today... woooo(long time nvr update..)

today met all my senior in my skul DEWAN WARISAN KEBANGSAAN..(sound proud)
do u think i feel that.. i dun even care about it wei..
okay. back to today topic.. met them in my skul hall..
very happy cuz they came back so that i can see all my dearest family members/friends/partners' faces...
so fortunate cuz i can meet most of them.
they din change much.. onli the chocolate change a bit.. (not the height..)
haiz..
they came back to skul juz to get their results.. STPM..
my brother n his friends also waiting their friends thr..
wou.. so FEW ppl in the hall when i step into the hall..
dunno y i feel like skul is like nvr concern about FORM SIX student.. is juz a simple giving certificate ceremony..
after they got their results.. some of them felt disappointed n some of them feel happy..
LOONG HUI congrates.. bt almost get 4 flat...
so cham... wakaka.. bt still not bad lol.. for me i cant get it oso..
so..
afterwards they said they wanna go Time Square n eat McDonald..
too bad..
i cant go together with them cuz i got V.I.C.L.U (Victoria Institution Chinese Language Union..)
WALAO.. UNION.. we dun use society cuz we r special...
wakaka...PERASAN sial...
got practise... practise for 28 of march.. the gathering..
juz met a while onli den they go home.. so sui..
luckily they will attend to my camp.. we can meet them again this SATURDAY..

about this camp..
they are FREAKING many ppls join.. about 260++ ppl
dunno whether they all will put aeroplane or nt??
hopefully not..
bt there are also many trouble that i need to settle lol..
haiz...
no one can help..
anyway.. finally they achieve their goals.. n i wish myself the camp will go well..

n lastly..
thx to everyone who coming to my camp..
love u all ya.. especially my senior n once again my SP frens...
wakaka...

没有如果

如果我说 爱我没有如果
错过就过 你是不是会难过
若如果拿来当借口
那是不是有一点弱

如果我说 爱我没有如果
真的爱我 就放手一搏
还想什么 还怕什么
快牵起我的手

有人说
世界上最遥远的距离不是生与死
而是我就站在你面前 你却不知道我爱你
我常说
如果人类连爱一个人都被自己绑住
那世界末日已来到
不需要等到地球毁灭掉的那天

如果我说 爱我没有如果
错过就过 你是不是会难过
若如果拿来当借口
那是不是有一点弱

如果我说 爱我没有如果
真的爱我 就放手一搏
还想什么 还怕什么
快牵起我的手

如果 如果 如果 如果 如果
最后变成如果 我也不能接受
错过 错过 错过 错过 错过
我比你更难过 不会一错再错
嗯 这次不要再轻易错过

我常说
如果人类连爱一个人都被自己绑住
那世界末日已来到
不需要等到地球毁灭掉的那天

别怕太快乐(别怕太快乐)
别怕失去我~~

如果我说 爱我没有如果
错过就过 你是不是会难过
若如果拿来当借口
那是不是有一点弱

如果我说 爱我没有如果
真的爱我 就放手一搏
还想什么 还怕什么
快牵起我的手

如果我说 爱我没有如果
错过就过 你是不是会难过
若如果拿来当借口
那是不是有一点弱

如果我说 爱我没有如果
真的爱我 就放手一搏
还想什么 还怕什么
快牵起我的手

如果我说 爱我没有如果
错过就过 你是不是会难过
若如果拿来当借口
那是不是有一点弱

如果我说 爱我没有如果
真的爱我 就放手一搏
还想什么 还怕什么
快牵起我的手

如果我说 爱我没有如果
错过就过 你是不是会难过
若如果拿来当借口
那是不是有一点弱

如果我说 爱我没有如果
真的爱我 就放手一搏
还想什么 还怕什么
快牵起我的手

我的话：
如果在这世界上。真的没有如果
世界会不会比较真。
或是和现在一样。
人类都需要戴着假面具。
宁可作为墙头草，两头蛇。
牺牲别人，牺牲自己。
为自己利益而生存。
却不是为生存而生存。。

如果在这世界上。真的没有如果
世界上所有的爱情会不会比较真。
或是像现实一样。
贪新厌旧。
一脚踏两船。
为自己的快乐。却令别人伤心。

希望世界永远快乐。
2009年快乐。。

cham...

next wednesday having add maths test..
according to my teacher.. she said that those who get less than 40 points will drop add math automatically..
haiz.. sad nia.. need study again.. form 4 syllabus...
haiz....

Missing u..

I dunno wad to say wad to do..
long time nvr have this feeling..
i dun think i can forget her..
or maybe i can say as i nvr forget her..
she is too important in my life..
i really felt happy wehn we was together..
i hate myself more than anyone, anything...
i should bcum stronger..
y dun i juz be a monk.. den maybe i can escape from it..
seriously.. do u think i can?
even myself cant bliv it..
i hate the time i passed together with u.
i hate it..
i make me feel sad..
my heart!!! Full of disappointment..
nothing can i do..
trying to forget u...
thats impossible.. I think??
too bad... it already past..
is a history..
过去种种便让它过去吧。。
让他成为我心中的历史把ba吧。。。。

haiz..

aiyo..
boring..
yesterday went out with my primary skul's frens..
really have a lot of fun with them..
bt too bad..
we nvr take pic together,,
all those sweet memories cant keep long...
all will pass very fast..
sad sad sad..
help me pls..
i wan go out n play...

Today..

i hate to write blog start from now..
i read back my blogs today.. most of them are stupid sad blogs...
finally i realize the reason y my life is sad n meaningless..
is depends on the person himself.. i mean myself..
every decisions i made are bad decisions..
no matter what happened.. every decisions i made can make my frens crazy..

this juz happened yesterday...
i misunderstood one thing..
i thought i lost a fren..
bt actually is not..

n long long time ago..
when i was still together wif her.
i always figured out what will happen if we seperate..
my frens asked me:" Y dont u think from another side, i mean a good one, nt a bad one.."
i answered her: "i dunno"

and now, i knew it..
because i m useless.. haha..
of cuz it is not my reason..
i think from a bad side everytime is juz to let me know how to settle the thing easier..
i can figure out a way to settle the problems before they happen..

many of my frens do not understand me..
so, nowadays i dont have a really best best fren.
sigh~~~
listening to a song..
posting this blog.
there are nothing else to let me do..
cuz my life is really boring..
i dunno how to play on9 games. i cant find out any excitement for myself..
juz hope that someone really free to chat wif me..

my primary skul frens...
i miss u all so much..
find out one day go out n play together..

finally i watched HSM 3..
i like it so much man..
it really touched me..
if my school life can be exactly same as the story..
sure i will feel happy..
if my basketball skills can be as good as Troy..
sure i can beat everyone in my skul..
if my love story will be like troy n gabriella..
i rather die.. everytime oso seperate one..
every episode sure seperate once..
haha..
my whole new idol-- Zac Efron and Vanessa anne Hudgens
i love YOU.....

dunno wad else to write..
waiting for someone call..
BYE~~~

sigh..... a long post..

come back here agion.. always with the same mood.. of cuz is a BAD mood lol..
i feel like wanna escape from this reality bt the days i past tell me that i cant..
y i said so..
is very obvious.. my MSN personal message-- i think i lost a fren..BYE>>
i dun want that happen to me..
y u so cruel to me..
is such a bad bad thing to me..
i feel sad n bad, not because of u dun reply my message or u hate me bt is i dun even know the reason y u hate me..
why why why..
i tried to ask ur fren from ur skul wad happened to u..
y u treat me so badly n talk to me so rudely..
i feel tremendously sad.. i cant say anything about u.. i dont think we can meet or chat or play together anymore instead u forgive me n tell me by yourself..
however, if u really hate me, at least u tell me the reason n i will try to change it..
haiz...

nowadays, i feel my life is so annoyed n bored..
finally i felt that.. especially this holiday..
nothing to do at home n keep helping my mum do some works..
non-stop n restless..
i dunno wad to do.. i cant make my life perfect..
i dun think it is a good thing bt think inversely, it is such a tiring life..
i felt tired n wanna rest..
i cant stay in this condition anymore bt they force me to stay..

juz read theen meng's blog..
is such a meangful blog..
die actually is not a bad thing..
n born actually is not a good thing too..
y i said so..
the reason for this... i mean it is oso for myself..
borned actually is the start if ur tiring n meaningless life..
n death is the end of it..
i agree... i never bend this text n very very agree about it..
if i could end my life.. i wont feel sad bt face it happily..

bt now, i dun think i can make it.. becuz i lost a lot of thing in my life..
like wad i said juz now.. i lost a fren..
a best fren..
n she make me feel sad..
haiz..
sigh
sigh sigh
sigh sigh sigh
everyday .....

boring.....
Useless guy...
be a useful guy...

IF U THINK U CAN, U CAN..
BE A MAN..
U CAN DO IT, U CAN DO IT...

believe in myself.. i got the power to make everything success...
hopefully..