an early post!

woke up at 5.41..
dunno y juz woke up automatically den sms her..
to wish her good luck.. this reminds me of wad she did to me when i joined danau kota singing comp..
she wished me good luck in the morning although she was sick...
i felt damn sweet. haha.
dunno is it i think too much. i waited from 5.41am til 7.00am..
bt still. my phone din ring.
i thought she angry with me.
finally i cant stand for that n call her.. she told me she is nt angry.
thx god.! i really scare she get angry becuz of me..
i rather she scold me, punch me, hit me bt dun ignore me..

i thought i changed myself.. bt actually i m nt.. i juz need more time to make it a success.
will you wait for me?
can i have more time to achieve it?

i swore i will do it.. wont break the promise.
once i din give up, the promise doesnt consider as break.
i wont make empty promise to u.
cuz u r the one who is important for me.
gv me more time..
can i call u tonight? let me know if u can.

having meeting later..
i gotta miss her so much.
good luck n add oil..

-engleong-

sorry again~

haha.. i dunno wad to blog.
main purpose for this blog. to release sadness

ya.. totally emo now..
feel like crying.
did a stupid thing.. keep calling when her dad next to her.
i really nt an understanding ppl.
sorry..

i really feel to cry.
bt controlling myself nt to.
i m juz too emotional..
sorry~

-engleong-

tomorrow gonna be our big day..

birthday~

is that important?? sure it is..

bt can u sure that tomorrow u sure will feel happy becuz of this..???

i cant make sure of this..i m juz worrying about something.. scare there is something gonna happen tomorrow..which can make me sad..

i HOPE i juz think too much! anyway.. i know my dear will make me hyper.!!!

wakaka.

first of all.. gonna say happy birthday to myself..

Tomorrow is my birthday..

i will nt know wad's gonna happen to me tomorrow in skul..

bt i know i will nt really care.. wakaka..

n most importantly...

Happy birthday to zun zen~

=) we having same birthday date

=) i can celebrate with u

=) happy birthday

=) may all ur wishes come true

i juz cant wait for tomolo!

btw, i gt ntg to say for now..

-engleong-

i m home~

finally i studied today!
i promised myself to study be4 july bt end up with playing computer everyday..
however, i m nt really concentrate becuz thr is something else in my mind which distracted me from studying..
i m nt in a good or bad mood at all.. juz neutral..
last time i used to be either very good or very bad mood in a day..
no matter what happen.. bt surely wont be in a neutral mood..
i juz dunno y today i feel that so.

sometimes i really think that frens are no longer appear in my lifes..
everyone who beside me.. i dunno can i consider them as my frens or juz passer by in my life..
my life is tough.. i juz have to go through everything hardly n with all my effort..
no matter in skul, family or outside...
life isnt that easy yet it is very complicated n tough..
i hope i can pass through every obstacles that i meet in my life..
wish me luck guys n girls...
i need it so much!

let's talk about today..
skip everything about P&P..
she called me suddenly to ask for meng tsu phone number..
i wish to talk to u longer..
bt anyhow, u r in skul n u say money is running out..
so.. forced to say bye to u..
after skul..
every lower 6 CLU committee are busy preparing chinese chess competition..
i m one of them.. n of cuz.. i did alot works as i m the head of the judges of this activity..
this is freaking tiring n tis could make me headache..
i stand for almost 3 hours in a day.. juz to walk around n look how's the progress of the competition..
luckily everything went nt too bad.. bt nt good enuf..
i m nt really satisfy with wad i have done..
anyway.. it is over n we did a great job..
left semi-final n final on this friday~
let's work hard for it CLU!

this is the 6th year i join CLU..
we r getting closer n closer..
i hope we can do better than the year i joined be4..

i still haven received ur reply.. i m worrying about u~

-engleong-

blogging in skul..

this is the first time i blog using skul computer..
it is fun bt yet.. scary..
suddenly someone come from behind n ask.. wad r u doin..
den i m dead! wakaka
however.. juz plan to post a short post here..
to show that i m blogging in skul!

bye everyone who is reading my blog..

-engleong-

i m nt feeling well....

my heart.. aching..

stop thinking!!

be happy~!

u can do it!

原来

i choose this topic as i saw it randomly from dunno where..
juz to type some craps bt couldnt think of the topic of this post..
suddenly moody come strike my mind..
i dunno y la~! i juz dun wanna be emo god back..
wakaka.

wad happen today.. boring duh! dunno wad to do for the whole day..
maths... i always fall asleep la..
how! i cant concentrate.. =(
how to study at home... i cant.. =(
i very stress n many problems will occur if i din score well in my first exam!
i m worried..
wad to do!!!! no one can help anyway!

boring!

i m trying to relate this post to the title..
wakaka. bt i dunno how..
原来，我不是一个好男人。
原来，我一点也不了解。
原来，我还是那么的幼稚。
原来，我。。。

-engleong-