emo day.. fren emo too..

喜欢一个人真的很累。
尤其是喜欢上一个不应该爱上的人。
叹气！！
也只是因为一个人。
她的一切，足以让影响你的心情。
或许真的不应该爱上她。
伤了的心，该如何让他痊愈。
默默的等待，并不是解决的方法。

haiz..
Zun Zen:
y u so emo today??
frens?? juz dun care about them..
i know u feel stress n u still care about them..
bt they did that to u..
anyway.. hope u will be happy after this..
i m mood less now oso.. dunno y.. suddenly de lool..
no wonder la.. cuz u emo oso.. make me sad nia.. wakaka..
we same bfday de le.. sedikit sebanyak sure influence each other de lol..
hope u wil be ok tomolo.. and when i chat with u.. we both oso hyper la
haiz...

Exam Week.. Unexpected!!!!

this whole week is exam week..
every form five students are busy studying n preparing for their test..
n nt forget.. get tips from other classes.. including me!!
This exam really make all of us sad n tired lol..
no one prepared for it.. all burn midnight oil to study..
luckily i gt a lot frineds from other skuls..
can get tips.. wakaka..
juz finished study Add Math.. is freaking hard man... the are so many FORMULAE...
i need to memorise and understand all the formulae so that i wont get confused during exam..
haiz... tiring!!
dun think thats over.. tell u.. u r wrong..
tomolo biology paper 2.. i haven study form 5 syllabus..
lazy to study.. no mood to study.. really tired la..
sit for the exam whole day ady lol.. ok??
of cuz need to rest wad.. u think i m SUPERMAN OR WAD..
Superman not human is it?? sure tired one lol..

lets talk about yesterday..
yesterday ntg much.. still the same.. woke up at 5.30am n helped mum to do some works.
after that went to skul by car
quite boring.. n oso tired.. cuz told u ma.. gt EXAM...
then during afternoon thr are ntg special lol.. whole day juz study study study and study..
waiting for skul bell ring...!!
finally finished skul..
so wad!! cant go home oso.. stupid skul rules..
every TUESDAY n WEDNESDAY muz stay back for ur clubs and society..
otherwise u will catch by teacher n a warning letter will send to ur house soon..
wad to do.. juz stay in my brother's class lol.. ntg to do..
den stayed back for horticultural club (Taman Sains)..
to clean a place for us to build another TAMAN..
wakaka.. We will become a historical ppl in Victoria Institution soon..
very happy liao..
within half an hour.. we all kena halau by En. Salahuddin..
cuz some stupid events havig in our skul n all of us suppose to be in the hall..
bt seems like no one care about it.. except for those form 1 n 2.. cuz they all still young.. dunno anything about VI.. if they stay longer.. sure they all will do the same thing as wad we did.. n they very guai one.. wakaka.. teacher is holding the ROTAN.. wah.. I VERY SCARE A!!!
i already biasa lol.. if u want hit den hit la.. like i care onli..
i went home around 4 o clock with my brother..
in the car i was discussing sumthing with him about gathering..
about our show.. (theen meng, me, ZZ and oso Erica)
at first ntg happen.. den when i mentioned again who are goin to perform the show..
he stopped me.. n said.. SBU (Zun Zen) shuldnt involve in this performance..
cuz this is VI's performance..
actually i understand wad he think..i know.. bt i already settle everything..
the script oso i prepared.. now u tell me she cant in..
wad u expect me to do.. change the script.. ask the one i hate the most to sing with me..
i rather quit the performance.. nvm.. i dun care..
two ppl enuf lol den.. theen meng n erica sing enuf.. i plan the script.. (emo-ing)
reach home within 30 minutes++
on9 to check my mail.. ntg special.. juz some friendster n facebook messages..
waiting for ZZ to on.. n tell her wad happened that day...
really sad n emo when i talked about that thing.. HAIZ...
ok.. stop talking about that.. thats all for wads happened yesterday..

now back to today..
exam lol.. den now.. blogging lol..
din msn-ing la.. although i on la.. bt then no one chat with me.. so i oso dun want disturb them lol..
thinking about something.. shuld i join the choir team this year..
i dunno..
all of them are quitting.. i join for wad.. bt i really want to stay in that..
cuz i like to sing...
haiz.. dunno wad to do.. wad shuld i do... i dunno... AH!!! annoying...
and oso the chinese essay competition..
i really interested in that bt then igt no time to write the essay..
i gt many idea in my mind now.. bt lazy to do.. exam -ing.. need to study...
moral project have to pass up by end of this month... haiz..
now resting onli lol.. juz finished study Add Math..
biology haven studied yet.. n oso chemistry..
if we really need to sit for chemistry paper tomolo.. i think all of us sure fail..
so far i dunno who studied chemistry... even CHU SHEN din study it oso.. wakaka..
den failed TOGETHER..

to someone..
i saw u on9 now.. thats y i purposely set my status to busy..
see whether will u find me?? bt u din do that..
i know that i failed.. failed to love someone..
cuz i think she juz treat me as a fren.. haiz..

H@iZ

dunno y..
today very tired n moodless..
playing chess with my frens bt i keep on losing..
wad the!!!
wad happened to me..
haiz.. now very late ady lol.. haiz..
miss her so much..
i very scare..
i scare she feel annoyed le.
i scare she avoid from me..
HAIZ..
EMO-ING

Stupid fellow.. I m the Rubbish.. I m the bastard.. i m the U$3LeS$ GuY!!

AND

THE EMO KING
emo-ing now.. sorry..

AH!!! I cant go for it

oh my god lol..
alamak... tomolo is the deadline for the thinkquest competition..
rushing now.. have to finish it by today.. otherwise i cant get the certificate..

back to the last week activity that organize by VICTORIA INSTITUTION CHINESE LANGUAGE UNION.- THE Victoria Cup Chinese Chess Competition.

damn excited for both day.. last saturday n sunday..

the first day of C.C.C.
very busy n sweaty for the whole day..
really work non-stop lol..
early in the morning have to fetch my 'aiya' brother (everyone keep saying he is my brother)
then onli we go to skul..
we reach skul at 6 sumthing...
very busy.. need to arrange table.. tie the banner.. arrange the prize.. the souvenier.. n oso the PA system..
wah.. really tired...
n lastly, arrange around 60++ chess set... wad the... (dying lol)
haiz... finally finish arrange n prepare everything..
then we start to let other skuls student come into the SCHOOL HALL..
This year is the tenth year of doin this activity.. n this is the first time we held it in the SCHOOL HALL..
so proud.. HISTORY of CHINESE LANGUAGE UNION wei.. wakaka..
the first day i had played with three skuls.. they were Taman Kosas, SBU and Kepong Baru lol..
very sad lol.. lost two rounds and onli win one round.. yerrr, sui dao.. how come i so bad... i cant believe myself wei..
wad the hell.. scolding myself when i lost.. i got second place in my skul bt lost so many rounds here.. AHAHAHAHAHAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! UNBELIEVABLE....
Actually i m nt very good in that bt i quite confident when i m playing.. bt how come i will lose..
haiz.. nvm.. telling myself.. tomolo can chase back.. sure???

the second day of competition..
the most exciting day between both days..
i win two rounds bt lost one round..
wakaka.. all terbalik.. on that day i fight against Catholic, MBS Sentul n oso Kepong baru (sent three team..)
obviously.. i lost to catholic lol.. but i beat another two..
suddenly feel that i m geng man.. wakaka..
both games oso very good..
when versus MBS Sentul i almost lost.. bt luckily i can change the result. n finally i help my team get one point..
BT unluckily, overall we still lost..
n some sad thing happen on that day..
two skul have BLACKLISTED.. THEY cant join our CHINSES CHESS COMPETITION lol.. wah.. quite happy lol.. they nvr think about themselves. it will onli make their skuls worst.. nvr use brain n think b4! brainless..stupid ass..
nvm.. they wanna go, then juz go away.. we wont care.. many skuls still support us.. dun think u r very big n strong.. sorry!! i can tell u that u r totally wrong..
TO THE PNE WHO SCOLD MY SENIOR..
* u stupid ass.
if u dunno anything juz shut ur fucking mouth n stuck ur headinto the toilet bowl..
do u think u r stronger than him..
no.. u cant beat him.. cuz u r totally a rubbish.. even worst than me.. shut ur fucking mouth n back to ur rubbish skul.. ASS HOLE.. memalukan CHINESE.*

Sorry to all the readers.. if u read my blog pls forgive me talk so many rude word here.. cuz i really angry when i think about this..
AH!!!!!!!!!!
reduce my anger here...
WTF...... really feel like wanna punch that guy..

overall we get fifth place lol. (do not include those two skuls..)
quite happy lol..
okok nia..

ok.. finish about the chinese chess competition.. the conclusion is..
i m happy, sad, angry, n excited..
wakaka...

now about the title!!!
aiya.. i cant go for SBU camp maybe..
i wanna go de lol..
bt on the same day my skul having CARNIVAL...
i wanna go... SBU ONE DAY CAMP..
bt sorry zun zen n kien yong.. i cant make it..
i really wanna join u all.. bt skul n my BROTHER dun let...
haiz..
sad...
emo.........

AH!!!!!!!!!!!!!
!@#$%
soli...................
haiz.. thats all for today...
bb!!!!

Whats happening today..

Today is a freaking free day..
morining woke up.. same as the day i passed b4 this..
helped mum to do works...
after that go to skul by borther's car.
actually i feel very nice..
cuz i dun need to go to skul by LRT anymore..
dun need to walk to skul...
dun need to waste money..
dun need to waste energy..
very tired one u know if i walk to skul..
need go up stairs.. cross road.. so complicating n tiring..
wakaka.. i slept in my brother's car. it was so nice..
i think my brother will hate himself.. y he wanna learn how to drive.. if nt he can be like me.. sleep in the car..
wakaka... (dun jealous la..)(talking to my brother)

today really free at all the time..
juz study for few periods onli cuz today thr are many activities held in my skul..
Additional Mathematics Course and Teacher Meeting..
i din join for the course bcuz one of the reason is need to pay money.. n the fees is freaking expensive..
it costs RM 90.00 lol..
is juz few hours thr.. i rather spend it for KASTURI TUITION CENTRE.. i add 2 more ringgit can go for two months ady lol.. u think i so stupid mie...
bt according to my frens..
the teacher who teached us in the course is really good lol..
this course start at 7.40am til 2 sumthing..
all my teachers are lazy to teach us since thr r so few ppl in the class.. (they were nt attending to the course.. they were flying without wings.)
onli a 'hardworking' teacher teached us today.. thats our CHEMISTRY teacher, Penolong Kanan 1.. she really bored wei.. dun even know how to speak english, EVEN I oso better than her.
if i m better than her means she is really bad lol.. i already bad in english wad..wakaka..

finaal chemistry finish.. EST period now.. wah.. this one lagi geng.. teacher teach us how to do mind map.. wakaka.. WE DUNNO HOW TO DO LOL...wakaka.. all of us finished her work by using few minutes den pass up to her ady.. after EST.. all the following subjects are relief periods.. there are no teacher in our class so all of us decided to play cards in the class..
unfortunately, my Form teacher came in my class to ask about sumthing..
aiyo... terkantoi lol... she saw us playing cards n try to rampas it.. OH MY GOD.. is nt our deck.. bt at last she gave us back the deck...
huhuhuhu.. luckily. if nt i have to pay bck a deck for my fren ady lol..
wakaka..

finally skul finish..
staying back for CLU to draw the banner of Chinese Chess Competition..
very ugly lol.. mayb haven finish gua.. haiz...
4 pm went home.. very tired.. boring..

ZUN ZEN...
wad time u on de le?? faster lol.. wakaka.. wanna ask u sumthing.. waiting for u..

personality test.

Your view on yourself:
You are intelligent, honest and sweet. You are friendly to everybody and don't like conflict. Because you're so cheerful and fun people are naturally attracted to you and like to talk to you.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:
You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?

Your views on education
You may not like to study but you have many practical ideas. You listen to your own instincts and tend to follow your heart, so you will probably end up with an unusual job.

The right job for you:
You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:
You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:
You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you.

Who is your true self:
You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

is it a suprise??? suprise!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

today go to skul by brother car..
still the same..
help mum to do some works onli we go to skul..
when we reached skul.. wad to do.. of cuz go back our own class lol
aiyo.. today monday..
got aseembly..
feel sleepy le.. summore gt VIP came to our skul today.. make the assembly became longer n longer..
around 7.45 the assembly started and ended at 9.50..
two hours!!! ==' (really feel like dying)
the stupid teacher... asked us to sing Malay songs?? i dun even know the lyrics.. how to sing..
u teach me a?? huh!!!!!!!
all the chinese were like WTF!!! is this an assembly or a party..
bt we din enjoy it.. so it was like a hell.. (suffering)
my fren was the emcee for today assembly.. he spoke freaking loud until the PA system occured a bit problem..
everyone was laughing at him.. how he did that huh!!
to fix the PA thing already spent 15 mins.. oh my god... pls make it fast.. dun u know TIME IS GOLD????

finally skul finish at 2.35pm..
i went to my brother class n tell him.. i m nt staying back for choir since my MISS President- WONG LEE YEN informed me thr will be a practise today juz one hour b4 the practise..
PLS la.. how i manage my time..
unluckily, my brother told me i m nt taking part in the competition anyore cuz i din go for practise..
lets make it clear.. i went practise..
bt two weeks b4 this. i had basketball competiton.. how i go..
this month pula gt moral project need to do.. 8 essays... end of this month gt intervensi test.. mid-month pula gt Chinese Chess Competition.. is a grand activity..
i cant manage my time to go for the practise..
pls.. nt i dun want to go bt i cant go...
anyway, it is nt a bad thing too.. at least i have more time to finish my stuff .. CLU, Academic, Projects and also my HOMEWORKS....
Pls let me make myself clear.. nt because of yee xuan, nt because i hate anyone from choir.. i really cant manage my time..

i starting to feel i m really useless..
i m a bastard, a rubbish..
i cant even do my things well..
dun u feel that too...
no matter in wad things..
academic, cocuriculum, homework, n also my life..
i keep thinking about this when i reach home..
y m i so fucking useless.....
USELESS BASTARD...... totally a rubbish..
a rubbish that even a begger wont pick up too..
feel so frustrated, bored...
EMO KING IS FUCKING EMO FOR TODAY...

Zun Zen:
few days nvr chat with u ady lol.. i m very frustrated now.. onli u can cheer me up.. faster on lol..
haiz..!!!!!!!!!!!!!

emo king like a girl.. he wanna know wad her response
so that he wont feel so scare n worry...
bt no one can help him.. he feel so helpless... he dun have the courage to tell that gal that he likes her...
haiz..
EMO king is emo-ing.... (if u treat me as ur fren. pls dun ask me about tis.. juz leave it here.. thx!!)

I LoV3 YoU

I L0VE3YoU

lOvE YOu FoR3vEr

Ne3D yoU $o MuCh

I cAnT L1ve WiThOut Y0u ju$T beCaU$e

I R3alLy LOv3 YoU

!!!!!!

alLoW m3 nOt To $aY h3R nAm3 Out.

THX!!

Emo again..

today actually a happy day for me.
cuz i got second place for chinese chess competition which is organized by Victoria Institution Chinese Languange Union.
bt anyway, i m nt really happy with it.
i had played with many of my good frens. it was like i m hurting them.. cuz i had defeated them..
sorry my frens.. bt thx for ur wishes..
tai foong, yeong han, ivan, yie der n oso zi jian.. thx for coming n help me to become the referees and players. Thx for supporting me.. i m glad to know u all..
hope yeong han can win for the next match.. cuz if he win that match.. means the top three are all form 5..
that form one guy really nt bad.. if he play more.. mayb he can win..
haiz.. happiness gone becuz of my brother..
wad his problem.. he dun let me chat with zun zen..
i like to chat with her lol.. u have no right to stop me chatting with her..
this makes me freaking emo n sad..
i really angry at that moment..

ok.. now back to the things i passed today..
today whole day keep on running around the skul..
i was finding puan lee cuz there are sumthing important n urgent i have to do..
i have joined an essay competition although i know that i gt no chance to win at all..
it is really bad... i m not confident at all.. i juz wanna get the marks for cocuriculum..
same as chinese chess competition.. i juz wanna get marks for my co-cu bt then i won.. ver y excited..
if my VI frens read this. sure they will say i lansi... wakaka.. i really feel excited k??
the first time i won le.. of cuz happy la.
gaka is now chatting with me.. she said she feel bored..
wakaka.. bored onli cum n find me.. so sui one.. haha..
anyway.. she is one of my best fren.. she chat with me i feel happy oso de.. n really long time nvr chat through msn liao lol.. she always busy..
next saturday VI CUP interschool chinese chess competition again. i m one of the representative for my skul.. bt then i feel a bit scared although i already represented my skul to play with other skuls last few years.. cuz i m nt really good in this..

dunno wad else to write.. about my love story???
so far i gt no any love story lo.. juz like sumone onli..
i dunno whether i m serious or nt.. bt future cant predict. (this is wad zun zen said)
so, i oso cant talk much here..

ok lol.. gtg.. bb.. update next time.. thx for those who read my blog..

test urself

wads is my number between 1-10.. choose lol..

cannot see the answer b4 u choose..























1. the one u depend on
2. be doomed to be together.
3. best friend
4. the one u love
5. the one u hate
6. a good husband/wife..
7. the one u care n u keep in ur heart
8. a person who depend on u
9. abnormal or metamorphosis
10. good friend