Missing u..

I dunno wad to say wad to do..
long time nvr have this feeling..
i dun think i can forget her..
or maybe i can say as i nvr forget her..
she is too important in my life..
i really felt happy wehn we was together..
i hate myself more than anyone, anything...
i should bcum stronger..
y dun i juz be a monk.. den maybe i can escape from it..
seriously.. do u think i can?
even myself cant bliv it..
i hate the time i passed together with u.
i hate it..
i make me feel sad..
my heart!!! Full of disappointment..
nothing can i do..
trying to forget u...
thats impossible.. I think??
too bad... it already past..
is a history..
过去种种便让它过去吧。。
让他成为我心中的历史把ba吧。。。。

haiz..

aiyo..
boring..
yesterday went out with my primary skul's frens..
really have a lot of fun with them..
bt too bad..
we nvr take pic together,,
all those sweet memories cant keep long...
all will pass very fast..
sad sad sad..
help me pls..
i wan go out n play...

Today..

i hate to write blog start from now..
i read back my blogs today.. most of them are stupid sad blogs...
finally i realize the reason y my life is sad n meaningless..
is depends on the person himself.. i mean myself..
every decisions i made are bad decisions..
no matter what happened.. every decisions i made can make my frens crazy..

this juz happened yesterday...
i misunderstood one thing..
i thought i lost a fren..
bt actually is not..

n long long time ago..
when i was still together wif her.
i always figured out what will happen if we seperate..
my frens asked me:" Y dont u think from another side, i mean a good one, nt a bad one.."
i answered her: "i dunno"

and now, i knew it..
because i m useless.. haha..
of cuz it is not my reason..
i think from a bad side everytime is juz to let me know how to settle the thing easier..
i can figure out a way to settle the problems before they happen..

many of my frens do not understand me..
so, nowadays i dont have a really best best fren.
sigh~~~
listening to a song..
posting this blog.
there are nothing else to let me do..
cuz my life is really boring..
i dunno how to play on9 games. i cant find out any excitement for myself..
juz hope that someone really free to chat wif me..

my primary skul frens...
i miss u all so much..
find out one day go out n play together..

finally i watched HSM 3..
i like it so much man..
it really touched me..
if my school life can be exactly same as the story..
sure i will feel happy..
if my basketball skills can be as good as Troy..
sure i can beat everyone in my skul..
if my love story will be like troy n gabriella..
i rather die.. everytime oso seperate one..
every episode sure seperate once..
haha..
my whole new idol-- Zac Efron and Vanessa anne Hudgens
i love YOU.....

dunno wad else to write..
waiting for someone call..
BYE~~~

sigh..... a long post..

come back here agion.. always with the same mood.. of cuz is a BAD mood lol..
i feel like wanna escape from this reality bt the days i past tell me that i cant..
y i said so..
is very obvious.. my MSN personal message-- i think i lost a fren..BYE>>
i dun want that happen to me..
y u so cruel to me..
is such a bad bad thing to me..
i feel sad n bad, not because of u dun reply my message or u hate me bt is i dun even know the reason y u hate me..
why why why..
i tried to ask ur fren from ur skul wad happened to u..
y u treat me so badly n talk to me so rudely..
i feel tremendously sad.. i cant say anything about u.. i dont think we can meet or chat or play together anymore instead u forgive me n tell me by yourself..
however, if u really hate me, at least u tell me the reason n i will try to change it..
haiz...

nowadays, i feel my life is so annoyed n bored..
finally i felt that.. especially this holiday..
nothing to do at home n keep helping my mum do some works..
non-stop n restless..
i dunno wad to do.. i cant make my life perfect..
i dun think it is a good thing bt think inversely, it is such a tiring life..
i felt tired n wanna rest..
i cant stay in this condition anymore bt they force me to stay..

juz read theen meng's blog..
is such a meangful blog..
die actually is not a bad thing..
n born actually is not a good thing too..
y i said so..
the reason for this... i mean it is oso for myself..
borned actually is the start if ur tiring n meaningless life..
n death is the end of it..
i agree... i never bend this text n very very agree about it..
if i could end my life.. i wont feel sad bt face it happily..

bt now, i dun think i can make it.. becuz i lost a lot of thing in my life..
like wad i said juz now.. i lost a fren..
a best fren..
n she make me feel sad..
haiz..
sigh
sigh sigh
sigh sigh sigh
everyday .....

boring.....
Useless guy...
be a useful guy...

IF U THINK U CAN, U CAN..
BE A MAN..
U CAN DO IT, U CAN DO IT...

believe in myself.. i got the power to make everything success...
hopefully..

haiz..
cant go for genting trip..
y la... stupid prefects board... suddenly set the camp on that day
i cant go ady.. sorry my fren.. enjoy la...

失去你的第二十天

不知不觉，已经第二十天了。。
伤心的心情还是无法平伏。。
看见你的照片，
让我有一股的心酸涌上心头。。
我真的无法忘记对你所有的情意。。
对不起，
不过我真的无法控制我自己的情绪。。
只能用我的‘那首歌’来表达我对你的情意。。
只希望，如果你读过这一个部落格,可以明白我所说的每一句话。。
我并没有任何暗藏意义，只是我的心情。。
想你，等你，爱你就是我唯一能做的事。。
一生一世都等你的人。。
一生一世都爱你的人。。
一生一世都想你的人。。

生命中的挫折

我的命运就是如此悲惨。。。。
生命中，经过多少风风雨雨。。
始终斗不过她的一句话。
一句话决定了我的一生，
我不服！！！！
我不想得到如此的结局。
我真的很爱她，但却斗不过她的心魔，
这件事真的让我跌进谷底无法自拔。
晴天霹雳，让我不知所措。
我很害怕，怕永远都会失去她。。
我不想。。因为我知道，我不会忘记她。
永远爱她吧！！