..
really becuz of ntg u know.
bt the feeling is freaking annoying..
that even make ur heart pain..
i think too much today..
stop thinking about bad things..
this will make myself worst..

great~
i dunno y.. everyday around 9 sumthing..
my head is like spinning n my vision very blur..
i feel like i m gonna faint some day~
mayb i slept late yesterday.. or i shuld say.. everyday! haha.
juz went back from my aunt house..
my nephew who juz borned one month ago..
today celebrate his one month's bfday..
actually shuld be tomolo..
today my aunt juz simply cook some foods to serve us..
it is nice though..
went back home after eating since our house is juz nearby..
on9 straight to chat with someone important to me..
haha. bt my moody mood haven recovered la.!!!!
gonna make her gek liao~!!! cham cham.. i m scared~~~
trying to calm down myself..
ok.. this is wad i did next.. blogged!!
n now.. click publish..

bye everyone who is reading my blog..

-engleong-

singing comp+dinner

2010-07-05T01:08:00.002-08:00

woke up at 5am...
this is the first time i woke up automatically
becuz i had promised PPL to give her morning call
however, she din pick it up..
n i dunno whether she wake up ady or nt?
haha. anyway..
start clean up n make up at 5.15am.

help mum to work be4 i went titiwangsa..
tiring bt good becuz gv me a chance to make myself nt sleepy..
try to open my voice when working..

went titiwangsa after that n saw MBS sentul ppl..
they went thr to support a VIVE girl n pei wern..
i wonder how's pei wern think when she saw someone holding a board while she was singing..
haha..
waiting for zun zen n pei wern at titiwangsa lrt station..
n of cuz. VI ppl..
went thr by bus..
reached thr around 8 if i m nt mistaken.
walking with zun zen n pei wern all the way... while jacky walked with wei inn n chloe..
competition started.. n we all were nt nervouse at all..
bt i think around 20++ participants sang..
we start to be nervous n tension..
we all PANIC duh~~!!!
i was damn scare until i dunno how to sing ady..
zun zen first among 4 of us(zun zen, engleong,jacky,clement)
we all did our best!

den we rest for a while to prepare for second category- DUET!!!~~
actually jacky n i planned to sing duet first so that we can make all others contestants scare sikit..
bt our plan failed cuz solo first!
haha.. funny la.. sure alot ppl say us chuen~
btw.. we did well in duet.. we feel relief after all!~~~
den its clement n kok jian turn...
they like gay lou while singing the last part of the song.. OMG.. i cant imagine it!
then its zun zen n pei wern turn.. they r great..~~ i like their performance.. they juz lack of some communication.. otherwise they can beat the second place de...~~

its time to finished everything..
watch some performances performed by the judger..
damn funny la..
den they announced the results..
they announce crowd award first..
for solo- the little girl from puteri titiwangsa.. (she is great! salute!)
for duet- me n jacky~ woot! thx for everyone who vote for us..

then its duet's results!!
third- zun zen n pei wern~~
second- taman connaught de. i dunno y i juz feel that they abit chuen~! dun like them!
first- jacky n i!! we did well!! great partner!!!

den its solo!
third- the littlegirl who got crowd award juz now
second- me~~~ happy!!!
first- a girl from smk assunta..

den its pic time! i lazy to upload photo here..
anyone who wanna see de hua.. go fb n see urself la..!~
wakaka..

went my house after that..
for 9 skul charity celebration!
i scared she got tired when walk to my house.. cuz she walked a long distance from smk setapak to the bus stop.. den from bus stop nearby my house to my house..
around 5 km we walked i think!
bt she say she is ok.. wakaka.. u r nt weak!! u r strong enuf..
bt still need my protection?? wakaka

reach my house.. n i start show my trophies to my mum..
cuz she dun support me to sing.. bt i won..
den the celebration start at 7.30.
bt whole day i nvr eaten once.. so follow li chen went to kawan lama to eat abit..
ordered my favourite.. ROTI CANAI GORENG!!
wakaka.. eat be4?? nvr??
den went back home.. n start eating again.. cuz the party started.. haha..
crazy me.. bt i cant eat much.. cuz really full dy..

i cant think ady.. cuz now hungry.. thats all la..
p.s- remember wad i told u during competition.. when u r sitting thr..
it is real n i nvr lie..

im happy when together with u.. no matter where we are..
as long as there is me n u.. i think.. i will feel happy at all time..
I did wad i promised.. i nvr lie.. i DIN emo~~~~

-engleong-

Swear it again!

2010-06-30T06:05:00.002-08:00

i swear i will nt emo anymore..
the last promise i sweared for u.
i think this is the hardest challenge in my life..
how can a emo god change to be a un-emo ppl
wakaka..
try! my! best!
sure wil change for u!
no matter wad. i dun want u to suffer again becuz of me
although it sound fake bt it is real..
it is so unbelievable bt u have to believe me..
becuz i m so serious in this..
haha..

one more thing.. i m so childish..
be more mature la!
haha~ i m so old bt still talk n think like a child..
good luck to myself.!

saturday! setapak singing competition
i m scared..
add oil together k?
n dun sad becuz of ur results..!
work harder~ u can do it!
be confident.. this is wad u told me when i m sitting for trial n SPM..
i still remember.. wee~
good luck!

change new template..
enjoy guys n girls..
nitez! bye~

-engleong-

blog~~~

2010-06-26T06:43:00.002-08:00

sunday went to chong hwa for some kind of musical stuff..
this is organised by their composing song society if i m nt mistaken..
for wad they have composed..
they were awesome... i like the songs so much bt nt the person..
wakaka..
thx khai ling for leading n guiding us to the hall..
sit thr for one n a half hour..
nt bad.... i like ‘I凋夜曲’and oso 红尘

miss the moment i walk together with u at chong hwa..
i miss eu, i miss the day~

den went ts to find shau cuz need to go leisure mall
i dunno how to go..
sorry shau for making u wait..
luckily can rush thr on time.. otherwise, sure let eng hong scold like hell~~
u know wad..
i almost lost pei wern's touch n go card..
luckily i found it back..
i dropped it outside of the leisure mall!!!
i m so careless...
luckily i found it back.. seriously worry..
if nt, gonna kill by my mum pulak~~~

wen to alvin house afterward.. sing k..
sing quite alot n make me tired..
end up on-9ing with his comp n chat with u. wakaka
bt u ask me to off.. =(
haha.
u very GOOD lol.. my angel in my heart~
i m really tired n slept in the car.. went home i lazy to bath straight away sleep on my bed.. n dun care of anything..
m i dirty?? i think i m.. waakaka

today..
suppose to go Puchong gathering..
bt mum dun let since i go out too often..
boring at home..
waiting for someone to on9..
haha.. u know who is she...
around 2 sumthing... viview reach to teach yen rhu n eng heng piano..
for their performance during maxwell comp..
i still owe u one piano song... i onli know how to play with right hand..
left hand de i dunno yet la.~~~
wanna hear?? i promised u for a year bt i nvr play for u be4..
cuz everytime oso something will happen de lo.. wakaka
or.. u play for me la~ wakaka
around 3 sumthing.. clement reached n we watch tv first cuz i din watch that yesterday...
we start singing at 3.30.. n he keep looking for old song to sing..
oppsss.. nt old bt classic~~~
wakaka..
i sing badly today!
i wont gv any excuse anymore..
nt that i sick or the PA is nt good
i juz cant sing well becuz of my skills of singing
i muz train more n ask for more comment..
bt not for these few days..
i think i shuld rest for few days
den onli i will sing again...

i like to sing..
bt u r more important than singing..
i keep go upstairs n downstairs to see whether u back home ady or nt.. crazy dao~
at last.. mum back.. n keep everything.. then they went home after eating..
n i slept becuz i sick.. FLU...
stupid flu.! hate it~
thats all for today~ bb

放风筝的小孩与风的出现。

2010-06-21T05:51:00.002-08:00

''有时候，有时候
我会相信一切有尽头。
相聚离开都有时候。
没有什么会永垂不朽。''

脑海忽然浮现这首歌的歌词。
仿佛在告诉我，快进入坏心情的状态。
其实，有时候，回想起以前我们一起的日子。
真的还挺甜蜜的。还有一些暗爽的感觉。
我知道，我是傻佬。哈哈

最近发现一个非常好的发泄方式。
我不会再让别人为我的事而烦恼。
尤其是我最深爱的女人。
我学会用书写方式，来舒缓自己的心情。
今天，在学校，写完了以后，就把它想象成垃圾一样。
把不开心的东西，全都丢进垃圾桶内。
果然，心情是好很多。
我会用尽不同的方式。
使自己活得更好。
因为那是对你的承诺。

写了‘放风筝的小孩与风的出现’
或许我的文采不够好。
不然的话我一定会很想要哭。
哈哈。
但答应过的，我一定会做得到。

ok, well..
i m sick today.. n i m getting tired after type this blog by using chinese software..
so now i decided to use english to continue my post..
today is the first day of skul after the HOLIDAYS!!!!!
wad a tiring holidays i had in my study life~
although this is nt the first time..
bt still.. after 6 months of rest after SPM.. nvr get involve in this for 6 months..
surely will feel abit tired..
bt then at least i had a lot of fun!
i miss sunday so much...

p.s
Zun Zen~
the restaurant is called FOOD N TEA~
haha.. mayb will upload the photo de.. if u dun mind others talk about it??

read the 'crappy' letter ady la..
for u mayb is crap.. bt for me thats isnt crap at all la..
i will keep it beside me.. leave it beside me when i m sleeping.. everday!~~
wakaka..
i love you~
n really thanks cuz i know u care about my feeling that day~
i m fine.. really ntg ady.. DUN GEK ME~~~
i scare ady la..

end here k?? ntg to write ady.. misseu~

-engleong-

saturday- VI gathering sunday- charity bazaar~~

2010-06-14T06:54:00.001-08:00

wad a wonderful is this..
saturday.. a great n big day for all VICTORIAN CLU-ians..
VI first gathering.. the day i waited for so long n finally it reaches..
wake up at 7.00 o clock n call crystal chan pui wen at 7.15.. she wants my morning call!
wakaka
happy?? wake u up ady.

went to sentul skul to prepare something..
n bro ask lichen, wai n ken kiam go thr earlier to play badminton..
i played with him first.. n he is so weak.. keep losing onli.. wakaka
play til around 8 o clock den we change shirt..
den we depart to VI with kaizer n engheng..

reach thr n saw alot ppl.
kinda shock cuz they onli estimate 400++ ppl come bt there is over 500++ ppl goin.. if i m nt mistaken..
congratz to u guys.. u guys did well..
i like the ending.. SUPER GIRL n sorry sorry~
girls.. u all did well too~ VICLU always the best!

sunday~
tiring day! go thr start deco my stalls ady
i m the popiah lou~
sold out eveything le.. geng mou...
happy to hear that i sold out everthing n they say the popiah i cook is nice..
woot~
proud la. wei~~~
haha..
emo for a while den go home.. sleep at 9. sumthing... geng..
dunno wad to write liao..
bb

form 6 orientation..

2010-05-16T04:38:00.003-08:00

Finally.. i blog again today.. cuz my 'dear' ask me to.. wakaka..

ok.. form 6 life so far so good..

first day of orientation..

went skul today for registration.. reached skul around 8++ to meet others..

Zi Jian, Chu Shen, Khai Hoe.. all tru victorians~

went to dewan kuliah straight.. saw many CLU-ians la..

the first one- Wai Yuen.. the on who help us register our name.. thx@!

juz some briefing about form 6..

boring duh..

second day..

i skipped it cuz havin driving test..

i failed it!! shit..

i thought i would fail uphill bt nt parking..

bt--- i pass uphill n failed parking..

wad the F!!!!!

i hate it.. juz a little bit onli.. the pengawas oso dun let me pass...

need to pay extra 150 for it

SHIT YOU!!!

pass on the road... bt need to re-take the another three which is uphill, parking n three point turn~

third day~

went orientation again...

alot things happened this day.. n something happened make me so freaking angry..

skip the morning part..

we had a career talk afterward.. is about how to prepare a resume n preparation be4 interview..

alot form 6 went to it.. cuz it is important i think.. wakaka..

HOI LAI is juz so freaking NOISY!! he was juz right behind me.. with beverly..

den its play time..

i thought i could enjoy this until it ends.. bt actually i was wrong.. totally wrong..

first- i need to do alot things for seniors.. it make me feel tired.. bt okok la.. nt the worst one

second- when climbing up the green wall.. i hurt alot when i climb up there.. n i need to carry 6 ppl up n down thr oso...

third- kena say i m ball-less cuz i cant stand on the green wall.. above me is wire u teahc me.. how to stand??? stupid one..

forth- some stupid 'KAKAK' scolded me when i was helping her to do something.. STUPID ass hole! dun need to respect this kind of ppl..

go home straight go fb n scold this stupid 'kakak'..

forth day~~

funniest day ever......

early in the morning.. ru sheong suddenly come n say 'good job engleong...'

i was freaking shock n ask him y~ he replied'everyone has facebook..'

haha..

suddenly, poh come n ask again.. u so tak puas with who?? den i ask again.. how u all know la??

then he replied the same thing as wad ru sheong said... lol!!!

den, another form 6 come n ask again.. bt he reply me the different things... he told me...

''someone print it out n show to us..'' i show this face to him == ... wth~~ who print it out la!!

den we went aerobics exercise.. PN MAHERAN in charge of this...

wad the hell.. the worst dancing i ever seen in my life.. n this aerobic exercise make me so tired...

i wished to skip this for basketball straight.. however, we cant..

went to basketball match with upper six..

lost cuz we gt no pro player.. bt i m happy cuz i scored the first n the onli 3 points during the match~~~ wakaka..

at last.. i pushed by aizat n had three wounds on my hand n legs.. shit!!!

last day of orientation... friday

its closing ceremony today...

ntg much.. juz have some crisis solution section..

den start jamuan ady~~

i won.. lobster man~~!!!!!! second place.. the pic above~~~

ok.. saturday!

gotong-royong..

my class.. i m the onli one who attended to skul.. omg.. i clean my class by my own..

the whole class.. my hand is so pain..

cuz my wound nt recover yet!

den went down n chat with sum yee n inn...

den went petaling street with sum yee, inn n carolyn..

eat wanton mee.. den went home.. finish dy~

-engleong-

blog update??

2009-12-12T06:21:00.002-09:00

long time nvr open my blog..
now open it back again becuz of someone..
keep asking to blog blog blog blog n blog..
although i really blur n dunno wad to blog about..
these a days like ntg to do at home..
especially after SPM.. ailess life.. wad to do??
fabebook games are now bored.. no other things to do other than facebook..
currently i m busy with my SPM preparation..
now left chinese paper..

i was thinking- m i right for taking chinese in SPM..
i hope i wont regret..
my target~~ 11A.. straigh As.
wish me good luck den..

chinese is on monday.. still worrying about that bt i really dunno wad to study..
since i nvrl earn n touch or even read it for 4-5 years..
thr are so many idioms for me to memorize..
freaking hard..
left today n tomolo.. onli two days left for me to study n revise..
i m dead..
who else can help me..
anyway.. thx cheong hong for teaching me chinese yesterday..
n oso sze yin.. thx for coming to McD for me to insult..

day b4 this..
CLU gathering... on 10/12
we went one U..
at first.. they come to my house to wait for me..
cuz i was still at home waiting for my brother to fetch me thr..
around 11 sumthing.. den we strat our journey.. wakaka..
we did alot sot thing at 1U..
stupid la they all.. feel malu lol..
stand around the restaurant n look at ppl to cook through the window..
really SS la..

den we went chilli to eat..
so freaking lot ppl thr.. so crowded...
waited for 15 mins then onli we can go in..
order alot thing to eat.. the whole table is all full of food..
bottomless drink bt cannot share...
bt we still share..
lee yen n jia min.. too bad lol.. a CCTV is above us.. thats y we all kantoi..
bt i wonder y onli u both cant refill again a??
face problem.. haha...
den we pay for our bill...
guess how mch we all spend...

RM400++.

the first time.. onli 13 ppl.. lol.. crazy ppl..
walk around to look for christmas present..
guys n girls split into 2 groups..
bt alvin is exception.. he was in the girl's group.. i wonder why..
wakaka.. no offence..
alvin~~~ bu yao~~

then we go watch storm warriors 2..
kind a bored lol..
feel sleepy when watching it..
the script all together nt even 100 sentences.. stupid ryte??
n all the fighting part they pput slow motion.. want us sleep in the cinema mie??
haiz.. disappointed..
i want to watch princess n the frog
n
alvin and the chipmunks 2..

after chinese paper then i m free..
waiting for my lovely CLU trip.. feel so excited.. wooot~~
lets rock during CLU trip man~~

ok. thats all..
ntg to blog ady..
bye.. nitez.

-engleong-
-yy-
-emo king-

bloody hell problem maker.

2009-10-27T05:42:00.002-08:00

exam left 21 more days..
however, i m nt yet ready for it..
cuz i m lazy.
n summore so moody..
n today sick make this even worst..

i noe i shuldnt think of it anymore..
bt then it juz cant diappear from my mind..

emo life really sux..
if i really die one day.
i wont feel sad.

is it really important for me..
everyone are so emo becuz of that..
including me..
the main issue of this problem is actually me..
the most stupid n fucked up guy in the world..
the Problem Maker..
i m the Problem maker..!!!!

haiz..
emo??
wad is emo??
now i m nt emo..
is even worst than that..
i gt no feeling.
cant laugh when i m happy
cant cry when i m sad
cant tension when i m worry..

u r nt here when i need u..
bt when u r here.
i dunno how to tell u wad is my problem..
i scare i will make u emo too.

The End.

2009-10-10T05:37:00.007-08:00

finally..
yesterday, we had our V.I.C.L.U Annual General Meeting.
skipped skul for the whole day at form six block to discuss about the 09/10 ajk lists.
woot~ the arguement start..
haha.. bt of cuz, without aguement we cant make the lists out..
so, enjoy the process when arguing..
haha..

lee yen, jia min n ju wee- first team.
me, shau, alvin- the second team..
my brother- the judge.

finally. the lists is out within
ern~~~ i think 3 hours.. haha..
waiting for AGM to start afterward..
dunno y, i cant feel anything while waiting for it to come..
is like too normal to face it duh~~
mayb this happen 5 years ady so feel ntg gua..the onli thing different is i m the senior n waiting for the retirement lol..

the AGM took 2 hours 30 minutes..
kind a long duh..
bt there are few members coming onli..
they are nt semangat at all..
disappointed..
bt at least..
mooi, ivan n tai foong came..thx my frenz..

watching the slide show that create by form sixes..
nice slide show.. the starting was funny.. they are so freaking creative though..
the middle was kind a touching..
is about wad we had done in CLU for the whole year..
we really did a lot for CLU.
all our sweet memories appear in my mind..
feel like crying..
bt of cuz, i will not cry infront of others..
haha..

watching Slide show~~

prize giving ceremony start first..
then giving cert to all the active member n 08/09 AJK..

thats me~

the naughtiest one- wei kit

Sam~

after that..
its time to give souvenirs to the seniors..
the souvenirs are nice..
thx My LAO PO~~ Vivian for writing me a message on it..
everything will be fine oo.. dun cry liao lol..
I will borrow u my shoulder again de.. dun worry~~
Haha..

me and my first lao po- theen meng~

After all finish..
Time to eat.. haha
Many foods thr..
Bt I juz ate a bit nia..
The for another lao po- pyin yea for serving me~
Haha..

second lao po serving others oo- pyin yea

all of us busy eating..

the shy shy form one- jun sing

aiyo- i m the princess~

Busy eating~

Congratz to my first lao po- then meng.. finally u got the PRESIDENT post lol..
This is wad u wan ryte?? Haha..

forgot to post something b4 that..

this is the photo while ju wee- the princess talking about our annual report.

our princess~

finish eating~

picture time..

the perasan one- hoi lai. vice president lol..

taking photo with mr tham~

zi mui~

me n my lao po- pyin yea

clean eveything

then we plan to dance..

on the music loud.. n stand by..

CAN I HAVE THIS DANCE..

yes.. SURE~~

n thats it!!

we are so pro.. always ready to dance at anywhere.

haha..

finish den went upstair for meeting..

a short briefing for the new AJK..

my second lao po..

dun feel sad liao lol..

i m happy cuz u still staying in CLU..

take care always..

anything~ juz find me or my brother..

we will help u..

went to pandan indah thr to eat.

'bu jian bu san'..

din take photo thr..

bt had lot of fun..

chat a lot..

around 6..

chiam, eng hong, lee yen went home cuz they having science and math dinner later..

others stay until 7 sumthing den we went home too..

hmm.. i think thats all..

lay to type liao...

this is our invitation card~

lastly, VICLU Rockz~~ yea!!!

mooncake festival celebration VICLU 2009

2009-10-02T23:27:00.005-08:00

yesterday was freaking fun..

long time nvr be that happy liao..

wooot~~

yesterday, woke up at 5 sumthing n went to skul by 6 sumting..

i was damn energetic in the morning.

thinking of sumthing fun n excited. which is the party that wil be organized at Pandan Lake Club.

OUR first VICLU mooncake festival celebration.

morning.. went to skul juz to get my moral n bio paper..

not bad..

so far i got straight A1's, bt i dun think i can score for physic n BM.

is kind a hard to achieve my target which is Straight A1's in tiral..

my Moral got highest in the whole form..

finally.. at first i thought i can get highes in chem.. bt my chem already beated by ISAAC HEEN GEORGE agian by two marks.. everytime oso the same.. hate it man..

bt luckily my moral.. huh~~ finally.. happy..

den after skul, buy a burger cuz i din eat for the whole day becuz of the moral paper.

waiting for my teacher to finish marking my paper during recess period.

haiz.

almost fainted. cant even standstill..

wth~~

den went to CLU meeting lol.

feel so excited lol.. once i think of the VICLU this five letters..

i feel so happy.. we r ONE BIG FAMILY..

CLU ROCKZ..

meeting finished at 3 sumthing..

den all the lower form include lower sixes went to prepare for the mooncake festival celebration.

while my upper form include me went to jusco maluri to buy cake for theen meng cuz yesterday was his bfday oso..

went to eat b4 we buy the cake..

all of us were damn freaking hungry lol..

den onli we went to secret recipe to buy the cake..

we were arguing wad cake to buy for him..

at last, we all had decided to buy the Chocolate banana cake for him.

at this moment, funny things happened.

shau told us that the girl behind us keep on looking at us..

my brother said: they nvr see leng zai b4, let them see for a while lol.. if nt they all gt no chance to see..

we all keep laughing..

while we buying the chocolate banana cake.

shau started to say sumthing funny..

Shau: Ei, the chocolate banana cake gt banana aroma de le..

Me: jia min, he said CHOCOLATE BANANA cake gt banana aroma

Jia Min: this cake has also chocolate aroma.. u can smell chocolate smell..

ME: HUH? i thought this banana cake gt apple aroma??

everyone started to laugh..

bt too bad, the waiter thr told us there gt no more chocolate banana cake..

they tried to ask us to buy another type of cake bt we refuse n ask her to call another shop whether has stock or nt.

luckily, a shop which is nearby has it.

we went thr n buy that..

theen meng.

see how good la we all..

u muz belanja us makan liao.. i list down our name first.

eng leong, eng hong, jia min, lee yen, shau, kin yew..

haha..

after that.. went to lee yen's house

to take shower.

on the way to her house, i saw sumone chatting with her fren.

sms-ed her, haha. luckily she din see me.

i felt a bit emo when i saw her..

thinking of many things at that moment.

until nowm all the question are still in my mind.

i juz can figure out wad shuld i do..

haiz.. reached lee yen's house within 20 minutes.

we played cho dai di thr lol..

keep winning one.. no fun.. then lost to jia min one round.. oh~!!!!

around 5.30 pm. we went to Pandan Lake Club.

take a lot photo thr.

haha.. had fun..

dun want talk much here.. juz roughly talk aout the processs la..

first, celebrate theen meng's birthday..

i did sumthing special or him. the present is very special which is made by using rubbish.. erm, i mean recycable item..

inside contain a paper to hint him to look behind.. and thats it.

he is opening it right now

take a photo b4 that.

this is the thing behind him..

nice idea le.. my brother n i think of that..

theen meng gv it a name: lotus opening ceremony.

take many photo thr,

will post it after this..

haha.

many activities they planned, bt onli played a few.

the most fun activity is the one we pass the handkerchief n let the ppl to catch us..

they say i ran damn fast, so i onli plaed once.. bad la they all.. i wanna play lol.. yer~~

den after that.

went to Mr tham house to visit him. haha.. he was schocked..

bt he was too busy so cant stay there for long..

went back to the Club afterward..

haha.. yesterday three of my wife also thr.

first-theen meng

second pyin yea

third- vivian (from mum promote to wife)

geng le.. wakaka..

hold their hands to walk together..

bt my junior try to break us and hold me n run away.

wakaka..

cant talk things to pyin yea cuz too many people were thr.

so, tell u next time lol.. wakaka..

photo session, n these are the photo..

cha cham bo~~

catherine, u block my head!

CLU ROCKZ~ lotus opening ceremony~

yeah~!!

acting shy, lee yen damn heavy lol. go keep fit la.. haha..

thats all for today~

happy..

CLU ROCKZ..

bb..

~eng leong~ Do u really love me.. do u really care about me

a blog for all my friends~

2009-09-27T07:40:00.002-08:00

One day a teacher asked her students to list the names of the other students in the room on two sheets of paper, leaving a space between each name.

Then she told them to think of the nicest thing they could say about each of their classmates and write it down.

It took the remainder of the class period to finish their assignment, and as the students left the room, each one handed in the papers.

That Saturday, the teacher wrote down the name of each student on a separate sheet of paper, and listed what everyone else had said about that individual.

On Monday she gave each student his or her list. Before long, the entire class was smiling. 'Really?' she heard whispered. 'I never knew that I meant anything to anyone!' and, 'I didn't know others liked me so much,' were most of the comments.

No one ever mentioned those papers in class again. She never knew if they discussed them after class or with their parents, but it didn't matter. The exercise had accomplished its purpose. The students were happy with themselves and one another. That group of students moved on.

Several years later, one of the students was killed in Viet Nam and his teacher attended the funeral of that special student. She had never seen a serviceman in a military coffin before. He looked so handsome, so mature.

The church was packed with his friends. One by one those who loved him took a last walk by the coffin. The teacher was the last one to bless the coffin.

As she stood there, one of the soldiers who acted as pallbearer came up to her. 'Were you Mark's math teacher?' he asked. She nodded: 'yes.' Then he said: 'Mark talked about you a lot.'

After the funeral, most of Mark's former classmates went together to a luncheon. Mark's mother and father were there, obviously waiting to speak with his teacher.

'We want to show you something,' his father said, taking a wallet out of his pocket 'They found this on Mark when he was killed. We thought you might recognize it.'

Opening the billfold, he carefully removed two worn pieces of notebook paper that had obviously been taped, folded and refolded many times. The teacher knew without looking that the papers were the ones on which she had listed all the good things each of Mark's classmates had said about him.

'Thank you so much for doing that,' Mark's mother said. 'As you can see, Mark treasured it.'

All of Mark's former classmates started to gather around. Charlie smiled rather sheepishly and said, 'I still have my list. It's in the top drawer of my desk at home.'

Chuck's wife said, 'Chuck asked me to put his in our wedding album.'

'I have mine too,' Marilyn said. 'It's in my diary'

Then Vicki, another classmate, reached into her pocketbook, took out her wallet and showed her worn and frazzled list to the group. 'I carry this with me at all times,' Vicki said and without batting an eyelash, she continued: 'I think we all saved our lists'

That's when the teacher finally sat down and cried. She cried for Mark and for all his friends who would never see him again.

The density of people in society is so thick that we forget that life will end one day. And we don't know when that one day will be.

So please, tell the people you love and care for, that they are special and important. Tell them, before it is too late.

And One Way To Accomplish This Is: RE-post this comprehension in ur own blog. If you do not do it, you will have, once again passed up the wonderful opportunity to do something nice and beautiful.

i have taken my time to post this here.. for all my friends.. although i juz copy n paste here bt at least i let my friends- u all know i care u all..

dun need to say thx to me.. if u treat me as a fren.. juz post this in ur blog.. share ur love with others.. this is wad we shuld do..~~ let start it now~~ spread ur love..

~engleong~

share this with u all.. $25.00

2009-09-24T23:48:00.002-08:00

A man came home from work late, tired and irritated,to find his 5-year old son waiting for him at the door.

SON: 'Daddy, may I ask you a question?'
DAD: 'Yeah sure, what it is?' replied the man.
SON: 'Daddy, how much do you make an hour?'
DAD: 'That's none of your business. Why do you ask such a thing?'the man said angrily.
SON: 'I just want to know. Please tell me, how much do you make an hour?'
DAD: 'If you must know, I make $50 an hour.'
SON: 'Oh,' the little boy replied, with his head down.
SON: 'Daddy, may I please borrow $25?'

The father was furious,'If the only reason you asked that is so you can borrow some money to buy a silly toy or some other nonsense, then you march yourself straight to your room and go to bed. Think about why you are being so selfish. I don't work hard everyday for such childish frivolities.'

The little boy quietly went to his room and shut the door.
The man sat down and started to get even angrier about the little boy's questions.
How dare he ask such questions only to get some money?
After about an hour or so, the man had calmed down , and started to think: Maybe there was something he really needed to buy with that $25.00 and he really didn't ask for money very often

The man went to the door of the little boy's room and opened the door.'Are you asleep, son?' He asked.
'No daddy, I'm awake,' replied the boy.'
I've been thinking, maybe I was too hard on you earlier' said the man.'It's been a long day and I took out my aggravation on you. Here's the $25 you asked for.
'The little boy sat straight up, smiling. 'Oh, thank you daddy!' he yelled.Then, reaching under his pillow he pulled out some crumpled up bills.

The man saw that the boy already had money, started to get angry again.
The little boy slowly counted out his money, and then looked up at his father.

'Why do you want more money if you already have some?' the father grumbled.
'Because I didn't have enough, but now I do,' the little boy replied.
'Daddy, I have $50 now. Can I buy an hour of your time? Please come home early tomorrow. I would like to have dinner with you.'

The father was crushed.He put his arms around his little son, and he begged for his forgiveness.

It's just a short reminder to all of you working so hard in life. We should not let time slip through our fingers without having spent some time with those who really matter to us, those close to our hearts. Do remember to share that $50 worth of your time with someone you love. If we die tomorrow, the company that we are working for could easily replace us in a matter of hours. But the family & friends we leave behind will feel the loss for the rest of their lives.

this is kind a touching for me.. i took it from my friend's blog.. feel this post is very meaningful.
love this post.

ntg to say. bb..
at least i blogged.
wakaka.

r we still fren??

2009-09-12T05:22:00.002-08:00

because of that thing..
lost a fren..
mayb i cant save the frienship between us.
wad i can say is onli sorry..

because of that thing.
make my frens feel bad.
make my fren feel gulity..
although i told her is nt her fault.

because of that thing.
make myself emo for few weeks.
many problem cant settle now.
it makes me freaking stress..
no one can understand my feeling..
except for if u really face this problem..

this is my life..
wad can i do to change myself..
asking myself m i stupid.
asking myself m i really useless...

YES.. obviously. cant even handle juz a smal problem..
stupid fuCK..

even shit smell better..

-emo king-

is nt under my control.

2009-09-09T04:18:00.002-08:00

i hope u can understand me..
when i know i make u stress n sad..
i feel so disappointed..
i keep thinking of..

y m iso stupid..
keep forcing u to tell me this tell me that..

y u r still confused about that.

r u really love me?

or.. all of these are juz a dream..
i cant stop thinking of that..
i really love u.. i had gv up on that n choose to be with u
cuz i really love u..

is nt ur fault in this case..
do u understand. i m the one who made the final decision in this case..
y u keep thinking that u r the one who break us up..
u r nt..
the whole thing is about me..
is about all the things that i had done to u n her..

is nt that i want to avoid..
i wont avoid to chat with u if i really love u..
i juz wanna leave u for few days.. to let u stop thinking of that.
i dun want to see u stress...
i dun want any bad things happen on us..
i dun want u to leave me..
i dun want..
i dun want to cry bt i cant control myself..

i plan to study for my exam bt cant...
cuz i keep thinking of that..
i cant memorise anything at all..
i feel so stress too..

i know..
is nt that u dun like me.
i know.. i understand.
bt..
i juz cant accept it when u care about ur ex's feeling..
mayb u juz treat him as a fren..
juz that i really think too much about it..
n all the things i was thinking are bad things..

i really dun want to make u sad..
dun want to make u stress..

wad i wanna say is..
is nt ur fault..
n i really love u..
nt i want to avoid u..
i juz want to gv u more time to think of that properly.

sorry.. this is wad i really dun want it to happen..
cuz

I LOVE YOU..

bye..

-emo king- is back...

today!!~~

2009-08-18T04:33:00.003-08:00

刚从小学回来，出席了一场SPM华文试卷作答技巧讲座。
很久没回去小学看看，所以今天趁机在午休时间去找老师叙旧。
原以为只有cheong hong出席，没想到会看到更多的小学朋友。
凯欣、弘凯、李伟杰、陈翠雯和林佩弘。
还有一个，范永裕。
凯欣看到他时还露出惊吓的表情，有够好笑。
但是去找老师叙旧的只有我、cheong hong、弘凯、凯欣和佩弘。
走进办公室，跟一些老师聊了一下。
终于看到了李老师了。
我们就跟她聊了一阵子，并给了她6M部落格的网址。
所以，朋友们，
如果你的部落格有什么见不得光的，
快快删除！
哈哈哈哈！开玩笑！

really happy today.. the blog above is type by my fren.. i juz copy n paste it in my blog since i m so lazy n tired..
juz reached home from my skul.. straight after the seminar i was rushing to tuition cuz the day after i m nt free at all..
my CLU is having an activity this saturday..
so, all my frens.. come n support me.. i m the emcee for that day..
if u wanna see how i control the whole situation... juz come n check it out.. wakaka..
it is onli costs RM3 for each person..
bt students muz wear uniform with skul identities...
thx~

ok.. back to today..
met some of my primary skul frens today becuz i had attended a seminar which is really useful for me..
my skul.. THE CLUSTER SKUL.. VIctoria Institution do not have teacher for teaching Form 5's chinese.. so.. i m happy when i attended this chinese seminar..
this is the first time i learn n read about chinese THIS YEAR... is true~~
omg~ if i din attend to this seminar.. i wonder wad will happen when i m taking my trial... for chinese...
haiz.. sit inside for 9 hours... the longest seminar in the world..
haha... oh gosh..
den we plan to find Miss lee together since we all nvr visit her n other teachers for around two years..
haha... chat alot today with them n oso Miss lee..
bt too bad.. i had forgotten to take pic wif them.. especially miss lee.. haiz.. disappointed..
after the seminar.. i was rushing to tuition..
suddenly evonne tell me that she nt goin today..
she keep saying sorry to me.. its ok!!! lol... make sure dun ffk next time den ok liao.. haha

after tuition.. rushed to my skul again..
for Chinese society..
haiz.. tired.. n summore hot!~ sweaty lol.. summore i was wearing long sleeve..
went home at 6 sumthing..
bt heavy rain started.. n it was so terrible.. my brother was drving n we cant see anything infront...
scare crash again..
luckily.. reach home safely..
ok la..
lazy to write..
ntg to write ady.. i think is long enuf la..
gtg
bb

-emo king-
-eng leong-
-useless-
-yiong yiong-
-yy-

emo life~ change my life.

2009-08-02T04:18:00.002-08:00

my life is like that.
no laughters, onli sadness.
maybe i juz did a correct deicsion.
forget about it.
think about future.
concentrate on my study.
SPM is really important for me.
let it fade away.
it might change my life n my study aattitude.

hope i can make myself feel better.
is really a big birthday present for me..
FORGET IT.. FORGET HER.
START A NEW LIFE.
FROM NOW ON.
U ARE NOT EMO KING ANYMORE..

the whole new tan eng leong...
STUDY HARD>>>>>>>>>> MY FUTURE!!!

these few days. wad happen??

2009-07-20T04:56:00.002-08:00

hmm.. first of all..
i dunno wad to blog about bt my mind keep on remind me to blog today.
dunno y..
using my brother laptop now.
have to finish the blog faster as he will come back ome soon..
a bit scare.. later he scold. n dun let me use anymore.
hmm.
ok.. lets talk about last saturday..
is kinda hyper n crazy day among these three days that i had passed..
we went seayang darul ehsan gathering.. about 37 ppl from Victoria institution chinese language union goin because of my brother's order.
all the ajk are compulsory to attend the gathering because selayang is one of the 9 skul..
i think~~
HEHE.. wake up at 5 on that day n helped my mum to work..
around 7 o clock. my brother n i left my mum n went to titiwangsa lrt station to meet others..
erica and some of the lower sixes reached earlier than us..
soli erica.. bt this is not our fault. we din late.. juz that u all reached thr earlier.. haha..
huh!!! who is the latest king for that day?? haha.. is MR loh chee wei.. he reached there about 8.00 bt we supposed to be there at 7.30am.. haiz.. better to change lol.. haha..
had a lot fun when we gathered at lrt station..
we were like a crowd of tanuung rambutan's patients keep shouting n singing at the entrance of titiwangsa lrt station..
n we stopped when the guard come n warned us.. wakaka..
den we went titiwangsa bus stop to continue our crapped..
reached thr within 2 minutes cuz the bus stop is juz right opposite the lrt station..
selayang darul ehsan usher were thr to bring us to their skul..
we got into the bus n find place to sit down..
VI ppl all sitting at the back n start singing child's songs.. many song that we had sang... is kind a hyper man!! one thing that i really dun believe= my brother play this together with them. how crzy are they!!!
finally they stop when they felt tired.. haha...
sam said: they really like kids, feel tired then straight away diam n wanna sleep. haha..

reached thr within 20 minutes..
hmmm.. dunno wad to do thr n saw kien yoong with his juniors. bt i onli know pui jin. one of his juniors.. chatted with him for a while n gathered back with VI gang..
we went into the hall n started SS lol.. took out the camera n ook pic here took pic thr..
the hall is full with blue shirt ppl..

finally the gathering start.. dunno wad to say.. the starting part is bored lol..
bt the performance is stil ok.. at least their perfomrance can make us get high...
hmm.. there are too many sketch that make us a bit bored.. the dancing peformance is the best one... love it so much!!

overall i give 7 out of 10 points.. hmm. A2 la. wakaka..

ok.. sunday.
this is really a bored day..
i dunno wad to do for the whole day..
juz facing the computer for the whole day..
facebook-ing
msn-ing
listening to music.
i think thats all lol..
den at night. went out to dinner with my aunt..
eat bak kut teh.
hmm..
according to my aunt.. they said this bak kut teh is nice n ask us to try oso..
bt is really disappoint the whole family..
is not really nice n i dun really like the taste of the soup..
is a bit sour.. mayb the ingredients they used to cook the soup.. bt, i dun like..
is about RM 250 ringgit for the whole dinner..
walao.. expensive.. i juz eat a bit onli lol..
go back find sumthing to eat again..
haha.. luckily still got SIEW BAO..
wakaka.
den on9 til 12.00 sumthing lol..
watched 17 again again~~~
think of her when i think of this movie..
mayb because this is the first time we watch movie together
n we sit so near n eat popcorn together..
is kind a sweet memory for me.. i think!! haha..

hmm.. dun wanna talk about today...
thats all for today..
bb gtg

-emo king-
-yy-
-useless-
-yiong yiong-
-eng leong-

ZZZzzzZZ.. duno wad to write..

2009-07-13T02:59:00.002-08:00

really bored.. until i cant think anything to blog.. bt i cant juz left it blank for few weeks..
and my frens keep asking me y i din blog for so many days..
hehe.. same reason.. BO MOOD..
n dunnno wad to write.. cuz ntg special happen...

found a primary skul fren contact few days ago..
i dunno who is that when cheong hong told me her english name..
den after he gave me her email.. i go n check who is she through friendster..
onli i realised..
sorry evonne..

haha..
went maxwell last aturday n sunday..
chinese chess competition..
with lower six frens..
the first day is kinda hyper day cuz i won for 4 matches in a row.. nvr lose...
first time.. very excited n hyper..
mayb with her wishes... thx..

second day.
hmm.. a bit disappointed cuz the first day we cant get much points..
so is kind a hard to pull our ranking up to top 5..
for the second day.. i won 2 matches out of 3... feel sad lol..
the puchong perdana guy gv me an EGG....
if nt i can get straight wins for 7 matches..
overall still ok..
i m satisfy with it.. bt still feel abit disappointed..
shuld can get third place actually..

nvm.. its already passed..
n thx for wai kian, hoi lai, chee wei and oso kah hoe..
my best teammates..
n really had fun those two days...

thats all...
bb

-emo king-
-useless-
-yy-
-yiong yiong-
-eng leong-

the day i will nvr forget

2009-07-04T04:44:00.005-08:00

today..
kinda scary day because i joined a singing competition..
and the competition is on saturday which means today..
woke up at 5 o clock.. as usual helped my mum to work... den onli i sent to titiwangsa lrt station..
reached thr on time.. juz perfect.. no late. no earlier..
waiting for khai hsuen, alvin n sam.. they were late..
feel lonely thr.. since SBU ady had a gang thr.. i dun feel like interupt them..
n i do not even dare to talk to her.. cuz. that kind of feeling is still in my mind..
n make me annoyed n emo for the whole morning..
finally, sam n alvin reached bus stop..
n i started to feel better.. mayb becuz they chat with me... that made me forget about wad i m thinking..
good job.. at least.. i m a bit hyper in the morning.. although it was juz a short moment..
the bus had came... n we all went up to the bus.. bt i feel a bit guilty cuz i din wait for khai hsuen..
bt luckily.. at last he reached thr safely.. den i feel better too..
Alvin is like my partner onli.. keep holding his guitar all the way in that skul..
for those who dunno sure thought he is the participant bt nt me.. wakaka..
everyone is laughing at his action.. with the guitar?? haha..
finally the comp started. feel a bit excited.. cuz i was waiting for sumone who can sing well...
bt i m too disappointed.. duet were out of my expected.. n there are no much ppl could sing well in that competition.. the PA system summore spoilt becuz of the first pair of contestants..
one of them put too near to the mic with his mouth..
n this affect the second third n fourth pair of duet..
then the skul finally replace the PA system with a new speaker..
the SBS team really sing very well.. they really good among all..
SBU oso very well.. ZZ n pei wern actually gt chance to get first place..
mayb they are too tension.. so.. a bit out of pitch lol. bt still congratz cuz u both gt second place..

individu is totally different with duet..
individu is so much better than the duet n make me freaking scare n tension.. i m number 16..
there are 30 participants..
the first participant sing okok.. from the second one.. all oso counted as pro.. they song very well..
n i m scared too. i keep thinking i sure lose.. sure LOSE.. the word LOSE is in my mind by all the time.. haha..
finally my turn..
i m freaking scare bt when i go up to the stage..
i close my eyes without looking at the judgers n the audience.. so i feel better...
of cuz i sing with my eyes open... wakaka..
den zun zen turn.. she sing very well oso.. like her voice.. cuz is very soft..
den pei wern turn.. she oso sing vey well.. n the song she choose is very nice..
i like her song...
so conclusion for all participants.. THEY ARE GENG!!!

results finally coming out.. n the results for duet is
third: selayang skul..
second: SBU (zun zen and pei wern)
first: SBS (i really admire the guy.. he sing very well)

n for individual
third: taman connaught (i like her voice oso.. she sing very well.. i thought she is the one who get first)
second: SBS (that guy again)
first: Victoria instituion (thats ME!! unbelievable.. i m shocked when i know the result..)

anyway.. thx for those who come n support me..
Yeong han, sam, alvin, khai hsuen..

n oso congratz to zun zen n pei wern... n there some photo sessions.. i juz took one phot.. and thats it!!!

pei wern, emo king, zun zen.....

after the comp we planned to go ts to play bowling actually..
got thr by monorail.. reached thr within 10 minutes..
reach super bowl.. bt too bad.. there was full...WTF
hate it..
then we plan to go arkib to play basketball..
we saw a guy that very good.. terrible.. he can shoot for 400++ points.. wad the F!!! THE MAN..
den we go to skul to see the decoration for CAMPFIRE today.. i m nt goin becuz i m too tired..
den go home together with my brother lol..

love is like a war..easy to start, hard to stop, impossible to forget..
i agree!!

thats all for today.. cant think liao..
gtg
bb

-emo king-
-yy-
-useless-
-yiong yiong-
-eng leong-

a wound that will never recover

2009-07-02T04:49:00.003-08:00

today.. quite a hyper day cuz i laugh a lot at skul..
wad so funny... because of my stupid idea..
all dirty stuff come out from my mind.. edit the lyrics of these songs n make all my fren laugh..
n i, laugh until i cried.. n my eye pain. (haven found out y.. once i laugh my eye will pain).
nothing much today.. still the same.. as usual.. study n do homework in class...
juz waiting for the last period..
its Piano lesson.. Chee keong is my teacher..
go practise river flows in you for a while cuz yesterday said wanna play for her..
dun want to spoilt her favourite music.. haha..
den skul finish.. i was so excited n rush to the lrt station cuz i know i will meet her soon..
reach pandan jaya at 3pm n walk to SBU.. spent 2 minutes to walk thr..
n then call pei wern to bring me to that place..
cuz i dunno how to go thr.. til now i m still a bit blur.. still nt very sure how to walk to that place..
SBU building is really like a MAZE..
i might trap in that building cuz thr are really many corridors n class that look exactly same.
reached there leading by pei wern n then start practise our songs..
first, zun zen n pei wern duet..
second, emo king single
third, pei wern single
fourth, zun zen single
fifth, pei wern single again.... haha. she got soar throat today.. TAKE CARE YA..

mayb because of that thing.
i went thr with a very happy n hyper mood..
but back with a very moody n emo face..
mayb that feeling comes back to me again?? HATE IT!!
stay away from me..

finally i had met her today..
bt, so what..
it doesnt mean anything..
feel strange to each other.
dun feel like chat with her face to face..
i dunno y?? juz dun dare..
cuz i really dunno wad she is thinking.
she really forget about it? or? time do not allow us to stay longer??

chat with pei wern after zun zen went home by her mum's car..
juz dunno how to spend my time..
chat with pei wern while she is waiting for her parents to fetch her..
about one hour we all chat.. chat alot things.. about academic, my story, n oso her story..
bt nt much la.. cuz.. i m emo at that moment.. no mood to ask n answer any questions..
her bf came n fetch her today.. den i went home too...

is really hurt me so much when i think of that,
there is a wound in my heart now,
that will never recover,
hate this kind of feeling..
EMO KING IS FINALLY BACK~~~

Music is a part of my life..

2009-06-28T06:19:00.002-08:00

wad is music??
is it important for everone in the world?? I DUNNO..
haha..
the onli thing that i m sure is.. for me.. MUSIC IS A PART OF MY LIFE..
i love music..
when reading, sleeping. driving, travelling, doing homework, studying..

these days, i asked my fren to teach me piano.
since my mum dun let me to go some music centres to learn..
so i m forced to ask my fren to lend a hand.. haha..
thx chee keong for teaching me how to read the notes..
now at least i learn a bit about the basic..
the first song i know how to play is HAPPY BIRTHDAY.. learn together with Mooi..
the next song i wanna learn..
RIVER FLOWS IN YOU...
i know she likes this song so much..
learn this juz becuz of her..
hope i can learn it as soon as possible..
so that i can play for her.. hehe..
this is my next target besides academic..

yesterday was open day.. bt too bad i m nt goin for that..
i went Maxwell to get my brother's report card..
my mum is nt free on that day.. so she cant help me to get mine..
i dunno about my position in class..
bt whole form i got 28th.. haiz.. wad a bad result..
from 7(last year) drop to 28... sad!!
i muz get into top ten in the next exam, and oso trial..
WAITING FOR YOU...

SPM.. 11 A1..
My main target...
STUDY HARD, STUDY SMART...
Be Confident..

Sporty day~~

2009-06-26T04:05:00.002-08:00

kinda hyper day today..
woke up earlier today n read the message that sent me by Zun Zen yesterday.
bt sorry for din reply cuz i slept ady the moment u sent me the message..
as usual, woke up at 5 am to help my mum to do some works..
went to skul at 6.45am. reached skul at 7.00 am
mayb i was too tired yesterday n laugh alot after the SOTSOT zun zen sent me the 'cute bear'(for zz) or 'blur bear'(for me)..
haha.. it doesnt move n i was starring at the multimedia meesage for few minutes..
n i replayed it several times bt still... THE BEAR IS STARRING AT ME...
it doesnt move at all.. laugh until my stomach pain..
back to today story..
mayb i was too tiring today so i slept in my class oso.. i cant even open my eyes..
is like a force keep closing my eyes..
den lines started.. n i was forced to go for the STUPID lines..
YUCKS.. waste my time onli..
after lines.. class started oso.. today is freaking free until i can play cards n chess in the class for the whole day..
this is one of the reason y i hate this skul.. cuz there are always no teacher in the class n we cannot learn anything in the skul..
suddenly.. when i stood up.. my phone vibrated.. i wonder who will sms me in the early morning..
i thought it was juz a meesage that sent by DIGI centre..
bt i was wrong.. it was ZUN ZEN.. shock me.. suddenly onli..
haha.. she having open days today bt she feel bored??
i wanted to chat with her bt she dun let cuz she knew my relief tacher was in the class..
ok lol den...

to my dearest ZZ:
suan lol.. dun want to chat with me.. sad liao. EMO~~ haha..

den stop for a while i was doin add maths paper work..
the hand out that given by the relief tacher... SEMANGAT Betul..
we did for few questions den we stop.. CUZ teacher left.. haha..
den we continue our 'HEART' (a kind of poker games. exist in ur pc) time.
hehe..

during recess time,
today really quiet.. the canteen quite until can hear the sound when a needle drop on the floor..
it was freaking quiet..
there is onli 10++ students at the canteen..
WTF.. n i can buy my food very fast since i dun need to queue.. haha..
bt i wanna make it clear here..
i din cut queue.. nobody thr so i can buy food in a very short time..
i m a good boy ok??
den went back to my class n had my breakfast thr..
continue my HEART journey..
after recess.. thr was a lines again.. HATE IT..
Fly to library n wait until the line finish..
then walked back to class with Chu Shen..
Oh no.. english period.. wad a boring subject..
luckily she din teach today cuz we have to arrange the table n chair for tomolo..
tomolo is our open days.. bt too bad.. i m nt goin.. cuz my parents is nt free..
is nt a bad thing.. i got bad results.. i dun want to get my results..
drop from top 10 to 19.. sad.. i admit i really din do well in the last exam..
STUDY HARD.. i muz stuck myself into top 10 in the next exam n oso TRIAL..
few months to go..

after skul...
attended to CLU meeting..
the first meeting with all the members who already pass the interview..
i was acting a vase during the meeting.. my brother is the onli one who talked in the meeting..
haha.. everyone was quiet n listen to wad he say..
n i, the second job for me.. CAMERAMAN.. i was helping him to take photo during the meeting..
n finally i reaslise.. i m nt a VASE.. haha..

after the meeting.. went to basketball court n played with erica for a while..
my shooting is bad n my shooting under the ring is nt as good as last time..
muz train more.. mayb becuz of nt playing for three months...
den went back to form six block n play badminton with my brother n lower sixes..
all of us are crazy during this moments..
is the first time i played with CLU AJK in this year..
nvr have this feeling b4..
haha..
good!!!!

after games.
all of us went NAI NAI(Pudu) to have our lunch..
13 ppl went thr.. i followed my brother car to go..
after finished den all of us went home..
n now i m really tired..
so gtg..
is it counted as a HAPPY post?? zz??
haha..
bb lol..
blog next time..(bt dunno when)

-emo king-
-yy-
-useless-
-yiong yiong-

i realise that i nvr put my real name b4 everytime i post a blog..
n lastly
-eng leong-

Sorry all my frens

2009-06-22T05:09:00.002-08:00

i m hurted..
all my fren leave me..
jz because i love her..
i nvr leave u all behind..
juz that i dun want u all to ask me about that anymore..
i m stress..
even i myself dunno wad to do oso...
sorry if i hurted u all.. u all r my frens..
forever ever..
n never leave u all behind.. sorry...

Cheong hong. GOod Luck in ur competition..
and SORRY

Gaka.. sorRy.. mayb i really make u angry..
forgive me pls..

SORRY EVERYONE... pls forgive wad i have done...
i really stress n sad..
juz gv me some time.. THX

wad a sad day..

2009-06-19T05:47:00.003-08:00

i m actually now waiting for someone to on..
bt that person din on... so bad..
i m sick.. i wanna chat with the person so that i cant currently forget about my health status..
i cant sleep now.. i know once i sleep.. i wont know whether the person is on9 or off9 later..

now i m really tired.. bt dun ask me to rest.. i dun want..
juz feel a bit suffer because of FLU...
hope is nt H1N1.. as i know, it is nt that easy to get H1N1 too..

finally.. i got the song that i want to use for that competition..
feel a bit excited.. feel free now.. cuz i dun need to worry about it anymore.,
bt i feel like damn free until bored now..
can find sumthing for me to do??
nothing to do..!!!!! OMG...
as u all know i sick... so i cant practise songs, i cant concentrate on study today.. n i dun want to sit in front of the TV n watch shows... i wanna chat with that person.. LOL.. pls..

haiz.. sad la.. mayb the person went tuition today so the person cant on9 today..
haiz.. emo-ing..
wad a sux day...
gtg
bb

-emo king-
-useless-
-yy-
-yiong yiong-

haha.. wao.. sri petaling day.

2009-06-14T06:27:00.003-08:00

yesterday.. went out to sri petaling with my best best best VICLU 07/08 committee..
we planned to go many places.. to chit chat.. to talk about our happy moments and lastly to meet those who going to redang soon.
haha.... very happy for the whole day because i had release out all my stress?? mayb..
firstly, we all went to McD to have our lunch since all of us were hungry.. especially Kar Mun.. she is complaining about y we went down to the McD floor so late..
made her wait for us wait for us n she is really hungry.. I think!!
haha... we all were bullying Sam cuz he is the youngest among all of us..
we juz want him to buy food for us.. bt we failed.. cuz our Miss President: Lee Xin Li... knew it n scold us.. wakaka..
we FAILED..
n lastly.. i m the one who go n buy for them. so cham.. kena bully pulak..
bt at least.. all my frens- Sam, Alvin, Theen Meng and Khai Hsuen follow me to the counter thr too..
cuz one ppl cant carry so many set of MC Chicken lol...
summore khai hsuen want ice cream.. how i hold for him..
actually at first when i saw toong piew i feel a bit weird.. we like din know each other n feel so strange.. haiz.. a bit sad lol..
actualy i predict it ady one.. who wont feel that if u fall in love with a same gal.. i think u will hate him lol.. bt of cuz i wont.. cuz i know we r still HENG DAI..
he came to the counter n ask sumone to accmpany im to the toilet.. bt too bad. all of us dun want go.. he is asking alvin to go.. ofcuz.. as a zat ppl KING. i surely will zat him lol..
wad is said to piew is: u ask alvin o with u oso useless, SHE goin women toilet bt going men toilet.. then everyone laughing.. and as usual. alvin kick me n hit my body..
NOT PAIN AT ALL.. haha..
after we ad ur lunch.. we went out n check for the schedule of the Karaoke...
the karaoke name is called as 'E-Box'. nvr hear b4..
bt very cheap. i like the price.. n summore can sing for so long..
wait until 3.oo o clock. we went into the k room n sing k lol..
i sang many many songs that day.. bt too bad.. all emo n sad songs...
thx ah piew.. no one praise me like that b4.. i sing very well n full of mood.. (This is wad ah piew told me)
haha.. sing until my throat pain n the place is cold.. made everyone feel cold thr.. they took our shirt as thier JACKET.. so bad la u all..
after 3 hours, we went out from the k room..
n all the gals n alvin n also theen meng said they wanna go back.. OMG.. so early.
luckily, nicholas n wai xiang reached at that moment.. two more ppl come n play with us..
we went n play bowling thr.. at first we were actually plan to go and play bowling bt there was a competition, so we cant play..
luckily the second time we go the competition ended on time.. so we can..
after 10 times of throwing the bowling out to the lane.. the results came out..
i m the last with the points- 100.. ngam ngam..
so cham.. cuz i missed my last ball.. thats y i lost.. AH!!!
as long as we ad fun thr.. after that we went STATION KOPITIAM to have our dinner.
everyone was looking for some cheap food to eat cuz we spend all our money b4 that.. WE ARE POOR..
we crapped a lot in the station kopitiam..about SEX.. wakaka.. no la.. is juz about BIOLOGY... we r juz joking by using that topic..
i talked freaking loud n made others look at us.. i DUN CARE.. i m a SCIENCE student.. is normal for me..
haha.. den we went toong piew house to chat..
we talked about our own secret in his grandma room..
everyone dun dare to say it out.. WE ARE FREN.. we muz share it lol..
toong piew is the first one who share his love story with us..
he really geng.. 3 hours os cant finish his love story.. we all saturated u lol.. wakaka..
n then khai hsuen is the second one.. he feel very sad lo... n we all r trying to comfort him...
i m third one.. walao. i almost cry.. luckily i din..
we chat from 7 pm til 5 am.. geng le....
then onli we sleep... we wake up at 10 o clock n chat again.. until 12.00 onli we go a mamak restaurant to have our BREAKFAST.. wakaka..we chat agin thr until 2o clock then we went home.. AH piew... u lied to us.. sri petaling station is futher than bukit jalil station...
bt it is safer.... dun forget our next dating oo.. go out n play badminton together.. haha...
Really thx a lot to all my frens..
u all comfort me n try to help me to reduce my stress in that kind of thing..
we really had a lot of fun that day..
miss u all so much...
ok..
gtg.
bb..

-emo ing-
-useless-
-yy-
-yiong yiong-

happy post?? yea.. i m happy when i m thinking of this..

2009-06-11T04:59:00.004-08:00

I feel happy.. wakaka
Like a kangaroo jumping around the jungle
Oooo.. cuz she ask me to post sumthing happy be4 she go to Singapore..
v made many many promises today.
erm, promised her.. i will fulfill wad i have told her today..
Zzzzz. a bit bored actually..
u r the onli one i love
no one can replace u.
Zzz.. hope that u wont sscold me after u read this..
Emo king is happy when he think of this.
no matter wad happen.. he will always be with u..

i feel happy when i think of this..
really..

STUPID!!!!

2009-06-11T01:44:00.003-08:00

i m stupid again..
i really regret for wad i had done
for wad i had told her..
i thought that frenz should frank to each other, especially to the one u love..
bt actually is nt.. i was wrong..
totally wrong... is this call stupid mind???
wad the hell.. the theory that i always believe was wrong..

she is down, sad n moody now..
but i cant do anything for her..
all my frens are now feel very annoyed..
i feel like alienated by them..
i feel lonely..
i m the Mr. lonely...

i hate wad i had done..
i hate the decision that i made..
i hate myself.. i hate to be a human..
i hate myself to have feeling..

i cant stop myself to care about u..
u shuld understand.. eventhough i know my chance is low.. freaking low.. or mayb NO Chance at all..
bt, i still love u..
wad i can do now is protect u n try to make u hyper all the time..
bt seems like u dun blive me..
seems like u r avoiding from me..
i feel sad..
really hurt..
i m HURTED.. u know.. T_T

hate myself to fall in love with u..
make u sad.
make u moody all the time.
make u annoyed.
make u suffer.
make u stress.

is not my fault??
NONO.. is all MY fault..

suprise? happy? sad? emo!!!!

2009-06-10T05:52:00.006-08:00

suprised!!! ya.. today really suprised..
today actually we were planned to go out n play(khai hsuen, pei wern n i),
reached lrt at 12.30pm n waiting for khai hsuen.
n then we walked to ts together cuz hsuen told me pei wern was already thr..
we went up to the third floor since pei wern was thr n waiting for us..
i called her n she told me she was juz opposite S&J.
i saw she was with someone.. bt i cant recognize that gal face cuz i din wear spectacles.
walked to her n finally i saw the gal face..
thats ZUN ZEN.... scare me.. i thought she said she goin Singapore today??
how come she was here?? i was shocked n dunno wad to say..
den onli i know, actually hsuen n wern knew that yesterday..
they planned to lie to me.. n gv me a BIG BIG SUPRISE..
bt then..
i m nt very happy..
not because i dun want to meet ZZ..
although it is really good for me bt since i always think negatively..
n u all dunno wad i m thinking..
so, i feel sad.... emo.. for the whole day..
i din talk much today.. went to pavilion to watch movie..
we nvr plan anything so all of us are blur.. n dunno wad movie to watch..
n finally, we had made a decision..
we watch 17 AGAIN...
bt very hard to watch cuz we sat at the first row.. my eyes are freaking pain while watching that movie..
then wern go home lol..
follow by ZZ.. she went home by her mum's car..
then hsuen n i went TS n planned to play pool thr..
bt too bad, it was full...
den we walked for a while n have a break at oldtown..
we chat a lot.. talked about our secret???
haha.. until 8 pm...
no mood to blog.. simply draft something onli..
as long as readers understand den can ady..
if u all dun understand i cant do anything oso.. my english is bad..

i know. mayb u treat me as a fren
bt i will nvr give up if u din hurt me badly..
i rather u hurt me than now i feel so suffer..
i cant stand this anymore..
teach me.. wad can i do..

thinking of something

2009-06-08T03:20:00.000-08:00

now, thinking of something.. thinking of this song too..
is like really talking about her n me... so embarrasing...
i like the title.. is match with me..
i hate myself..

我不配

这感觉　已经不对
我努力在挽回
一些些应该体贴的感觉我没给
你嘟嘴许的愿望很卑微在妥协
是我忽略　你不过要人陪
这感觉已经不对
我最后才了解
一页页不忍翻阅的情节你好累
你默背为我掉过几次泪多憔悴
而我心碎你受罪你的美
我不配

mayb i had made a wrong decision...
wad i can do is juz forget about this..
n maintain the friendship.. i think..
it really affected our friendship.
y this happened on me..
is all my fault...
i cant blame anyone....
sorry.... i hurted myself...
n i made u annoyed..
i hate myself...

wad a sad n boring day!!!

2009-06-07T22:33:00.000-08:00

woke up at 6 today.. helped my mum to do work ma.. wad to do. she asked me to do.. cant say NO..
reached home at 2 something.. tiring!~~
think of something that make me emo for few days.....
bt luckily, the things had settled by myself..

FRIENDS shuldnt lie to each other. muz tell everything frankly..

this is wad i get from this case...

reached home den straight away on9..
found out that ZZ is on9 too.. haha.. luckily... if nt i dunno i on for wad.. cuz no one i can chat with besides her, pei wern n CH.. hehe..
bt then still feel bored..
cuz after that thing happened. i feel a bit scare to chat with her... wakaka..

friendship is it very hard to maintain...???
my answer: NO!!!! i will maintain it as well...

boring le.. now ZZ having lunch.. chatting with pei wern..
she feel so sad onli de!!! wakaka.. dun feel sad lol..

ok lol.. thats all... will blog SOON or mayb next month??? wakaka..
gtg
bb

-emo king-
-useless-
-yy-

终极天团

2009-06-07T06:02:00.000-08:00

Victoria Scout Group 33rd Annual Parents Campfire

2009-06-07T05:48:00.000-08:00

Date : 4th July 2009
Venue : Quadrangle of Victoria Institution
Time : 1930 hours- 2330 hours

Attendance with full scout attire : RM 7
Attendance without full scout attire : RM 10

Finally, it is with highest hope and regard that you celebrate with us in this symbolic campfire which marks the 100th year of Victorian scouting. All are welcomed.

Khai hsuen ask me to post this..
so who wanna attend for this activity.. please contact him..
because i m nt scout.. hehe..

haiz...... emo day

2009-06-03T04:04:00.000-08:00

juz very hard to say i lovc u
i got no mood to type blog today..
juz dissapointed..
sorry for making u sad..
i feel guilty.. i shuldnt tell u about this..
sorry...

i m really a stupid shit..
useless bastard..
totally a rubbish...

EMO king is really emo for today.. if gt nothing pls dun find me
i gt ntg to say to u all.. sorry..

pics that we took today!!!

2009-06-01T06:07:00.001-08:00

wao.. happy day..

2009-06-01T04:11:00.001-08:00

i m very tired actually bt still.. have to post something here la..
since all my friends said i nvr update my blog for so long..
kena scold by few friends ady, dunno create blog for wad..
as a decoration for my pc or?? stupid!!!!
wakaka..
today.. very happy... although i feel very tired..
rehearsal for gathering today.. i reached skul around 7 sumthing after i helped my mum to work..
feel pancit lol.. tired.. dying..
slept at 1 o clock yesterday because i attended to my cousin wedding party..
my brother n i were sleeping in the car for one hour while waiting for my ajk..
den luckily form six block is opened.. we went up n sleep inside..
wakaka..the conclusion for today morning.. slept for the whole morning...
when 9 0 clock, we all started our practise.. dunno wad happened to all of us.. forgot all the dancing steps..
luckily Sam remember a bit then we can refresh our mind n practise onli.. if nt. sure die lol..
around 9.30 o clock, everyone were nt here yet
i felt so angry y they all haven reached here yet.. they told me the practise start at 8 bt they reached skul around 9.45?? wad the!!!
haiz.. sad la..
the i went LRT for a while to pick Zun Zen they all to my skul.. saw kuku n Kat thr oso.. we walked thr together..
quite bored today.. cuz i need to run here run thr.. run around the whole skul cuz SBU need to do the decoration in the hall bt cant
because our skul having another activity tomolo..
after teach them how to do the backdrop..
play badminton n basketball for a while lol..
play with chee keong n yeong han they all..
wakaka.. have a lot fun lol..
some sad thing happended today.. CBN performance.. some problems occured.. bt i hope they can settle it as soon as possible..
after rehearsal.. went TS with zun zen and a new friend, Pei Wern..
she also a pro singer.. wao... i know two pro singer this year.. how nice..
wakaka...
so happy.. went gasonline to have our lunch.. take photo together sommore..
a lot photo we all took..
we felt very very very cold thr..
wakaka... so funny wei both of them.. SS-ing..
n i sesated.. cuz i dunno wad they were talking about..
since i din attend to their one day camp..
once again.. soli Zun Zen.. nt i dun want to go bt is juz that i cant go.. so soli..
we walked around in ts to buy things...
both of them are shopaholic lol.. scare me.... buy so many things...
especially zun zen!!! wakaka... bag, phone straps, n so on...
wakaka.. really like a monster.. see wad den buy it onli... wakaka..
bt got one thing really attract me.. THE BREAD!!! so nice.. Coffee flavour de bread..
like real one onli.... who create that la.. so geng one!!!!
den we went home lol.. zun zen went home with their family
n i went home with that leng lui, pei wern lol... we went LRT station together.
she sesated.. haha.. she actually wanna go Bukit jalil bt she went in ampang line and reached miharja bt she dunno until i called her!!!
she really blur la.... bt luckily she reached her mum office safely..
if not.. ZUN ZEN WILL KILL ME..

ok lol.. thats all for today,, lazy to post la.. simply write something onli..
gtg
bb
-emo king-
-yy-
-useless-

am i free now.. oo.. nt yet..

2009-05-22T01:48:00.001-08:00

FREEDOM..

FEEL RELIEF NOW...

BECAUSE.....

EXAM FINISHED..

OOPPPSSS

NOT YET

PHYSICS PAPER!!! DIE AGAIN!!!

FINALLY FINISH.. but actually is not..

2009-05-22T01:31:00.001-08:00

oh my god man... chemistry i did a lot careless mistake..
i blaming myself all the way when i m going to form six block to attend the CLU meeting..
woa...
the third member meeting in this year...
but at least.. more than last year..
bt seem like not many ppl coming..
lower forms are onli 20++ppl..
den onli i realised. lower sixes were still downstair.. (orientation).
icic..
brother was talking something about CLU shirt n badges...
n lastly, the stupid Carnival stuff...
yes.. we get 60% profit after the sales... we win.....
haha..
when lower sixes came up to the class...
i was shocked..
i saw a little gal named Pyin yea..
she studied form six.. in VI.. how come i din get any information from khai hsuen..
n pyin yea!! u din tell me... omg..
shocked man..
wakaka..
scolded her.. i thought she said she dun want to come in VI..
bt then.. saw her today..
wakaka.. so funny la her.. nvr change.. height also din change..

to my dearest pyin yea:
grow taller la..
din tell me u study in VI..
today onli i know..
suan liao...

haha...
so funny la...
all the lower sixes at the back row are ex-SBU n SBS student..
wad the..
next year.. SBU-SBS conquer CLU..
wakaka... actually i dun mind de...
juz joking onli.. as long as they make CLU to the best den ok ady lol..
bt if they cant.. wakaka.. they will die lol..!!
wakaka... ok lol
enuf liao..
gtg
bb

-yy-
-useless guy-
-emo king-
-rubbish-

die again

2009-05-12T03:48:00.001-08:00

today BM test.. i failed it liao lol.. cham lol..
stupid skul..
editted the paper.. ah..
luckily the essay part they using government paper..
write about 1000 words.. the first time..
the second paper really die liao.. everyone dunno how to do about the Konflik thingy..
haiz..
cham lol..
tomolo maths..
din study at all.. mayb later will study for a while lol..
juz want to know how to use the formulae..
haiz..
eye pain.. tired le...
AHAHAHAHAHAHAH.....!!!!!

English test today.. dying.. is that called DIANOGSTIC??

2009-05-11T02:27:00.000-08:00

dianogstic examination is freaking bored n annoyed.. juz finished intervention test..
haiz.. today i juz finished my english test paper.. of cuz for me, is very very hard especially essay part.. others i think i can handle gua..
bt anyway.. still worried about the essay section B.. i think i out of topic.. oh my god..
hope i can pass the test.. God Bless..
please!!!! haiz..
assembly today... the shortest assembly in the year 2009..
because 9.30 we r having english essay examination in the Heritage Hall.
so teachers said they do not want to prolong the assembly.. wahaha.. so funny..
like they very good onli.. they dun want to prolong. they dun want to delay our test..
if gt ntg to say den juz say it out la.. lie to us for wad...
a funny assembly.. one indian guy was delivered his speech during assembly today..
he talked about mothers' day.. Very funny... everyone was laughing while he is rapping..
really funny.. is like a crown performing on the stage.. even the prefects were laughing at the door when they r on duty.. (they cant laugh or smile when they are on duty, otherwise they will fined by their captain.)
haha.. the funniest things for today assembly was the speech that Pn Zarina delivered..
she spoke english.. walao.. scare us wei.. as her student,, we never hear she speak english nicely during her class.. n today.. seh cried.. she cried when she was delivering her speech.. cuz yesterday was mothers' day.. she felt touch after the Mother's day presentation was presented by the form two guys..
my friends n i were like ==' WTF.. she cired juz because of that.. for me i feel like it is juz a small thing lol.. mayb i m nt a mother or father so that i wont understand the feeling gua..
anyway.. Mothers' day is really a very important day in our lifetime..
Happy mothers' day to every mother...
yesterday when i chat with monique.. onli i realised that i nvr say these three words to my mum b4.. i feel so guilty to my mum.. bt i still.. have no courage to say it out.. cuz i feel abnormal when i say this to my mum.. haha... i m different from u all la.. i m abnormal human oso ma.. a bit special..
hmm.. after assembly.. The Bull Dog ask us to arrange the table ourselves.. all the form 5 did not listen to her n we walked out the hall straight... who cares.. we r FORM 5.. haha..
exam for the whole day.. after english paper was recess.. very very hungry..
the cantten had sold out their food cuz teacher let us left the hall lately..
i feel so angry lol.. no food to eat.. my stomach is like shouting ady... haiz...
after that seat for the paper 2.. finish it on time.. luckily..
actually i really dun understand.. during paper 2.. stusents can walk here walk thr and check their frens answer even though teachers are in the hall.. is this a real exam.. is this call Dianogsitc test??? wad the..
is our teachers' problem or the students??? i dun understand... pls... 'VI.. jangan memalukan VI Ini bukan Vi kalau bising semasa peperiksaan..' this is wad Mr. Said said to the students who taking exam in the hall..
of cuz.. including me.. bt i din walk here walk thr durin the exam la.. talk to my fren onli.. cuz really bored le... haha...
afterwards its time to go home.. i reached home around 3.30pm..
den i spent around 2 hours to finish BM revision.. n now.. blogging...
feel so free now since my mum, my dad, my elder brothers are nt at home now..
i can do anything i want n no one can stop me.. how nice.. YEAH!!!!
i kinda fall in love in these three songs...
我的主题曲, a little too not over you and oso 'ai lai de gang hao'..
wao.. so nice.. songs that i wont feel bored after a hundred times of listening in one day..
i like these songs so much..
practised after revision..
the song "ling yi ge tian tang" that i will be performed on gatheirng day with Zun Zen.
hard to sing.. Lee Hom really very geng.. really cant sing it well if Zun Zen din teach me..
until now i still cant get how to use the stomach voice to perform a song..
haiz.. failed.. useless... rubbish..
haiz.. hope i can sing well on that day lol.. mayb after practise for a few days. it will become better... hopefully..

ok lol... thats all for today.. hand tired...
waiting for someone to on9.. bored now..
bye...

-emo king-
-rubbish-
-useless-
-yy-

Moody..

2009-05-09T00:12:00.000-08:00

爱上了一个不知道爱不爱自己的人。
好烦啊！！
现在的心情，仿佛刀割般的刺痛。
在心中留下深刻的烙印。
烦恼永存心中。
只会让人更伤，更痛。
失望！！！

finally i m back

2009-05-08T22:00:00.000-08:00

walao.. 4 days nvr on9.. finally.. my brother settle this problem..
internet connection spoilt in these few days..
my whole family cant use internet.. except for if we go down oldtown n use their wireless connection..
my brother went down n use two days ago.. he could on9 down thr.. so lucky..
yesterday i tried with my elder brother. Eng hong..
bt too bad.. we failed.. we could not even on9 eventhough the adapter could detect the wireless connection..
bt.. we dunno wads happening to the laptop..
we tried for 3-4 hours bt at last we failed...
i feel so disappointed.. long time din use internet..
i wanna check my mail, i wanna read Zun Zen's blog, Wai Sin's blog n oso My Blog le..
many things i wanna do by using internet.. so sad la..
long time din chat with my frens... wanna ask my fren sumthing bt too bad... the internet is nt available now...i wanna ask Zun Zen to teach me to sing that song le..
My Sifu... wakaka..
i sing badly lol.. teach me..
haiz..
sigh... yesterday i wanted to on bt cant on..
today feel abit boring n dun feel like on9 but i can on.. she is not On9-ing now..
sent a lot message to her lol.. she din reply me.. so sui..
wakaka.. she said her phone no credit ady.. mayb she slept yesterday.. or mayb...
u feel annoyed?? u dun wanna bother me anymore??
haiz... sad.. i waiting for her message til 12 midnight.. bt my phone still... not ringing..
chat with monique yesterday night via phone..
chat a bit onli lol.. the shortest call.. around 10++ mins onli..
now onli i realised... everytime i chat with monique.. i sure stomachache..
wakaka.. next time better dun chat with u lol.. later masuk hospital lagi cham..
no la.. jkjk onli..

dunno wad to post la.. bored.. dying..
find sumthing to do.. i know...
wakaka.. Viwawa..
go play chinese chess lol..
bb...

-yy-
-emo king-
-useless guy-
-rubbish-
-stupid fark-

tagged by Gaka

2009-05-08T21:41:00.000-08:00

1. Do you think you’re a freak :
Maybe.. wad do u think??

2. What will you do if somebody just past by and kiss you :
Dunno.. mayb i will punch that guy..

3. What are you eating :
nothing..

4. Would you forgive the person who treated you so badly :
sorry.. i wont.

5. Currently listening to :
Ling yi ge tian tang lol..

6. Do you love being weird :
dunno.. maybe

7. Single or available :
wad do u think.. single la of cuz..

8. Wish you could have more siblings(?) :
No.. i wont... already alot n noisy la.. wad for i need more..

9. What do you think of spammers :
No comment

10. Wish you could be skinnier(?) :
No.. thats enuf for me.. i very thin ady.. want to be taller.. nt tall enuf..

11. Look to your left what do you see :
My father watching tv!!!

12. Hate your life(?) :
Yes.. hate my life..

13. What makes you hyper :
nothing can make me hyper.. many things can make me emo..

14. The funniest word that you ever heard :
When tuition teacher speak english... H=Hash

15. Is this boring(?) :
very bored.... nonsense..

Ppl who got tagged : No one...

另一个天堂

2009-05-03T03:48:00.000-08:00

你取代
这一秒我生命的空白
问题忽然找到答案
不用解释也明白
你的微笑是一个暗号
我能解读那多美好
梦想不到
想永远停在这一秒
你为我的世界
重新彩绘
是你带我找到另一个天堂
远比想象中的美
我们怀抱里的这一个天堂
另一个梦想
有无限的快乐
相信你是我的另一个天堂
给的爱多么纯粹
因为你而存在这一个天堂
爱是直达的路线
因为你而存在这一个天堂
只想陪在你身边
我等待
下一刻再相遇的精彩
踢开每天越来越爱
逻辑就这么简单
生命转到同一个频道
因为我的幸福坐标
我多渺小
能爱着你才最重要
想把你的明天仔细翻阅
是你带我找到另一个天堂
远比想象中更美
我们怀抱里的这一个天堂
另一个梦想
有无限的快乐
相信你是我的另一个天堂
给的爱多么纯粹
因为你而存在这一个天堂
爱是直达的路线
是你带我找到另一个天堂
远比想象中更美
我们怀抱里的这一个天堂
另一个梦想
有无限的快乐
相信你是我的另一个天堂
给的爱多么纯粹
因为你而存在这一个天堂
爱是直达的路线
因为你而存在这一个天堂
只想陪在你身边

the song that i m goin to sing with Zun Zen on gathering day..
already practise for few days.. hope can sing well on that day.
haha.. not so confident. cuz i know i cant sing that well..
haiz.. Hope Buddha bless me..
wakaka..

today.. quite boring..
chat with Suet Geed for one hour through phone..
talk alot.. she told me wad happen to her these few days.
pity her jadi orang tengah!! wakaka..
bt really enjoy when chatting with her.
haha.. listening to few songs now.. addicted!! Not like that/He Said She Said/Headstrong-Ashley Tisdale.. very nice le.. wakaka.. Hans recommended..
ntg to post..

the conclusion for today..

BORED.. DYING!!!!!

WAWA that i created in Viwawa.. cute le. wakaka..

bored =.=

2009-05-02T01:16:00.000-08:00

sad day.. happy holiday everyone..bt doesnt seem like everyone is happy..
especially me.. the Emo King..
holiday is bored for me.. i m doin ntg at home.. juz playing some stupid games n singing..
well.. singing is my hobby bt i dun like to sing everyday..
n.. i dun like to sing when i feel bored..
i mean.. now..
sigh.. ntg to do le.. boring la.. no one can chat with me.. on msn since early in this morning..
bt no one is on.. too bad..
my brain is now empty.. cant think anything to post..
i m juz repeating wad i said juz now.. haiz..

hmm?? lets talk about yesterdya meeting??
ok!! yesterday was the first time i attended to 4 skul gathering meeting.
it was quite fun.. meeting at burger king.. i m the first who reached burger king yesterday.. no one inside so juz wait for theen meng outside the brger king..
he reached thr around 9.45am.
luckily... he saved me..
otherwise.. i would be like a orang gila and walk here walk there all the time..
yesterday was freaking hot..... summore i was wearing a black shirt..
i thought the meeting start at 10.00?? already 10.30 bt still haven started yet..
oo... CBN president-YUN SHI haven reached thr yet..
walao.. so big oo.. need I to wait for u.. wakaka.. juz kidding..
the meeting was really really fun for me..
i was bullying all of them when they are meeting.. especially YUN SHI.
she was like ==' after i talked a lot.. BLUR la YUN SHI.. come on.. concentrate pls..
THIS IS 4 SKUL GATHERING MEETING...
wakaka..
then after i finish bullied her.. is Zun Zen's turn..
she was discussing about the emcee thingy with Ka Jun they all..
when she asked me about wad song CBN gals goin to perform. i told her.. bt she said she dunno..
wakaka.. hold my hand up n act like wanna hit her.. wakaka... she looked scare.. wakaka.. bt of cuz i know she was nt..
the first time i saw she write chinese words.. her handwritting looked funny..
all the words were square in shape.. is freaking SQUARE.. wakaka..
she was bullied by me!!!!!
Ka Jun also blur la..
He n yuen ping are the formal emcee for that day..
looked at the script.. saw one sentence
请所有人安静的站起来以热烈的掌声欢迎我们四校的顾问老师。
wad is 安静的站起来?? gt no such thing la.. wakaka..
i changed a little bit n gv them some advises..
heyhey... i was emcee for gathering when i was form 3 lol..
wakaka.. proud of it.. dun forget my partner also lol.. Stanley Soh=KIT CHAI.. wakaka..
after an hour.. the meeting was over.. went McD to discuss about our performance with theen meng, erica n also the blur guy Ka jun..
i sing many many songs on that day wei..
i gt two performances.. i think three..
one sing together with Zun Zen.. my idol..
another one sing with theen meng n also erica..
wakaka.. hope i can sing well.. ^.^
reached thr saw Yun Shi and Yi Herng..
both of them were waiting as what we did in McD too..
wait until 12.00 ma.. cheaper.. as a clever consumer.. of cuz we have to save our money la..
we sang in McD while everybody was staring at us..
haha..bt we dun care..
Yun Shi was like ==' omg.. how come we can did that.. Sing in a public place n so many ppl were thr.. everyone was staring at us while we are singing.. wakaka..
as long as we have fun..
meeting ended around 2.30pm. all the things were settle n I went home by lrt while theen meng followed erica's car..
reached titiwangsa lrt station at 3.15pm.. waiting for bus.. tired..
slept in the bus n one Malay little kid was looking at me.. make me dun dare to sleep in the bus anymore..
haha.. after i reached home.. take bath then go to bed straight.. fall asleep within 30 seconds.. is really too tired for me.. forgot to tell u all.. i slept at 4 o clock n woke up at 7 yesterday..
whose fault..
SS la.. haiz.. wakaka..
ok la... thats all for today..
boring...

emo day.. fren emo too..

2009-04-27T06:32:00.000-08:00

喜欢一个人真的很累。
尤其是喜欢上一个不应该爱上的人。
叹气！！
也只是因为一个人。
她的一切，足以让影响你的心情。
或许真的不应该爱上她。
伤了的心，该如何让他痊愈。
默默的等待，并不是解决的方法。

haiz..
Zun Zen:
y u so emo today??
frens?? juz dun care about them..
i know u feel stress n u still care about them..
bt they did that to u..
anyway.. hope u will be happy after this..
i m mood less now oso.. dunno y.. suddenly de lool..
no wonder la.. cuz u emo oso.. make me sad nia.. wakaka..
we same bfday de le.. sedikit sebanyak sure influence each other de lol..
hope u wil be ok tomolo.. and when i chat with u.. we both oso hyper la
haiz...

Exam Week.. Unexpected!!!!

2009-04-22T04:31:00.000-08:00

this whole week is exam week..
every form five students are busy studying n preparing for their test..
n nt forget.. get tips from other classes.. including me!!
This exam really make all of us sad n tired lol..
no one prepared for it.. all burn midnight oil to study..
luckily i gt a lot frineds from other skuls..
can get tips.. wakaka..
juz finished study Add Math.. is freaking hard man... the are so many FORMULAE...
i need to memorise and understand all the formulae so that i wont get confused during exam..
haiz... tiring!!
dun think thats over.. tell u.. u r wrong..
tomolo biology paper 2.. i haven study form 5 syllabus..
lazy to study.. no mood to study.. really tired la..
sit for the exam whole day ady lol.. ok??
of cuz need to rest wad.. u think i m SUPERMAN OR WAD..
Superman not human is it?? sure tired one lol..

lets talk about yesterday..
yesterday ntg much.. still the same.. woke up at 5.30am n helped mum to do some works.
after that went to skul by car
quite boring.. n oso tired.. cuz told u ma.. gt EXAM...
then during afternoon thr are ntg special lol.. whole day juz study study study and study..
waiting for skul bell ring...!!
finally finished skul..
so wad!! cant go home oso.. stupid skul rules..
every TUESDAY n WEDNESDAY muz stay back for ur clubs and society..
otherwise u will catch by teacher n a warning letter will send to ur house soon..
wad to do.. juz stay in my brother's class lol.. ntg to do..
den stayed back for horticultural club (Taman Sains)..
to clean a place for us to build another TAMAN..
wakaka.. We will become a historical ppl in Victoria Institution soon..
very happy liao..
within half an hour.. we all kena halau by En. Salahuddin..
cuz some stupid events havig in our skul n all of us suppose to be in the hall..
bt seems like no one care about it.. except for those form 1 n 2.. cuz they all still young.. dunno anything about VI.. if they stay longer.. sure they all will do the same thing as wad we did.. n they very guai one.. wakaka.. teacher is holding the ROTAN.. wah.. I VERY SCARE A!!!
i already biasa lol.. if u want hit den hit la.. like i care onli..
i went home around 4 o clock with my brother..
in the car i was discussing sumthing with him about gathering..
about our show.. (theen meng, me, ZZ and oso Erica)
at first ntg happen.. den when i mentioned again who are goin to perform the show..
he stopped me.. n said.. SBU (Zun Zen) shuldnt involve in this performance..
cuz this is VI's performance..
actually i understand wad he think..i know.. bt i already settle everything..
the script oso i prepared.. now u tell me she cant in..
wad u expect me to do.. change the script.. ask the one i hate the most to sing with me..
i rather quit the performance.. nvm.. i dun care..
two ppl enuf lol den.. theen meng n erica sing enuf.. i plan the script.. (emo-ing)
reach home within 30 minutes++
on9 to check my mail.. ntg special.. juz some friendster n facebook messages..
waiting for ZZ to on.. n tell her wad happened that day...
really sad n emo when i talked about that thing.. HAIZ...
ok.. stop talking about that.. thats all for wads happened yesterday..

now back to today..
exam lol.. den now.. blogging lol..
din msn-ing la.. although i on la.. bt then no one chat with me.. so i oso dun want disturb them lol..
thinking about something.. shuld i join the choir team this year..
i dunno..
all of them are quitting.. i join for wad.. bt i really want to stay in that..
cuz i like to sing...
haiz.. dunno wad to do.. wad shuld i do... i dunno... AH!!! annoying...
and oso the chinese essay competition..
i really interested in that bt then igt no time to write the essay..
i gt many idea in my mind now.. bt lazy to do.. exam -ing.. need to study...
moral project have to pass up by end of this month... haiz..
now resting onli lol.. juz finished study Add Math..
biology haven studied yet.. n oso chemistry..
if we really need to sit for chemistry paper tomolo.. i think all of us sure fail..
so far i dunno who studied chemistry... even CHU SHEN din study it oso.. wakaka..
den failed TOGETHER..

to someone..
i saw u on9 now.. thats y i purposely set my status to busy..
see whether will u find me?? bt u din do that..
i know that i failed.. failed to love someone..
cuz i think she juz treat me as a fren.. haiz..

H@iZ

2009-04-20T06:29:00.000-08:00

dunno y..
today very tired n moodless..
playing chess with my frens bt i keep on losing..
wad the!!!
wad happened to me..
haiz.. now very late ady lol.. haiz..
miss her so much..
i very scare..
i scare she feel annoyed le.
i scare she avoid from me..
HAIZ..
EMO-ING

Stupid fellow.. I m the Rubbish.. I m the bastard.. i m the U$3LeS$ GuY!!

AND

THE EMO KING
emo-ing now.. sorry..