Missing u..

I dunno wad to say wad to do..
long time nvr have this feeling..
i dun think i can forget her..
or maybe i can say as i nvr forget her..
she is too important in my life..
i really felt happy wehn we was together..
i hate myself more than anyone, anything...
i should bcum stronger..
y dun i juz be a monk.. den maybe i can escape from it..
seriously.. do u think i can?
even myself cant bliv it..
i hate the time i passed together with u.
i hate it..
i make me feel sad..
my heart!!! Full of disappointment..
nothing can i do..
trying to forget u...
thats impossible.. I think??
too bad... it already past..
is a history..
过去种种便让它过去吧。。
让他成为我心中的历史把ba吧。。。。

haiz..

aiyo..
boring..
yesterday went out with my primary skul's frens..
really have a lot of fun with them..
bt too bad..
we nvr take pic together,,
all those sweet memories cant keep long...
all will pass very fast..
sad sad sad..
help me pls..
i wan go out n play...

Today..

i hate to write blog start from now..
i read back my blogs today.. most of them are stupid sad blogs...
finally i realize the reason y my life is sad n meaningless..
is depends on the person himself.. i mean myself..
every decisions i made are bad decisions..
no matter what happened.. every decisions i made can make my frens crazy..

this juz happened yesterday...
i misunderstood one thing..
i thought i lost a fren..
bt actually is not..

n long long time ago..
when i was still together wif her.
i always figured out what will happen if we seperate..
my frens asked me:" Y dont u think from another side, i mean a good one, nt a bad one.."
i answered her: "i dunno"

and now, i knew it..
because i m useless.. haha..
of cuz it is not my reason..
i think from a bad side everytime is juz to let me know how to settle the thing easier..
i can figure out a way to settle the problems before they happen..

many of my frens do not understand me..
so, nowadays i dont have a really best best fren.
sigh~~~
listening to a song..
posting this blog.
there are nothing else to let me do..
cuz my life is really boring..
i dunno how to play on9 games. i cant find out any excitement for myself..
juz hope that someone really free to chat wif me..

my primary skul frens...
i miss u all so much..
find out one day go out n play together..

finally i watched HSM 3..
i like it so much man..
it really touched me..
if my school life can be exactly same as the story..
sure i will feel happy..
if my basketball skills can be as good as Troy..
sure i can beat everyone in my skul..
if my love story will be like troy n gabriella..
i rather die.. everytime oso seperate one..
every episode sure seperate once..
haha..
my whole new idol-- Zac Efron and Vanessa anne Hudgens
i love YOU.....

dunno wad else to write..
waiting for someone call..
BYE~~~

sigh..... a long post..

come back here agion.. always with the same mood.. of cuz is a BAD mood lol..
i feel like wanna escape from this reality bt the days i past tell me that i cant..
y i said so..
is very obvious.. my MSN personal message-- i think i lost a fren..BYE>>
i dun want that happen to me..
y u so cruel to me..
is such a bad bad thing to me..
i feel sad n bad, not because of u dun reply my message or u hate me bt is i dun even know the reason y u hate me..
why why why..
i tried to ask ur fren from ur skul wad happened to u..
y u treat me so badly n talk to me so rudely..
i feel tremendously sad.. i cant say anything about u.. i dont think we can meet or chat or play together anymore instead u forgive me n tell me by yourself..
however, if u really hate me, at least u tell me the reason n i will try to change it..
haiz...

nowadays, i feel my life is so annoyed n bored..
finally i felt that.. especially this holiday..
nothing to do at home n keep helping my mum do some works..
non-stop n restless..
i dunno wad to do.. i cant make my life perfect..
i dun think it is a good thing bt think inversely, it is such a tiring life..
i felt tired n wanna rest..
i cant stay in this condition anymore bt they force me to stay..

juz read theen meng's blog..
is such a meangful blog..
die actually is not a bad thing..
n born actually is not a good thing too..
y i said so..
the reason for this... i mean it is oso for myself..
borned actually is the start if ur tiring n meaningless life..
n death is the end of it..
i agree... i never bend this text n very very agree about it..
if i could end my life.. i wont feel sad bt face it happily..

bt now, i dun think i can make it.. becuz i lost a lot of thing in my life..
like wad i said juz now.. i lost a fren..
a best fren..
n she make me feel sad..
haiz..
sigh
sigh sigh
sigh sigh sigh
everyday .....

boring.....
Useless guy...
be a useful guy...

IF U THINK U CAN, U CAN..
BE A MAN..
U CAN DO IT, U CAN DO IT...

believe in myself.. i got the power to make everything success...
hopefully..

haiz..
cant go for genting trip..
y la... stupid prefects board... suddenly set the camp on that day
i cant go ady.. sorry my fren.. enjoy la...

失去你的第二十天

不知不觉，已经第二十天了。。
伤心的心情还是无法平伏。。
看见你的照片，
让我有一股的心酸涌上心头。。
我真的无法忘记对你所有的情意。。
对不起，
不过我真的无法控制我自己的情绪。。
只能用我的‘那首歌’来表达我对你的情意。。
只希望，如果你读过这一个部落格,可以明白我所说的每一句话。。
我并没有任何暗藏意义，只是我的心情。。
想你，等你，爱你就是我唯一能做的事。。
一生一世都等你的人。。
一生一世都爱你的人。。
一生一世都想你的人。。

生命中的挫折

我的命运就是如此悲惨。。。。
生命中，经过多少风风雨雨。。
始终斗不过她的一句话。
一句话决定了我的一生，
我不服！！！！
我不想得到如此的结局。
我真的很爱她，但却斗不过她的心魔，
这件事真的让我跌进谷底无法自拔。
晴天霹雳，让我不知所措。
我很害怕，怕永远都会失去她。。
我不想。。因为我知道，我不会忘记她。
永远爱她吧！！

看清楚。

叶子随风而飘，
鱼儿在水中游，
喧哗热闹的世界，已不再属于我。
我只祈求安定的生活，
爱一个人直到一辈子。
‘你’ 就是我爱的人，
一直到天荒地老。
生存日子，没有你，
一辈子也不会快乐。
世界上，只要有你的存在，对我而言，就已经足够。

昨日，今日

昨日心惊胆跳，
今日心事重重。
一波未平，一波又起。
难过的日子，一天比一天多，
一天比一天难挨。
爱一个人，从中可以获得你梦寐以求的快乐；
也可以无意撞到你不想要的难过。
但我相信，我可以。。

hurray...

今天，
我感到很开心，
因为，
她肯陪我一起吃午餐。
哈哈，
很开心，
前所未有的感觉。
永远都是这样，
那该多好啊！

Believe me,k??

y dun u believe me,
i like u not bcuz of ur face.
is juz bcuz i feel happy when i be with u..
i know about ur past love story that make u feel that i m oso such ppl..
but i tell u, i m not..

伤害

我想说，
如果这一次成功了，
我一定会很开心，
很可惜，
这一次，不可说是失败，但也不算成功。
只能叹气一生，遗憾一辈子
只能怪时间不对，也或许是她信不过我
我不怪她。
至少她肯让我等，只要有一线希望
我也不会放弃。
Love U Forever...

emo 的我

不知为何，
我做错了一件事，
竟然让我和我的朋友，
差一些就反脸了。
我很内疚，
是因为我任为我真的做错了。
我不知道，
就是因为我指责了她几句，
她便放弃了我们。
令我更的内疚的是，
我接受不了她如此大的反应，
令我措手不及，
不知如何是好。
伤心，
所以令我流泪。
真的不想这样，
就搞得一团糟。
都是我的错，
是我没好好的去谈这件事，
讨厌我自己。
可恶的我，
令人难受，
令人难过。

对”爱“的看法

爱，
只是心里的一种幻想，
你只能默默等待，
而不能一生拥有，
你越强求，
只会让你伤得越痛。

爱，
只是人们的一种要求，
只是你生命的一部分，
而不是你生命的一切，
你越注重它，
只会让你用远离不开“悲伤”这两个字。

爱，
只是人们的一种梦想，
它只能给你带来一时的快乐，
而不是永恒的幸福，
你越想得到它，
它与你的距离只会越来越远。

爱，
令人难受，令人烦恼，
但我却时时刻刻的想念它，
我不是自作孽，
而是我没尝试过，
难道所有事，都要像放风筝一样，
线断了，风筝高挂树头上，
失败后，才来后悔，
但是，已经来不及了。

人类阿！！！

很多事都是那么奇妙，
人。。
也是一样很奇妙的东西。
人的思维，是很复杂的。。

当你没有一样东西时，你就会想尽办法得到它。
当你拥有了那样东西时，加上时间的蹉跎，
你就会觉得它是非常碍眼的。。

当你看见别人拥有一样东西是，而那是你没有的，你就会羡慕他人。
但你有没有想过，别人也会妒嫉一些你有而他没有的东西。
就像你在羡慕他的东西一样。。

当你没有爱情是，你就会想要试一试它的滋味。
跳入爱河，到底是什么感觉。。是甜还是苦？？
当你拥有了爱情后，你就会觉得你追求它自是在自讨苦吃。。

我，想逃离这无聊的生活。。
人缘真的是那么重要吗？？
人缘差难道就不能活了吗？？
谁说的！！我pei....

叶之诗

绿色的草原，
是我的大地，
风轻轻吹着，
令我开心不已。
一阵猛风吹来，
让我在空中飘逸，
无忧无虑，
自由的飞翔。

蓝蓝的海滩，
是我的睡床，
望着猛热的太阳，
给了我无数的温暖。
无人的环境，
我为所欲为。

你那温暖的笑容，
燃烧了我心中的一团火，
融化了我那冷酷的心，
生命充满欢乐，自由自在。
何乐而不为呢？？