sigh..... a long post..

come back here agion.. always with the same mood.. of cuz is a BAD mood lol..
i feel like wanna escape from this reality bt the days i past tell me that i cant..
y i said so..
is very obvious.. my MSN personal message-- i think i lost a fren..BYE>>
i dun want that happen to me..
y u so cruel to me..
is such a bad bad thing to me..
i feel sad n bad, not because of u dun reply my message or u hate me bt is i dun even know the reason y u hate me..
why why why..
i tried to ask ur fren from ur skul wad happened to u..
y u treat me so badly n talk to me so rudely..
i feel tremendously sad.. i cant say anything about u.. i dont think we can meet or chat or play together anymore instead u forgive me n tell me by yourself..
however, if u really hate me, at least u tell me the reason n i will try to change it..
haiz...

nowadays, i feel my life is so annoyed n bored..
finally i felt that.. especially this holiday..
nothing to do at home n keep helping my mum do some works..
non-stop n restless..
i dunno wad to do.. i cant make my life perfect..
i dun think it is a good thing bt think inversely, it is such a tiring life..
i felt tired n wanna rest..
i cant stay in this condition anymore bt they force me to stay..

juz read theen meng's blog..
is such a meangful blog..
die actually is not a bad thing..
n born actually is not a good thing too..
y i said so..
the reason for this... i mean it is oso for myself..
borned actually is the start if ur tiring n meaningless life..
n death is the end of it..
i agree... i never bend this text n very very agree about it..
if i could end my life.. i wont feel sad bt face it happily..

bt now, i dun think i can make it.. becuz i lost a lot of thing in my life..
like wad i said juz now.. i lost a fren..
a best fren..
n she make me feel sad..
haiz..
sigh
sigh sigh
sigh sigh sigh
everyday .....

boring.....
Useless guy...
be a useful guy...

IF U THINK U CAN, U CAN..
BE A MAN..
U CAN DO IT, U CAN DO IT...

believe in myself.. i got the power to make everything success...
hopefully..