Music is a part of my life..

wad is music??
is it important for everone in the world?? I DUNNO..
haha..
the onli thing that i m sure is.. for me.. MUSIC IS A PART OF MY LIFE..
i love music..
when reading, sleeping. driving, travelling, doing homework, studying..

these days, i asked my fren to teach me piano.
since my mum dun let me to go some music centres to learn..
so i m forced to ask my fren to lend a hand.. haha..
thx chee keong for teaching me how to read the notes..
now at least i learn a bit about the basic..
the first song i know how to play is HAPPY BIRTHDAY.. learn together with Mooi..
the next song i wanna learn..
RIVER FLOWS IN YOU...
i know she likes this song so much..
learn this juz becuz of her..
hope i can learn it as soon as possible..
so that i can play for her.. hehe..
this is my next target besides academic..

yesterday was open day.. bt too bad i m nt goin for that..
i went Maxwell to get my brother's report card..
my mum is nt free on that day.. so she cant help me to get mine..
i dunno about my position in class..
bt whole form i got 28th.. haiz.. wad a bad result..
from 7(last year) drop to 28... sad!!
i muz get into top ten in the next exam, and oso trial..
WAITING FOR YOU...

SPM.. 11 A1..
My main target...
STUDY HARD, STUDY SMART...
Be Confident..

Sporty day~~

kinda hyper day today..
woke up earlier today n read the message that sent me by Zun Zen yesterday.
bt sorry for din reply cuz i slept ady the moment u sent me the message..
as usual, woke up at 5 am to help my mum to do some works..
went to skul at 6.45am. reached skul at 7.00 am
mayb i was too tired yesterday n laugh alot after the SOTSOT zun zen sent me the 'cute bear'(for zz) or 'blur bear'(for me)..
haha.. it doesnt move n i was starring at the multimedia meesage for few minutes..
n i replayed it several times bt still... THE BEAR IS STARRING AT ME...
it doesnt move at all.. laugh until my stomach pain..
back to today story..
mayb i was too tiring today so i slept in my class oso.. i cant even open my eyes..
is like a force keep closing my eyes..
den lines started.. n i was forced to go for the STUPID lines..
YUCKS.. waste my time onli..
after lines.. class started oso.. today is freaking free until i can play cards n chess in the class for the whole day..
this is one of the reason y i hate this skul.. cuz there are always no teacher in the class n we cannot learn anything in the skul..
suddenly.. when i stood up.. my phone vibrated.. i wonder who will sms me in the early morning..
i thought it was juz a meesage that sent by DIGI centre..
bt i was wrong.. it was ZUN ZEN.. shock me.. suddenly onli..
haha.. she having open days today bt she feel bored??
i wanted to chat with her bt she dun let cuz she knew my relief tacher was in the class..
ok lol den...

to my dearest ZZ:
suan lol.. dun want to chat with me.. sad liao. EMO~~ haha..

den stop for a while i was doin add maths paper work..
the hand out that given by the relief tacher... SEMANGAT Betul..
we did for few questions den we stop.. CUZ teacher left.. haha..
den we continue our 'HEART' (a kind of poker games. exist in ur pc) time.
hehe..

during recess time,
today really quiet.. the canteen quite until can hear the sound when a needle drop on the floor..
it was freaking quiet..
there is onli 10++ students at the canteen..
WTF.. n i can buy my food very fast since i dun need to queue.. haha..
bt i wanna make it clear here..
i din cut queue.. nobody thr so i can buy food in a very short time..
i m a good boy ok??
den went back to my class n had my breakfast thr..
continue my HEART journey..
after recess.. thr was a lines again.. HATE IT..
Fly to library n wait until the line finish..
then walked back to class with Chu Shen..
Oh no.. english period.. wad a boring subject..
luckily she din teach today cuz we have to arrange the table n chair for tomolo..
tomolo is our open days.. bt too bad.. i m nt goin.. cuz my parents is nt free..
is nt a bad thing.. i got bad results.. i dun want to get my results..
drop from top 10 to 19.. sad.. i admit i really din do well in the last exam..
STUDY HARD.. i muz stuck myself into top 10 in the next exam n oso TRIAL..
few months to go..

after skul...
attended to CLU meeting..
the first meeting with all the members who already pass the interview..
i was acting a vase during the meeting.. my brother is the onli one who talked in the meeting..
haha.. everyone was quiet n listen to wad he say..
n i, the second job for me.. CAMERAMAN.. i was helping him to take photo during the meeting..
n finally i reaslise.. i m nt a VASE.. haha..

after the meeting.. went to basketball court n played with erica for a while..
my shooting is bad n my shooting under the ring is nt as good as last time..
muz train more.. mayb becuz of nt playing for three months...
den went back to form six block n play badminton with my brother n lower sixes..
all of us are crazy during this moments..
is the first time i played with CLU AJK in this year..
nvr have this feeling b4..
haha..
good!!!!

after games.
all of us went NAI NAI(Pudu) to have our lunch..
13 ppl went thr.. i followed my brother car to go..
after finished den all of us went home..
n now i m really tired..
so gtg..
is it counted as a HAPPY post?? zz??
haha..
bb lol..
blog next time..(bt dunno when)

-emo king-
-yy-
-useless-
-yiong yiong-

i realise that i nvr put my real name b4 everytime i post a blog..
n lastly
-eng leong-

Sorry all my frens

i m hurted..
all my fren leave me..
jz because i love her..
i nvr leave u all behind..
juz that i dun want u all to ask me about that anymore..
i m stress..
even i myself dunno wad to do oso...
sorry if i hurted u all.. u all r my frens..
forever ever..
n never leave u all behind.. sorry...

Cheong hong. GOod Luck in ur competition..
and SORRY

Gaka.. sorRy.. mayb i really make u angry..
forgive me pls..

SORRY EVERYONE... pls forgive wad i have done...
i really stress n sad..
juz gv me some time.. THX

wad a sad day..

i m actually now waiting for someone to on..
bt that person din on... so bad..
i m sick.. i wanna chat with the person so that i cant currently forget about my health status..
i cant sleep now.. i know once i sleep.. i wont know whether the person is on9 or off9 later..

now i m really tired.. bt dun ask me to rest.. i dun want..
juz feel a bit suffer because of FLU...
hope is nt H1N1.. as i know, it is nt that easy to get H1N1 too..

finally.. i got the song that i want to use for that competition..
feel a bit excited.. feel free now.. cuz i dun need to worry about it anymore.,
bt i feel like damn free until bored now..
can find sumthing for me to do??
nothing to do..!!!!! OMG...
as u all know i sick... so i cant practise songs, i cant concentrate on study today.. n i dun want to sit in front of the TV n watch shows... i wanna chat with that person.. LOL.. pls..

haiz.. sad la.. mayb the person went tuition today so the person cant on9 today..
haiz.. emo-ing..
wad a sux day...
gtg
bb

-emo king-
-useless-
-yy-
-yiong yiong-

haha.. wao.. sri petaling day.

yesterday.. went out to sri petaling with my best best best VICLU 07/08 committee..
we planned to go many places.. to chit chat.. to talk about our happy moments and lastly to meet those who going to redang soon.
haha.... very happy for the whole day because i had release out all my stress?? mayb..
firstly, we all went to McD to have our lunch since all of us were hungry.. especially Kar Mun.. she is complaining about y we went down to the McD floor so late..
made her wait for us wait for us n she is really hungry.. I think!!
haha... we all were bullying Sam cuz he is the youngest among all of us..
we juz want him to buy food for us.. bt we failed.. cuz our Miss President: Lee Xin Li... knew it n scold us.. wakaka..
we FAILED..
n lastly.. i m the one who go n buy for them. so cham.. kena bully pulak..
bt at least.. all my frens- Sam, Alvin, Theen Meng and Khai Hsuen follow me to the counter thr too..
cuz one ppl cant carry so many set of MC Chicken lol...
summore khai hsuen want ice cream.. how i hold for him..
actually at first when i saw toong piew i feel a bit weird.. we like din know each other n feel so strange.. haiz.. a bit sad lol..
actualy i predict it ady one.. who wont feel that if u fall in love with a same gal.. i think u will hate him lol.. bt of cuz i wont.. cuz i know we r still HENG DAI..
he came to the counter n ask sumone to accmpany im to the toilet.. bt too bad. all of us dun want go.. he is asking alvin to go.. ofcuz.. as a zat ppl KING. i surely will zat him lol..
wad is said to piew is: u ask alvin o with u oso useless, SHE goin women toilet bt going men toilet.. then everyone laughing.. and as usual. alvin kick me n hit my body..
NOT PAIN AT ALL.. haha..
after we ad ur lunch.. we went out n check for the schedule of the Karaoke...
the karaoke name is called as 'E-Box'. nvr hear b4..
bt very cheap. i like the price.. n summore can sing for so long..
wait until 3.oo o clock. we went into the k room n sing k lol..
i sang many many songs that day.. bt too bad.. all emo n sad songs...
thx ah piew.. no one praise me like that b4.. i sing very well n full of mood.. (This is wad ah piew told me)
haha.. sing until my throat pain n the place is cold.. made everyone feel cold thr.. they took our shirt as thier JACKET.. so bad la u all..
after 3 hours, we went out from the k room..
n all the gals n alvin n also theen meng said they wanna go back.. OMG.. so early.
luckily, nicholas n wai xiang reached at that moment.. two more ppl come n play with us..
we went n play bowling thr.. at first we were actually plan to go and play bowling bt there was a competition, so we cant play..
luckily the second time we go the competition ended on time.. so we can..
after 10 times of throwing the bowling out to the lane.. the results came out..
i m the last with the points- 100.. ngam ngam..
so cham.. cuz i missed my last ball.. thats y i lost.. AH!!!
as long as we ad fun thr.. after that we went STATION KOPITIAM to have our dinner.
everyone was looking for some cheap food to eat cuz we spend all our money b4 that.. WE ARE POOR..
we crapped a lot in the station kopitiam..about SEX.. wakaka.. no la.. is juz about BIOLOGY... we r juz joking by using that topic..
i talked freaking loud n made others look at us.. i DUN CARE.. i m a SCIENCE student.. is normal for me..
haha.. den we went toong piew house to chat..
we talked about our own secret in his grandma room..
everyone dun dare to say it out.. WE ARE FREN.. we muz share it lol..
toong piew is the first one who share his love story with us..
he really geng.. 3 hours os cant finish his love story.. we all saturated u lol.. wakaka..
n then khai hsuen is the second one.. he feel very sad lo... n we all r trying to comfort him...
i m third one.. walao. i almost cry.. luckily i din..
we chat from 7 pm til 5 am.. geng le....
then onli we sleep... we wake up at 10 o clock n chat again.. until 12.00 onli we go a mamak restaurant to have our BREAKFAST.. wakaka..we chat agin thr until 2o clock then we went home.. AH piew... u lied to us.. sri petaling station is futher than bukit jalil station...
bt it is safer.... dun forget our next dating oo.. go out n play badminton together.. haha...
Really thx a lot to all my frens..
u all comfort me n try to help me to reduce my stress in that kind of thing..
we really had a lot of fun that day..
miss u all so much...
ok..
gtg.
bb..

-emo ing-
-useless-
-yy-
-yiong yiong-

happy post?? yea.. i m happy when i m thinking of this..

I feel happy.. wakaka
Like a kangaroo jumping around the jungle
Oooo.. cuz she ask me to post sumthing happy be4 she go to Singapore..
v made many many promises today.
erm, promised her.. i will fulfill wad i have told her today..
Zzzzz. a bit bored actually..
u r the onli one i love
no one can replace u.
Zzz.. hope that u wont sscold me after u read this..
Emo king is happy when he think of this.
no matter wad happen.. he will always be with u..

i feel happy when i think of this..
really..

STUPID!!!!

i m stupid again..
i really regret for wad i had done
for wad i had told her..
i thought that frenz should frank to each other, especially to the one u love..
bt actually is nt.. i was wrong..
totally wrong... is this call stupid mind???
wad the hell.. the theory that i always believe was wrong..

she is down, sad n moody now..
but i cant do anything for her..
all my frens are now feel very annoyed..
i feel like alienated by them..
i feel lonely..
i m the Mr. lonely...

i hate wad i had done..
i hate the decision that i made..
i hate myself.. i hate to be a human..
i hate myself to have feeling..

i cant stop myself to care about u..
u shuld understand.. eventhough i know my chance is low.. freaking low.. or mayb NO Chance at all..
bt, i still love u..
wad i can do now is protect u n try to make u hyper all the time..
bt seems like u dun blive me..
seems like u r avoiding from me..
i feel sad..
really hurt..
i m HURTED.. u know.. T_T

hate myself to fall in love with u..
make u sad.
make u moody all the time.
make u annoyed.
make u suffer.
make u stress.

is not my fault??
NONO.. is all MY fault..