拒绝。。

拒绝一个人，
真的是不好受。
尤其是要拒绝一个曾经视为最要好的朋友。
当然，现在也是。
只不过有些事往往就必须二选一。
而不幸的是，你是被拒绝的那一位。
我很对不起你，该在之前就好讲清楚。
直到现在，我不能再那么自私。
你可以找到更好的。
或许在见面，我们都会很尴尬。
但我们还是好友。永远的好友。

拒绝=挣扎
诚实=残忍
欺骗=自私

在爱情里，并没有对与错。
只有爱与不爱。
我很相信这一句话。
爱一个人并没有错，唯有选错了该爱的对象。

说再见，是为了以后在想见的时候。
可以用这一个词语。来作为结尾。
永远都能再相见。

朋友。对不起。

absent!

suppose to go to skul today morning bt end up sleeping at home..
y?
i m nt lazy duh.. i stomachache in the morning..
i had it since yesterday bt i nvr care about it..
thats y today morning still pain..
bt at last had medicine den sleep again..
stomachache cure.. n now flu attacks me..
bad day la wei.. i wanna study! exam coming soon!
let me study please..
after i blog will be studying for the whole day?
mayb.. haha.
sometimes i really beh tahan den come here n on9!
haha. anyway~
juz a short post today..
bye~

-engleong-

days before exam..

wad do u think about me these days..
ya.. i did change alot.
i thought it was a achivement in my life..
u know? i hardly change myself juz becuz of u.
y?
the power of love? ya..i think so..
mayb for others this is wad they call stupid becuz i fall in love with someone i dunno she love me or not.. n i dun even know.. will i get what i want..
however, i m sure wad i wan n i dun care about the results..
no matter good or bad.. as long as i enjoy now..
everything is fine.
this is wad i always think
bt things that very hard to carry on in my life.

n sumtimes..
thing juz go worse n worst when good thing juz onli happened..
yesterday....
i dun want to talk about it anymore..
i really scare when u din reply me at all..
u said u r nt angry with me. of cuz i feel relief after u say that..
bt wad ur did after that is actually making me confuse n doubt that wad u said is true or juz lying to me..
finally.. u miss call me at 10 n i called u.
happy when the moment we talk..
i totally forget about wad happen between my brother n i..
n i juz wanna chat with u happily..
this is wad i wan n wad i think when i m talking to u in phone..
the time i chat with u.. i was smiling for the whole conversation..

n finally.. 4 hours ago..
i sms-ed u. bt u din reply..
r u sleeping?
r u busy?
r u still angry?
do u love me?

i dun dare to ask anymore question to u.
everything seem to be obstacles to me..

bt.. these cant stop me from loving u.
many ppl will nt believe this..
including u.
u will be the last person i love in my life..
cuz i believe that
if u accept, i will love you forever.
if u refuse, i will nt wanna get hurt anymore..

-engleong-

bfday party

now onli blog about it ...
as these few days i m nt really have the mood to blog..
well... back to the day of our bfday~
depart at 5 sumthing from house to lrt..
den straight to pandan jaya with sam n amanda.
waiting for kha hsuen to fetch us to Zun zen house~
haha.. thought khai hsuen know how to go.. bt actually he did nt know..
==
spend 2 hours to reach her house i think?
n at that moment i already gastric n tired..
half dead....
reach thr.. den start eating..
heating the chickens wings.
n eat...

din really eat much..
dunno y..
no appetite gua~
den chit chat a while with zun zen~ n force her to sit with me to accompany me..
wakaka..

after that. go in her house n chat with kaizer n xintao.
wern n khai hsuen too~
nt bad chatting with u guys..
talked alot with leo lai. n this make me abit emo.. cuz he ask me alot about those stuff...
==

then its time to cut cake..
made wishes... wanna know?? wakaka
dun wanna tell!~
well.. eat cake n then finish...

thats the summary for bfday celebration..
thx for everyone who wishes me..
thx for everyone who gv me presents,

=) i love ur presents.. i keep it n din use.. wakaka.. i scare i spoilt it..=)

-engleong-

我说过，我会以微笑来对待每一件事。

忽然，想起了这一句话。
在回家的路途中。想起以前对他许过的承诺。
我知道，很多很多，都是还没实现。
甚至，有些是根本没有完成到的。
但有一件事，我想了很久。
也很肯定，我是不会放弃的。
就是改变自己。
我不曾想过要放弃。
因为我知道你不会想要看到我难过的样子。
我更不想你因为我的难过，而勾起你的伤悲。
所以，我说，我会以微笑来对待每一件事。

wad i wanna express is finally finish.
i read my previous post n i saw 'swear it again'
this post reminded me about wad i had promised..
mayb i juz need to calm down myself so that i can think clearly..
n no matter wad happen.. juz like wad i said above.
我会以微笑来对待每一件事。

=)
will blog about our bfdays party!~

-engleong-

an early post!

woke up at 5.41..
dunno y juz woke up automatically den sms her..
to wish her good luck.. this reminds me of wad she did to me when i joined danau kota singing comp..
she wished me good luck in the morning although she was sick...
i felt damn sweet. haha.
dunno is it i think too much. i waited from 5.41am til 7.00am..
bt still. my phone din ring.
i thought she angry with me.
finally i cant stand for that n call her.. she told me she is nt angry.
thx god.! i really scare she get angry becuz of me..
i rather she scold me, punch me, hit me bt dun ignore me..

i thought i changed myself.. bt actually i m nt.. i juz need more time to make it a success.
will you wait for me?
can i have more time to achieve it?

i swore i will do it.. wont break the promise.
once i din give up, the promise doesnt consider as break.
i wont make empty promise to u.
cuz u r the one who is important for me.
gv me more time..
can i call u tonight? let me know if u can.

having meeting later..
i gotta miss her so much.
good luck n add oil..

-engleong-

sorry again~

haha.. i dunno wad to blog.
main purpose for this blog. to release sadness

ya.. totally emo now..
feel like crying.
did a stupid thing.. keep calling when her dad next to her.
i really nt an understanding ppl.
sorry..

i really feel to cry.
bt controlling myself nt to.
i m juz too emotional..
sorry~

-engleong-