is nt under my control.

i hope u can understand me..
when i know i make u stress n sad..
i feel so disappointed..
i keep thinking of..

y m iso stupid..
keep forcing u to tell me this tell me that..

y u r still confused about that.

r u really love me?

or.. all of these are juz a dream..
i cant stop thinking of that..
i really love u.. i had gv up on that n choose to be with u
cuz i really love u..

is nt ur fault in this case..
do u understand. i m the one who made the final decision in this case..
y u keep thinking that u r the one who break us up..
u r nt..
the whole thing is about me..
is about all the things that i had done to u n her..

is nt that i want to avoid..
i wont avoid to chat with u if i really love u..
i juz wanna leave u for few days.. to let u stop thinking of that.
i dun want to see u stress...
i dun want any bad things happen on us..
i dun want u to leave me..
i dun want..
i dun want to cry bt i cant control myself..

i plan to study for my exam bt cant...
cuz i keep thinking of that..
i cant memorise anything at all..
i feel so stress too..

i know..
is nt that u dun like me.
i know.. i understand.
bt..
i juz cant accept it when u care about ur ex's feeling..
mayb u juz treat him as a fren..
juz that i really think too much about it..
n all the things i was thinking are bad things..

i really dun want to make u sad..
dun want to make u stress..

wad i wanna say is..
is nt ur fault..
n i really love u..
nt i want to avoid u..
i juz want to gv u more time to think of that properly.

sorry.. this is wad i really dun want it to happen..
cuz

I LOVE YOU..

bye..

-emo king- is back...

today!!~~

刚从小学回来，出席了一场SPM华文试卷作答技巧讲座。
很久没回去小学看看，所以今天趁机在午休时间去找老师叙旧。
原以为只有cheong hong出席，没想到会看到更多的小学朋友。
凯欣、弘凯、李伟杰、陈翠雯和林佩弘。
还有一个，范永裕。
凯欣看到他时还露出惊吓的表情，有够好笑。
但是去找老师叙旧的只有我、cheong hong、弘凯、凯欣和佩弘。
走进办公室，跟一些老师聊了一下。
终于看到了李老师了。
我们就跟她聊了一阵子，并给了她6M部落格的网址。
所以，朋友们，
如果你的部落格有什么见不得光的，
快快删除！
哈哈哈哈！开玩笑！

really happy today.. the blog above is type by my fren.. i juz copy n paste it in my blog since i m so lazy n tired..
juz reached home from my skul.. straight after the seminar i was rushing to tuition cuz the day after i m nt free at all..
my CLU is having an activity this saturday..
so, all my frens.. come n support me.. i m the emcee for that day..
if u wanna see how i control the whole situation... juz come n check it out.. wakaka..
it is onli costs RM3 for each person..
bt students muz wear uniform with skul identities...
thx~

ok.. back to today..
met some of my primary skul frens today becuz i had attended a seminar which is really useful for me..
my skul.. THE CLUSTER SKUL.. VIctoria Institution do not have teacher for teaching Form 5's chinese.. so.. i m happy when i attended this chinese seminar..
this is the first time i learn n read about chinese THIS YEAR... is true~~
omg~ if i din attend to this seminar.. i wonder wad will happen when i m taking my trial... for chinese...
haiz.. sit inside for 9 hours... the longest seminar in the world..
haha... oh gosh..
den we plan to find Miss lee together since we all nvr visit her n other teachers for around two years..
haha... chat alot today with them n oso Miss lee..
bt too bad.. i had forgotten to take pic wif them.. especially miss lee.. haiz.. disappointed..
after the seminar.. i was rushing to tuition..
suddenly evonne tell me that she nt goin today..
she keep saying sorry to me.. its ok!!! lol... make sure dun ffk next time den ok liao.. haha

after tuition.. rushed to my skul again..
for Chinese society..
haiz.. tired.. n summore hot!~ sweaty lol.. summore i was wearing long sleeve..
went home at 6 sumthing..
bt heavy rain started.. n it was so terrible.. my brother was drving n we cant see anything infront...
scare crash again..
luckily.. reach home safely..
ok la..
lazy to write..
ntg to write ady.. i think is long enuf la..
gtg
bb

-emo king-
-eng leong-
-useless-
-yiong yiong-
-yy-

emo life~ change my life.

my life is like that.
no laughters, onli sadness.
maybe i juz did a correct deicsion.
forget about it.
think about future.
concentrate on my study.
SPM is really important for me.
let it fade away.
it might change my life n my study aattitude.

hope i can make myself feel better.
is really a big birthday present for me..
FORGET IT.. FORGET HER.
START A NEW LIFE.
FROM NOW ON.
U ARE NOT EMO KING ANYMORE..

the whole new tan eng leong...
STUDY HARD>>>>>>>>>> MY FUTURE!!!

these few days. wad happen??

hmm.. first of all..
i dunno wad to blog about bt my mind keep on remind me to blog today.
dunno y..
using my brother laptop now.
have to finish the blog faster as he will come back ome soon..
a bit scare.. later he scold. n dun let me use anymore.
hmm.
ok.. lets talk about last saturday..
is kinda hyper n crazy day among these three days that i had passed..
we went seayang darul ehsan gathering.. about 37 ppl from Victoria institution chinese language union goin because of my brother's order.
all the ajk are compulsory to attend the gathering because selayang is one of the 9 skul..
i think~~
HEHE.. wake up at 5 on that day n helped my mum to work..
around 7 o clock. my brother n i left my mum n went to titiwangsa lrt station to meet others..
erica and some of the lower sixes reached earlier than us..
soli erica.. bt this is not our fault. we din late.. juz that u all reached thr earlier.. haha..
huh!!! who is the latest king for that day?? haha.. is MR loh chee wei.. he reached there about 8.00 bt we supposed to be there at 7.30am.. haiz.. better to change lol.. haha..
had a lot fun when we gathered at lrt station..
we were like a crowd of tanuung rambutan's patients keep shouting n singing at the entrance of titiwangsa lrt station..
n we stopped when the guard come n warned us.. wakaka..
den we went titiwangsa bus stop to continue our crapped..
reached thr within 2 minutes cuz the bus stop is juz right opposite the lrt station..
selayang darul ehsan usher were thr to bring us to their skul..
we got into the bus n find place to sit down..
VI ppl all sitting at the back n start singing child's songs.. many song that we had sang... is kind a hyper man!! one thing that i really dun believe= my brother play this together with them. how crzy are they!!!
finally they stop when they felt tired.. haha...
sam said: they really like kids, feel tired then straight away diam n wanna sleep. haha..

reached thr within 20 minutes..
hmmm.. dunno wad to do thr n saw kien yoong with his juniors. bt i onli know pui jin. one of his juniors.. chatted with him for a while n gathered back with VI gang..
we went into the hall n started SS lol.. took out the camera n ook pic here took pic thr..
the hall is full with blue shirt ppl..

finally the gathering start.. dunno wad to say.. the starting part is bored lol..
bt the performance is stil ok.. at least their perfomrance can make us get high...
hmm.. there are too many sketch that make us a bit bored.. the dancing peformance is the best one... love it so much!!

overall i give 7 out of 10 points.. hmm. A2 la. wakaka..

ok.. sunday.
this is really a bored day..
i dunno wad to do for the whole day..
juz facing the computer for the whole day..
facebook-ing
msn-ing
listening to music.
i think thats all lol..
den at night. went out to dinner with my aunt..
eat bak kut teh.
hmm..
according to my aunt.. they said this bak kut teh is nice n ask us to try oso..
bt is really disappoint the whole family..
is not really nice n i dun really like the taste of the soup..
is a bit sour.. mayb the ingredients they used to cook the soup.. bt, i dun like..
is about RM 250 ringgit for the whole dinner..
walao.. expensive.. i juz eat a bit onli lol..
go back find sumthing to eat again..
haha.. luckily still got SIEW BAO..
wakaka.
den on9 til 12.00 sumthing lol..
watched 17 again again~~~
think of her when i think of this movie..
mayb because this is the first time we watch movie together
n we sit so near n eat popcorn together..
is kind a sweet memory for me.. i think!! haha..

hmm.. dun wanna talk about today...
thats all for today..
bb gtg

-emo king-
-yy-
-useless-
-yiong yiong-
-eng leong-

ZZZzzzZZ.. duno wad to write..

really bored.. until i cant think anything to blog.. bt i cant juz left it blank for few weeks..
and my frens keep asking me y i din blog for so many days..
hehe.. same reason.. BO MOOD..
n dunnno wad to write.. cuz ntg special happen...

found a primary skul fren contact few days ago..
i dunno who is that when cheong hong told me her english name..
den after he gave me her email.. i go n check who is she through friendster..
onli i realised..
sorry evonne..

haha..
went maxwell last aturday n sunday..
chinese chess competition..
with lower six frens..
the first day is kinda hyper day cuz i won for 4 matches in a row.. nvr lose...
first time.. very excited n hyper..
mayb with her wishes... thx..

second day.
hmm.. a bit disappointed cuz the first day we cant get much points..
so is kind a hard to pull our ranking up to top 5..
for the second day.. i won 2 matches out of 3... feel sad lol..
the puchong perdana guy gv me an EGG....
if nt i can get straight wins for 7 matches..
overall still ok..
i m satisfy with it.. bt still feel abit disappointed..
shuld can get third place actually..

nvm.. its already passed..
n thx for wai kian, hoi lai, chee wei and oso kah hoe..
my best teammates..
n really had fun those two days...

thats all...
bb

-emo king-
-useless-
-yy-
-yiong yiong-
-eng leong-

the day i will nvr forget

today..
kinda scary day because i joined a singing competition..
and the competition is on saturday which means today..
woke up at 5 o clock.. as usual helped my mum to work... den onli i sent to titiwangsa lrt station..
reached thr on time.. juz perfect.. no late. no earlier..
waiting for khai hsuen, alvin n sam.. they were late..
feel lonely thr.. since SBU ady had a gang thr.. i dun feel like interupt them..
n i do not even dare to talk to her.. cuz. that kind of feeling is still in my mind..
n make me annoyed n emo for the whole morning..
finally, sam n alvin reached bus stop..
n i started to feel better.. mayb becuz they chat with me... that made me forget about wad i m thinking..
good job.. at least.. i m a bit hyper in the morning.. although it was juz a short moment..
the bus had came... n we all went up to the bus.. bt i feel a bit guilty cuz i din wait for khai hsuen..
bt luckily.. at last he reached thr safely.. den i feel better too..
Alvin is like my partner onli.. keep holding his guitar all the way in that skul..
for those who dunno sure thought he is the participant bt nt me.. wakaka..
everyone is laughing at his action.. with the guitar?? haha..
finally the comp started. feel a bit excited.. cuz i was waiting for sumone who can sing well...
bt i m too disappointed.. duet were out of my expected.. n there are no much ppl could sing well in that competition.. the PA system summore spoilt becuz of the first pair of contestants..
one of them put too near to the mic with his mouth..
n this affect the second third n fourth pair of duet..
then the skul finally replace the PA system with a new speaker..
the SBS team really sing very well.. they really good among all..
SBU oso very well.. ZZ n pei wern actually gt chance to get first place..
mayb they are too tension.. so.. a bit out of pitch lol. bt still congratz cuz u both gt second place..

individu is totally different with duet..
individu is so much better than the duet n make me freaking scare n tension.. i m number 16..
there are 30 participants..
the first participant sing okok.. from the second one.. all oso counted as pro.. they song very well..
n i m scared too. i keep thinking i sure lose.. sure LOSE.. the word LOSE is in my mind by all the time.. haha..
finally my turn..
i m freaking scare bt when i go up to the stage..
i close my eyes without looking at the judgers n the audience.. so i feel better...
of cuz i sing with my eyes open... wakaka..
den zun zen turn.. she sing very well oso.. like her voice.. cuz is very soft..
den pei wern turn.. she oso sing vey well.. n the song she choose is very nice..
i like her song...
so conclusion for all participants.. THEY ARE GENG!!!

results finally coming out.. n the results for duet is
third: selayang skul..
second: SBU (zun zen and pei wern)
first: SBS (i really admire the guy.. he sing very well)

n for individual
third: taman connaught (i like her voice oso.. she sing very well.. i thought she is the one who get first)
second: SBS (that guy again)
first: Victoria instituion (thats ME!! unbelievable.. i m shocked when i know the result..)

anyway.. thx for those who come n support me..
Yeong han, sam, alvin, khai hsuen..

n oso congratz to zun zen n pei wern... n there some photo sessions.. i juz took one phot.. and thats it!!!

pei wern, emo king, zun zen.....

after the comp we planned to go ts to play bowling actually..
got thr by monorail.. reached thr within 10 minutes..
reach super bowl.. bt too bad.. there was full...WTF
hate it..
then we plan to go arkib to play basketball..
we saw a guy that very good.. terrible.. he can shoot for 400++ points.. wad the F!!! THE MAN..
den we go to skul to see the decoration for CAMPFIRE today.. i m nt goin becuz i m too tired..
den go home together with my brother lol..

love is like a war..easy to start, hard to stop, impossible to forget..
i agree!!

thats all for today.. cant think liao..
gtg
bb

-emo king-
-yy-
-useless-
-yiong yiong-
-eng leong-

a wound that will never recover

today.. quite a hyper day cuz i laugh a lot at skul..
wad so funny... because of my stupid idea..
all dirty stuff come out from my mind.. edit the lyrics of these songs n make all my fren laugh..
n i, laugh until i cried.. n my eye pain. (haven found out y.. once i laugh my eye will pain).
nothing much today.. still the same.. as usual.. study n do homework in class...
juz waiting for the last period..
its Piano lesson.. Chee keong is my teacher..
go practise river flows in you for a while cuz yesterday said wanna play for her..
dun want to spoilt her favourite music.. haha..
den skul finish.. i was so excited n rush to the lrt station cuz i know i will meet her soon..
reach pandan jaya at 3pm n walk to SBU.. spent 2 minutes to walk thr..
n then call pei wern to bring me to that place..
cuz i dunno how to go thr.. til now i m still a bit blur.. still nt very sure how to walk to that place..
SBU building is really like a MAZE..
i might trap in that building cuz thr are really many corridors n class that look exactly same.
reached there leading by pei wern n then start practise our songs..
first, zun zen n pei wern duet..
second, emo king single
third, pei wern single
fourth, zun zen single
fifth, pei wern single again.... haha. she got soar throat today.. TAKE CARE YA..

mayb because of that thing.
i went thr with a very happy n hyper mood..
but back with a very moody n emo face..
mayb that feeling comes back to me again?? HATE IT!!
stay away from me..

finally i had met her today..
bt, so what..
it doesnt mean anything..
feel strange to each other.
dun feel like chat with her face to face..
i dunno y?? juz dun dare..
cuz i really dunno wad she is thinking.
she really forget about it? or? time do not allow us to stay longer??

chat with pei wern after zun zen went home by her mum's car..
juz dunno how to spend my time..
chat with pei wern while she is waiting for her parents to fetch her..
about one hour we all chat.. chat alot things.. about academic, my story, n oso her story..
bt nt much la.. cuz.. i m emo at that moment.. no mood to ask n answer any questions..
her bf came n fetch her today.. den i went home too...

is really hurt me so much when i think of that,
there is a wound in my heart now,
that will never recover,
hate this kind of feeling..
EMO KING IS FINALLY BACK~~~