Today..

i hate to write blog start from now..
i read back my blogs today.. most of them are stupid sad blogs...
finally i realize the reason y my life is sad n meaningless..
is depends on the person himself.. i mean myself..
every decisions i made are bad decisions..
no matter what happened.. every decisions i made can make my frens crazy..

this juz happened yesterday...
i misunderstood one thing..
i thought i lost a fren..
bt actually is not..

n long long time ago..
when i was still together wif her.
i always figured out what will happen if we seperate..
my frens asked me:" Y dont u think from another side, i mean a good one, nt a bad one.."
i answered her: "i dunno"

and now, i knew it..
because i m useless.. haha..
of cuz it is not my reason..
i think from a bad side everytime is juz to let me know how to settle the thing easier..
i can figure out a way to settle the problems before they happen..

many of my frens do not understand me..
so, nowadays i dont have a really best best fren.
sigh~~~
listening to a song..
posting this blog.
there are nothing else to let me do..
cuz my life is really boring..
i dunno how to play on9 games. i cant find out any excitement for myself..
juz hope that someone really free to chat wif me..

my primary skul frens...
i miss u all so much..
find out one day go out n play together..

finally i watched HSM 3..
i like it so much man..
it really touched me..
if my school life can be exactly same as the story..
sure i will feel happy..
if my basketball skills can be as good as Troy..
sure i can beat everyone in my skul..
if my love story will be like troy n gabriella..
i rather die.. everytime oso seperate one..
every episode sure seperate once..
haha..
my whole new idol-- Zac Efron and Vanessa anne Hudgens
i love YOU.....

dunno wad else to write..
waiting for someone call..
BYE~~~

sigh..... a long post..

come back here agion.. always with the same mood.. of cuz is a BAD mood lol..
i feel like wanna escape from this reality bt the days i past tell me that i cant..
y i said so..
is very obvious.. my MSN personal message-- i think i lost a fren..BYE>>
i dun want that happen to me..
y u so cruel to me..
is such a bad bad thing to me..
i feel sad n bad, not because of u dun reply my message or u hate me bt is i dun even know the reason y u hate me..
why why why..
i tried to ask ur fren from ur skul wad happened to u..
y u treat me so badly n talk to me so rudely..
i feel tremendously sad.. i cant say anything about u.. i dont think we can meet or chat or play together anymore instead u forgive me n tell me by yourself..
however, if u really hate me, at least u tell me the reason n i will try to change it..
haiz...

nowadays, i feel my life is so annoyed n bored..
finally i felt that.. especially this holiday..
nothing to do at home n keep helping my mum do some works..
non-stop n restless..
i dunno wad to do.. i cant make my life perfect..
i dun think it is a good thing bt think inversely, it is such a tiring life..
i felt tired n wanna rest..
i cant stay in this condition anymore bt they force me to stay..

juz read theen meng's blog..
is such a meangful blog..
die actually is not a bad thing..
n born actually is not a good thing too..
y i said so..
the reason for this... i mean it is oso for myself..
borned actually is the start if ur tiring n meaningless life..
n death is the end of it..
i agree... i never bend this text n very very agree about it..
if i could end my life.. i wont feel sad bt face it happily..

bt now, i dun think i can make it.. becuz i lost a lot of thing in my life..
like wad i said juz now.. i lost a fren..
a best fren..
n she make me feel sad..
haiz..
sigh
sigh sigh
sigh sigh sigh
everyday .....

boring.....
Useless guy...
be a useful guy...

IF U THINK U CAN, U CAN..
BE A MAN..
U CAN DO IT, U CAN DO IT...

believe in myself.. i got the power to make everything success...
hopefully..